Secrets of a pathfinder

Human. Writer. Heroine

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Alluring Darkness

Don't open the curtains

Living in darkness

Makes me feel safe

It hides my tears from being seen

And the stains on my blouse are not visible

I love the darkness

It's the colour of my heart.

Before you walked away

My world used to be painted in bright colours

Yellow, just like the sun

And blue, like the colour of the ocean

My tears were of joy

And the pain I felt were from prolonged laughter

But now,

I have nothing to laugh about

And I can't afford to be joyous

I have made peace with this darkness

It shields me

I can finally wake up and see nothing to live for

I don't know the colour of the sun anymore

And I won't be able to recognise the clouds

I'm safe here

Don't be concerned for me

I am not lonely

Darkness has become my companion

And reminds me that my pain

Is also my strength

That's why I embrace it

For its here to tone the muscles of my heart

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Secret lover

We haven't got much time left

Tick Tock,

Yet you sit at your desk

Creating ways of being on her radar

You strategise,

And make plans

But you're too shy to make the move

We haven't got much time

Tick Tock

Secret lover

The hours are passing us by

We could be together spending our nights

By the ocean,

Staring directly at the full moon

But you are still at your desk strategising.

This heart wants spontaneity

She longs for adventures

Your strategies aren't going to lure her

She's imperfect

All her edges are rough

She got scars as souvenirs

She wants a risk taker

No. She needs one

Secret lover

She ask that you

Put your heart and tricks on the table

Because,

She secretly longs for you.

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HIS SWEET LIPS

It's beautiful

That thing he does to me

I think his lips are his best assets

They leave dangerous pleasures

On my skin

And his hands

Make me feel wanted

Like a woman

Am almost addicted to this

Beautiful liar

I sometimes find myself day dreaming

About the things he does to me

And then

I snap out of it

When I remember how much

Lies those beautiful lips

Has told

Oh, those words from those lips

Drop on my skin like honey

So sweet

That this girl finds it difficult to resist

I chase after him for more of those lies

And he feeds them to me

With his lips sucking on my supple skin

And whispering delicious lies

Yes,

Those lips are his best assets

Cause they got this girl

Still day dreaming

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Her slow burial

Her pain is rare,

One she can't explain

A cig in one hand and a can of beer in the other

These are her temporary companions

No. Her daily saviour

Or maybe her death sentence

But,

They help her feel less hurt

From what your absence has caused

Her lips are sealed

And her emotions are muted

But when she drags or sips

Her heart speaks

No one has ever asked if she's ok

They judge her for her choices

Sometimes even encourage her

She knows she's not living

She has no intentions of doing that

With this cig

She hopes to give her heart

A slow burial.

Just burn... slowly

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Dear Heart, it's okay to evict the previous resident.

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Inevitable hurt

Eye bags are no longer strangers on my face. They've become wanted guests. My cracked voice caused by daily tears have become normal, people no longer ask if am okay. The dark clouds that hovers over me is now my daily companion and I feel comfortable with it being present. The trail of blood that draw traces everywhere I go caused by the axe you stabbed in my chest isn't an unusual sight. I no longer complain about it's weights because hurts are inevitable. I have now learnt to move around in pain and scars without giving it too much attention.

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Call her brave. She has had her heart broken too many times and she hasn't given up. She's not weak. She's not stupid. She's brave.

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Love is absolutely by actions. Close your ears and open your eyes.

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Your name is written all over the lyrics of this love song

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Moving on is easy. Open your eyes and recognize your worth.

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It's not like I can’t stop thinking about you. I just feel guilty when I don’t, so I make the decision to keep thoughts of you present in my mind. This is why I believe everything is a decision, even love. Yes, I decided to love you and I will undecide whenever I feel like

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It was his insecurities that clouded his judgements. He couldn't believe he was deserving of my love

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Water grows things, so does tears. That's why am never ashamed of crying.

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Her greatest phobia is feelings

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His lips are ready to lay words of encouragement on me every time I need it. His hands are ready to help and support me. His eyes stay open to see ahead of me on the path I walk. And though he has never said I love you with his words, these actions already feels like it, every single time.

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Because I know the plans you have for me and the things you want to do to me, I am already in love with you

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This brown-eyed boy has got me daydreaming

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