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Im scared I might not be able to write songs that people will likeEeeeqe

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I really liked yesterday’s makeup but sadly I don’t know how to take pictures of myself!!!!!!!!!!!

Who cares tho I’ll just keep embarrassing myself for human connection 🧘🧘

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Super amazing show plus super amazing people. I’m the luckiest person ever<3

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Show todayyyyyyyyy I’m so nervous and excited ahhshfdrds

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Okay fuck it I am working on new stuff

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With scars all over my knees

Im afraid of dying here

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I can’t draw lately. Who am I.

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I sometimes feel kind of ridiculously numb because Im here writing songs about how alienated I feel from my own body because of how Ive been harrassed by men while I see the local guys compose about jerking off

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Honestly I dont think thats inherently evil to make songs about stuff like that bc its usually just written to be fun and nonsensical, still, I just feel numb listening to it. I feel incredibly stupid. I know its not their fault but I cant help but feel disconected from people who make that type of songs. I guess I can write silly stuff too, I wish I could at the moment but I dont really feel like myself at all. I dont feel like I own my body anymore, if I even owned it at some point.

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I sometimes feel kind of ridiculously numb because Im here writing songs about how alienated I feel from my own body because of how Ive been harrassed by men while I see the local guys compose about jerking off

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Is this processed enough

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My makeup from yesterday’s show after the pride protest in my city, happy pride everyone<3

Queer liberation won’t happen until we are all free, I don’t want to be seen as a neoliberal who defends capitalism but with a rainbow stamp on it. The queer fight must be intersectional, regardless of class, ethnicity, gender or country of residence. Let’s keep fighting to make this world more habitable

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I barely draw these days because it reminds me of architecture school, but I actually want to draw and hopefully make a full painting this summer

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I visualice myself passing the driving license test

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I refuse to be an adult like wdym I’m going to get my drivers license

Also I’m waiting for a call from one member of a band who allegedly has my number to organise a concert, and that guy happens to be called Israel. Like. Why would anyone name their child Israel it’s like if I named my child Nazi Germany

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Solo es el final del mundo

Frecuentemente repito, evito comer

Nerviosamente saludo, no puedo llorar

Obsesivamente busco lo que no puedo lograr

Solo es el final del mundo

Pobremente estudio, no busco entender

Normalmente hablo, hoy me voy a callar

Duermo para escapar de lo que no voy a llegar

Pensé que me arrepentiría de esto

Pero el mundo se ha acabado

Y ya nadie baja a jugar al patio

Fui una idiota al pensar en tí

Me duele mucho el pecho

Y me sangra la nariz

Pensé que me arrepentiría de esto

Pero en verdad me hiciste feliz

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And someday you will ache like I ache

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