SHE'S BEAUTY, SHE'S GRACE

TEAGAN MALONE. She was her father’s daughter but she’d inherited her mother’s black anger. It burned through her sometimes like a chemical fire, brief and devastating and utterly unstoppable.

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GIRLS, Lena Dunham (2016)

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gaigehetchmen:

If she had chosen to hit him, he wouldn’t have faulted her for it, but he couldn’t have guaranteed a positive response. Fortunately for her, she had withheld and withdrew before he even had to make a move to catch her by the wrist before her hand could collide with his cheek. He just turned his head when she stepped closer, evading her heated gaze like his life depended on it. More for her sake than his own. “You have me all figured out.” He murmured, turning the key to finally start up the engine, realizing now that he should’ve kept it in a stale. She could’ve leveled with him, refrained from putting him on the defense right off the jump, but she hadn’t. Gaige was going to be stuck in his ways, whether she liked it or not. “It’s all on me, Teagan. Happy? It’s all on me.” With a sigh of defeat, he decided not to add any more fuel to the fire and pulled his helmet on.

Her eyes rolled as she continued to walk home. There was nothing to say anymore. Their relationship didn’t exceed further than sex. In fact, it was evident that they hated one another outside of that sexual component. Her talking annoyed him and his cold personality infuriated her. Therefore, there was nothing more to say or to talk about now that the sex was put to an end. “I’m not blaming you for liking someone, but for the way you went about it.” It was the last thing she would tell him. Though she could only hope that he knew from this point on she would not call or reach out to him. After being rejected multiple times without any real explanation and again with the confession of his desire to pursue something, it had really been taken out of her hands. The engined stared and she didn’t look back when it made it’s way down the street. She was probably better off.

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gaigehetchmen:

“For fuck’s sake, it was a joke. That’s your problem, you know that? You take everything at face value. That makes you impossible to have a conversation with.” Gaige rolled his eyes, already beginning to prep his helmet again. He could see that this was going nowhere, and even if he was to blame for it all, he knew that the best way to escape an argument was to simply walk away. His temper was boiling, and it was a miracle that he hadn’t raised his voice or overstepped his boundaries to do what he always did, manhandle her in her own apartment. “I really don’t have an issue here, so I don’t know why we’re even arguing.” Other than that being the exact thing that they did whenever they were together. “And yeah, maybe it is, but that’s not something I’m obligated to share with you, remember? If you want something from me, tell me, or else let me fuck off because you’re being the fucking worst when you start jumping to conclusions.” Her words of finality caught him, causing his tongue to press firmly against the roof of his mouth, jaw flexing. His voice softened significantly when he finally responded. “That was all you had to say, Tea.” This was why he didn’t deal with people; he didn’t know how.

It took everything inside of Teagan not to cross the distance between them and slap him. The way he jumped over every little thing she said and took no fault for any of it, instead pinning it all on her. As if she was the one putting an end to it when he’d denied her and actually admitted to wanting to stop. God, this was a waste of her time and worst of all, he wasn’t worth her time nor was he even a decent person. “You better fucking leave because I will hit you. You’re so wrapped up in yourself that you can’t even see the shit you’re doing and you constantly have to deflect on everyone else.” Her jaw tightened as she stepped close, having to remind herself to stop and not venture any closer before she actually did something she’d later on regret. “If I want something from you? It’s all I’ve been fucking doing! I ran into you, laughed and played nice and then you continued to act like a jerk until forcing us to have this discussion.” She stepped back and rose her hands. “You know what, sure. Put this on my back because apparently it’s all you’re good for. Especially when you’re the one who initially put an end to this. You’re mad that I said I’d find someone else? You’re such a fucking child and hypocrite. --- You know what, good fucking riddance.” The brunette turned around, clearly done with the conversation and the male.

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malcolmremington:

   “Aye Aye Madame street walker. One last piece of advice, remember to always look both ways before crossing the street. Simple life lesson you shouldn’t ever forget.”

“Mhm,” she spoke absentmindedly, her hand waving in hopes that it would get him to stop. “Right back at you.”

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malcolmremington:

     “Yikes. Probably a bad idea to ask directions from a stranger. Like kids and candy, should’ve learned that lesson a long time ago. Oh, and don’t watch the news. That’s the real scary shit.” 

“I’m not even going to waste my breath talking to stupid for any longer than necessary. Just remember that you’re a guy, I’m a girl and your sarcastic bullshit that’s spewing from your mouth isn’t necessary or wanted.”

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gaigehetchmen:

“Teagan, you’re overreacting.” Gaige spoke flatly after having listened to her go on her small tangent. His arms folded to rest over the helmet that had now settled in his lap. “The only thing I ever implied was that the timing is inconvenient. Can you relax? And you’re right, I’m not a child, so if you’re going to talk to me, treat me like an adult before you really piss me off.” He didn’t have to explain himself to her, she had no clue what was going on in his personal life and he planned to keep it that way. Neither of them had expressed any interest in getting to know one another beyond the physical element of their relationship, but he had his reasons from refraining this time around. “I can’t tell if you think I don’t want to fuck you because I don’t enjoy it or because I just like messing with your head. I have some shit going on, I don’t expect you to understand, but I have to see it through. But trust me, when I fuck up and it doesn’t work out, you’ll be the first girl I call.” His lips twitched, a small smirk coinciding with his next suggestion. “Now suck it up, turn around and give me a hug.”

Teagan immediately gritted her teeth when he told her she was overreacting. He already was walking on thin ice and if he was in the middle of trying to get her to calm down -- that was not the way to do it. “Then how about you stop acting like a damn child? Don’t tell me I’m overreacting or that I come on too strong.” It was already hard enough being the new person in this big town, especially when she barely had time to go out and meet people with her busy schedule. It was why she relied so much on her deal with Gaige --- until he begun to circle the bush. He didn’t really had to say it, it was clear enough by his comment about returning when he would fuck things up. “Are you fucking kidding me?” Her head shook and she groaned. “No, first off, if you have an issue than you speak up rather than make it seem like something else. Like I’m in the wrong for making a move in the first place. Second, this would happen to me. A fucking relationship?” Now she was more annoyed than anything else. “I don’t do hugs. It’s fine, Gaige. I’ll find someone else.” Even though her words came out sounding like if he was just a piece of meat she’d used when she needed, she couldn’t be bothered. 

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malcolmremington:

     “Now why would you do that? You came to me and I’m giving you advice how not to get attacked. I think all in all I’m doing my civic duty. The police department can bow at my very presence with this one.” 

“Because mentioning how someone would get fingered or how I could potentially be attacked in my car is a fucked up thing. So, now turn around and walk away before I do make good on my words.”

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malcolmremington:

     “Oh I don’t about that, it’s cold out. Someone would probably wait until you’re within reach of their car. Odds of that are nothin’ too, roads are icy.”

“Am I going to need to call the police against you? --- Stay the fuck away from me.”

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gaigehetchmen:

Gaige wasn’t going to fight her on it. Her eagerness to leave made it a hell of a lot easier for him to say no. He was under no illusion that she’d somehow walk into her apartment with a regret to spare, but he did feel the smallest twinge of guilt for leading her to believe that something else would come from their brief encounter. Even if the anticipation had only been so brief. He couldn’t say that he hadn’t considered it though, he really couldn’t. “I’m not trying to be a jerk, you know? You come on so fucking strong, what’s a guy supposed to do?” He huffed, tethering up the spare helmet, turning the key once more. “Yeah, whatever, back at you.”

Teagan couldn’t help the laughter that exuded from her lips at his words. She turned towards him then with a raised brow. Almost as if to ask if he was joking. “What? You think I’m mad at you?” Her head shook as she crossed her arms. “First of all, fuck you for even trying to blame me in any way about what or how I come on to someone. Secondly, were you waiting for me to bring you a date? I thought it was clear that I work a lot and you were here for sex. If you wanted it or I wanted it. Nothing more and nothing less. Though please, if that’s not what you wanted or understood, at least have the decency to speak up. You’re not a child. I don’t have time to try to figure out what games you’re playing.” She watched him then before shaking her head. “Nor am I going to waste my time on whatever bullshit is going on with you.” Her head shook as she turned around, not believing the entire encounter. It had started off nice, filled with compliments and good humour only to end this way. 

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emil-gabor:

Emil laughed softly. “I do not know anything about the one you were promised, but I can assure you that I have never had any complaints,” he said. He shook his head. “No, on weekends we open late. I have plenty of time.” He smiled over at her as they walked. “What brought you to Lanford, if I may ask?”

“That’s good enough for me.” She smiled at him and then nodded her head when he commented on how he had time to join her. “Good. I was kind of hoping I could talk someone into spending a little bit of time with my lonesome self.” the brunette tucked a strand behind her ear before glancing around. “I’m a resident surgeon. I came here for residency.”

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malcolmremington:

     “Good for you. Maybe you’ll get a chance to use it.” 

“I think I’ll use it sooner than i’ve anticipated.”

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gaigehetchmen:

Gaige could feel the tension, the way her body seemed to refuse to become malleable against his back. She was stiff, her arms tight, and for once, he couldn’t really blame her for having such an adverse side effect to his behavior. Normally he would at least give her a few cues every now and then, just to assure her that he was interested in what she was offering. Normally. Shutting off the engine, Gaige lowered the kickstand once more and waited patiently for Teagan to climb off, tugging at his helmet in hopes of exchanging it for the other. He reached for her, graciously loosening up the straps on hers. “I know you’re just dying to say something smart-alecky…”

Teagan was happy to see her apartment complex come into view after a little while on the bike. Her body had already lifted from his back before the bike came to a full halt, indicating her desire to leave. Though her hands were already at work on the straps, she allowed him to remove them. “Nope,” the brunette said plainly, dropping the bags on the ground to take off the helmet and return it to him. “I’m pretty sure everything that needed to be said was said.” She hoped he caught on. That she was hinting towards his behaviour and how chances were that she wasn’t invested enough to actually reach out more than she had. If someone wasn’t interested, than so be it. It was as simple as that. When the helmet was returned to him, the brunette plucked her bags and retreated to the side walk. “Take care of yourself, Hetchmen.”

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gaigehetchmen:

Gaige’s usual tactic would’ve been to completely ignore the hand that had ventured below his waist, but instead he took her sharply by the wrist and braced her palm against his stomach. She was persistent, and he would be foolish not to expect her to try again. He knew what her end goal was, and he would’ve been readily available to her had they ran into one another a week earlier, but now things were a bit more complicated. At the very least he could imagine that Teagan’s arms were someone else’s, but that in itself only made matters worse, made it harder to ignore the brunette behind him. Revving up the engine, Gaige pulled away curb and lifted his feet, speeding down the road without care, confident in his recollection of his passenger’s strong grip.

Teagan rolled her eyes when he dramatically pulled her wrist from the front of his jeans towards his stomach. Her tongue clicked against the roof of her mouth and while she thought about lowering them once more, she was really beginning to be over him and his attitude. Instead, she focused on the road and the passersby until they arrived to her home. In the end, she was hoping to be a little more impressed by him, but on the same note, wouldn’t lose much sleep over it at all. Though she needed to have some kind of talk with him. About whether or not she should call him again, she didn’t like these kind of games. He knew what she wanted and she wasn’t afraid to ask for it. In the end, she expected the same line of directness from him.

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malcolmremington:

     “No? You don’t think so? What if I said one way leads to a guarantee attempted robbery and minor finger dingle assault, the other a slim chance of unwanted finger fucks but still possible. That there’s a round about way avoiding all of that?” 

“What?” She asked with a furrowed brow, bringing her purse closer to her, mostly because whatever he was describing sounded a lot like... Well, something bad. “You should know that I have pepper spray and I’m not afraid to use it.”

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gaigehetchmen:

“I was very nice to you the first time we met.” Gaige pointed out. She hadn’t found it prudent to be pleasant with him since. Then again, both of them knew that the pleasantries weren’t necessary at this point. Their little dynamic only ever worked when they were annoyed; that, or feeling certain degrees of hatred for one another. Gaige wished that he didn’t have to hate her, but it was hard not to feel negatively towards someone that would build him up only to tear him down again. But then again, he did the same thing to her. He thought over her words for a moment and offered a shrug of his shoulders. “That’s fair enough.” He admitted before sliding on his own helmet. “That’ll be the day you’ll see a grown man cry.” With that, Gaige snapped her wind guard down with a resounding ‘snap’ and a chuckle, muffling out anything she would choose to say thereafter. He climbed onto the back of the bike, knocked up the kickstand with his heel and ignited the engine with a smooth turn of his key. “Better hold on to your stuff really tight.”

“Were you?” She thought about it for a moment. “I thought that we had ended with some hate sex? Maybe that was just me -- I can’t really remember.” The brunette said with a smug look on her face. Just like when someone commented about her skills in bed, she could only assume that those comments got to Gaige. It had to. Her intention wasn’t necessarily to make him feel bad because he was very skilled, but to rile him up. Either with the hope that he would later on push that frustration on her or for her to get him to a certain point before walking away as punishment. “Don’t talk too quickly. I’ve made many grown men cry.” In her profession, tears, puke, sweat and blood were a common occurrence but he didn’t have to know that she meant her words in a different sense. With the snap of her wind guard, the brunette sent him a look that could kill. “Dick,” she groaned out, wrapping her arms tightly around her waist and double checking that all her things were tightly in place. “Focus on the road.” Her hands hung low, fingers played with the top button of his jeans, waiting patiently for him to head off.

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sierra-moore:

   “Lanford is always changing… There was a storm last year, wiped out much of the town—” She shrugged, looking over to the empty unit where Audrey’s restaurant had once stood. “Things are still being rebuilt in places. Westbrook is all done though, mostly…” Sierra looked down at her hand and did the same, shaking it a couple of times before heading towards the coffee shop. “Nice to meet you, I’m Sierra.”

“I think I heard of the storm, but I didn’t know it was that bad.” Teagan said as she glanced around rather curious to know what was old and what was new. “I can only imagine the things that were lost amidst the chaos.” With a shake of her head, she finally smiled at the other. “Pleasure is all mine. So, I was kind of hoping you might be able to tell me what’s fun around here. Preferably with alcohol.”

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jasonluca:

Usually the girls he was attracted to had a wicked sense of sarcasm and he honestly couldn’t pinpoint hers. A smile tugged at the corner of his lips instead of his typical eyeroll. “Jason.” He replied back, extending his hand to shake hers. “I mean, yeah. Names help.” Giving his order to the barista, she began to make their drinks. He turned to her, refusing to let any awkward silences get in the way. “Teagan. What brings you to Lanford?”

“Jason,” she tested the name on her tongue before nodding her head. “I’m actually doing my residency, so I felt like it was about time to venture out into the world on my own. How about you?” She asked. As someone a little more timid upon first meeting strangers, it was only after a while that she got comfortable and let her darker jokes come out.