I want you to understand that you're a bad person. you are an abuser. I know you will not admit to the things you've done, either because you don't want to incriminate yourself or because your ego is too inflated to allow you to take real accountability. probably both. since you "don't remember" strangling me, I'll jog your memory of some of the things you did:
-you dragged me out of my own car, threw me on the ground in front of your house while I was crying and trying to get away from you. you proceeded to drag me across broken glass and force me upstairs.
-you slammed me against a fence and held me there while I was struggling. I cut my hand and arm, it bled, you didn't care.
-frequently, you trapped me in spaces when I was trying to escape. you'd physically overpower me, and take my phone and my keys so I had no way to get help.
-you groomed me when I was 16. you were an adult and the age gap was disgusting. I was naive, you were old enough to know better.
-you slammed my head into the brick wall of the apartment and then when I told you it left a bump, YOU started crying.
-you raped me. I was hallucinating and you stuck your dick in my completely limp, unresponsive body. you did things you knew I wouldn't be okay with normally.
-you trapped me in my car when I was responsible for watching a toddler. I came back and she was crying because she didn't know where I was.
-you strangled me, multiple times, to the point where I thought I was going to die. you'd let go before I passed out, but you held on long enough to make sure I knew you could kill me.
-you cyber stalked and terrorized me for years afterwards. I know those messages and unknown accounts were you. it didn't stop after a few years, you're lying.
that's just of the physical abuse I can remember. there's so much more, but it would take too long to highlight every instance. you emotionally and psychologically abused me. you called me vile names, screamed in my face, told my friends lies about me, isolated me from my support system, gaslit me, and cheated on me.
how nice it must be to "not remember" all of that and move on with your life, or to your next victim.
you're too pathetic to ever admit what we both know you are, and too much of a coward to take responsibility for your actions. your mother should've gone through with the abortion and saved you, and everyone you've encountered, the suffering that comes with knowing you.
I want you to know that after everything I've been through in this life, you are the only person that I hate. you are the only person I think this world would be better off without. you are disgusting, poisonous and your soul is rotten. I've never met someone that embodies the term "wasted potential" quite like you do. I truly pity you, but at the same time I am horrified by you. I hope someday you gather the self-awareness to know what you are, and that what you are cannot be changed, saved, or redeemed.
live the life you deserve.
