Feels like I’ve failed everything. Seriously. What makes a good education, good marks or good job for a difference when you are all alone in this beautiful world. Feels like I’ve never lived life, I sat infront of a fucking TV and spent time in this fake reality instead of meeting friends that really care about me and want to make memories. But what are my memories? Hours and hours in front of this fake ass shit. I missed live, even when I’m 18. That was my life. What comes next? 50 years of working, falling in love the 7th time and losing her right away. Who are my friends, guess I call them friends because that is what we are told to be. I wonder if this frendships will last, oh yeah I wonder. I threw the last 18 years into a bin. I sat at home not meeting anyone cause i was to scared - maybe they don’t like me - maybe they think I’m akward. Well I thought I got my life together, but I didn’t. So now I ask myself “where is the time?” The time was always there you just didnt use it my friend.
Dude 6 years ago had the idea, luckiöy I have learned nothing. I pretty much changed all this for like 3 years. Was the happiest person on earth, and now...now I am falling apart again, 6 years later...wtf is this...1st of june 2022 23:21
