PERSONAL - DO NOT READ

positive vibes only

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oakland, first republic bank, girlfriend

things are changing so quickly

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do u ever just look at someone & think about how bomb the sex would be

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wow i really fucking hate home

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A girl straddling you is the hottest thing ever and no one can tell me otherwise

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moving out is the best thing that ever happened to me

i hate living at home so much

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ugh lego

that was so hot

i can’t stop thinking about it

bootie sf after flamethrowers game

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2 days living at home

and this is already driving me insane

constantly being nagged and told what to do

so such thing as personal space or belongings

fuck this shit

how do i get out

what do i do

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graduation, moving out today...

i’m not ready to go

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p.s. i am also completely over val

i feel more free than i have in years

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i am finally over madeline

it took over 2 years but here i am

it’s kinda sad

part of me wishes i would be in love with her forever

i think that’s why it took so long, i didn’t want to be over her

i didn’t want our love story to end, even tho for her it did long ago

i wanted to believe that i had such strong feelings for her that they would never die

at one point it felt that way, well for 2 years it felt that way 

but it’s ended, that chapter is over

i no longer wish we were more when we hang out even if it were what she wanted

she can no longer give me butterflies, her touches no longer feel like flirting but rather a platonic love

i don’t value her attention more than others, i wouldn’t do anything for her

she is one of my best friends, definitely the one who knows the most about me and i love her so much and always will but never will i feel in love with her again

bittersweet

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valentine’s day

nachos, milkshakes, barnes and noble, gilmore girls, sleepover

madeline

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you say between my legs and took my hands and put them around you and in holding you for a moment, it felt like old times

i felt myself enter into that magical world of being in love again, where everything simple feels like an adventure and so much more

how it felt like to be with you

damn it madeline, i can’t get over that feeling

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just breathe this will pass.

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heartbreak

jessica

madeline

val

college been a constant roller coaster of high highs and the lowest of lows

i almost crave it now with the emotional stability i have, and not only the highs

i want to feel, i miss feeling such strong emotions

i haven’t since july, i guess it’s only january

this can’t be healthy right? or is it?

why do i enjoy the turbulence more than the constant guarantee of contentedness?

is this a bad sign for my future relationships? do i crave the drama?

unsure, but i guess a part of it could just be loneliness

why do i feel so lonely with so many friends?

it always was internal

i thought making more friends, close, real friends would solve it

but now i have so many people i can count on and come to and yet

i still feel lonely, what do i do now?

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anxiety...

drunk, drugs

stop doing things you regret

done

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i want to fall in love this year

for real