Dec 1 2025
9.00pm
Made dinner and it all fell on the floor. I am so depressed and nothing is going right. I am so fucking h*rny but never get laid, idk if my gf even thinks I’m attractive anymore. I have gained so much weight this past year I really wanna like my body but I can’t. Dysphoria nd dysmorphia are both fucking me. I work at 5:30 in the morning and I just can’t be bothered to do more than the bare minimum at work lately. I want to be good and not disappoint everyone around me, but I’m burned out and can’t help it. I’m barely scraping by with the lack of sleep, lack of friends, lack of sex, lack of time for myself... not sure what to do or where to go from here. I need dopamine so bad but can’t really get it.










