Your hand in mine

24, soCal // Elyse, Filipino American, she/her. Video games, rock climbing, mental health, skincare/wellness, BA in Criminology. I like music, I did the diddle band thing in 2011 as an assistant drum major for Pacific Crest.

[teh-fiery]

Hey, it’s me.

[teh-fiery]

As much as I’ve grown in the past year, I feel like I’ll always be the kind of person who gets too emotionally attached to people whose lives wouldn’t be very affected at all if I were to fall off and stop talking to them/be there. I thought I got over that when I started going on a lot of dates and didn’t feel connections with people, almost like I had started to lose my ability to feel something for someone. But nope, here I am again. I hate this about me.

[rizahmad]

A band of resistance fighters unite for a daring mission to steal the plans to the Death Star in the anthology film, Rogue One.

[teh-fiery]

I considered making a New Year’s reflective post and to officially tell my ~friends~ on fb that I have depression/anxiety and shit, but I decided not to, now here I am being all sad

[fatherway]

anyways heres wonderwall

[oxfrnk]

why is ur ukulele so big

[fatherway]

i feed it well

[teh-fiery]

Ideal date idea: Geeking out over old video games, like Donkey Kong/Super Mario/Spyro/Crash Bandicoot/Chrono Cross/early FFs/KH + playing on simulators while eating Thai takeout and lots of Trader Joe’s snacks + pauses for cuddle times and the like

I just listened to live performances of Time’s Scar on youtube, and this is all I want rn

[iamthebestby2ne1]

[teh-fiery]

You darkly joked to me about killing yourself because you’ve been so incredibly depressed for the last few weeks. I am not the person to joke to about that.

You don’t know how real depression and suicidal ideation is for me, but I don’t want to mention it while you’re feeling like this. I’m just wondering now if I need to pull out of this, who knows if my support is even making a difference at all.

[teh-fiery]

what does it even mean to love

[teh-fiery]

Tinder would be easier if you could connect to Tumblr, I'd just be scrolling through dudes' tumblrs np.

[teh-fiery]

August/September is now a really interesting time of the year for me. I used to think about my growth in terms of how long it had been since I graduated high school. Now, I think about the changes in my life in relation to how long it’s been since I was in the hospital. It’s been about 2 years.

I don’t know if I can say I’m that much better. People always ask how I’m doing, and even though I feel like I can be honest with many of them, I lie without giving it much thought.

I used to roll the thoughts around in my head -- ‘Should I tell them?’ to ‘I don’t want to worry you.’

These days, I automatically respond with, ‘Yeah, I’m better - absolutely! I have good and bad days, but I’m handling it much better now.’ I guess I got too used to it. I try to open up to people about my depression and anxiety because I don’t think it’s something to be ashamed of, but I guess I missed the part where I shouldn’t be ashamed of the fact that I haven’t ~overcome~ it or that I’m not handling it better. Maybe it’s because it’s been 2 years since I’ve been in the hospital, and I’m ~supposed~ to be doing better now. Maybe it’s because I’m working full-time, and I’m too scared to admit that I still fall apart regularly, and I don’t want anyone to deem me as unqualified because of how most people view mental health.

Whatever it is, all I know is that I still feel trapped and alone.

[smokingjointswithmileycyrus]

[unapologetically-human]

Loving reminder for the people who struggle with Mother’s Day

For all the people out there who don’t have mothers, who have mothers that are not around or have passed away, or who don’t have a good relationship with them; and for all the mothers who have lost a child or have had to cut off communication with their adult children given the toxic nature of the relationship – I can imagine how painful and heartbreaking today must feel. Know that you are seen and heard and that the sadness you’re carrying today is valid. If the hurt becomes unbearable and you find yourself struggling with overwhelming heartache, know that today will be over soon. Know that you’ve felt this level of pain and sadness before, if not more intensely, and that you made it through – even when you felt completely debilitated by your grief; even when you felt like the darkness would never fade, you survived and were able to get a place where the feelings didn’t feel quite so heavy. Know that you can survive today too. And know that you don’t have to do it alone.

If you need support, give yourself permission to reach out. You’re allowed to mourn and feel your sadness today, even though its a day that may have a different meaning for many others. Your feelings matter.

Sending everyone so much light and love,

Daniell

[merrigo]

⛅

[freakscircus]

on this 4/20, let’s think about how bob marley has been reduced to a stereotype around weed and “one love” instead of the revolutionary figure he really was. he advocated for revolution and change against a racist political system in jamaica. he was also a staunch anti imperialist, and criticized white imperialism. he didn’t just smoke weed all day and sing catchy songs. i truly hate the liberal cleansing of revolutionary figures because it turns them into a caricature which erases their political stances and beliefs from the public mind completely

[refinery29]

Rihanna and Shonda Rhimes delivered powerful messages about loving yourself at BET’s Black Girls Rock!

Gifs: Rihanna

[yourfavoritekylie]

“Hopefully one day I’ll be raising my own little black girl that rocks” awwwwwe Rihanna would be a cool mom

[bisexualwatson]

“why are you using men’s body wash” maybe I wanna smell like a fuckin pine tree idk why are you gendering soaps