allison was m a y be hoping to meet someone who had forever–––who kept it in
their tight fist and cherished it for what it was. maybe she was hoping to find
someone to bring about some HOPE to her situation, because as of right now,
allison was tired, and she was a l o n e .
however, she also decided to speak to the one woman who carried loss in her eyes
the way a mother carried a child ;; tight, necessary, loving. she approached the one
woman who seemed as though sadness resided on her fingertips, dripped into her
veins through an IV. allison was always drawn to the broken hearts––a moth to
flame. a moth to moth, really, because for a twenty-two year old, she was broken
beyond her years. has seen enough death to last her a life time, has lost a love that
was supposed to be forever.
how foolish was she to believe it. how foolish was allison to believe that he
could really mean f o r e v e r . and not because she blamed him for her
losses–––no. simply because she KNEW better. knew the silver between her
teeth would taste too metallic in a kiss, knew the blood in her veins wasn't
what he needed. he needed someone better.
in the end, they always need someone better.
eyes fall back to the woman, who's smiling as though it hurts,
and allison aches with understanding. in a strange way, allison
almost sees herself, what she might be, what she could be, what
she might've been if she listened to gerard, to kate, b r a i n w a s h e d .
there's also a bit of hope, though. a bit of redemption in this woman's
eyes, and that alone means something. it means something important.
‘ what's the point, then, if we don't keep it? ’
knows the answer, though. knows how scott made her feel. that was the point ;;
that was the whole point. it sucked, though. knowing. honestly, allison thinks
she'd be better off if she never knew what someone really loving you felt like.
a gentle pause.
‘ what happened to your forever? ’
voice quiet, words tumbling like river water not meant to be spilled.
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