me, myself, & i

unfortunately bpd, ptsd, anxiety, depression. this is a sideblog.

[ternionbpd]

Someone: *treats me badly*

Me: *forgives them immediately*

Me 2 weeks later, eyes snapping open at 3 am: you know what?? I'm mad at you.

[bpdkageyamatobio]

my mental health problems are super draining for other people but I also can’t cope alone so it’s either be selfish or be really fucked up and I’d rather not be selfish but sometimes I just GOTTA talk about it i’m sorry i’m fucking doing this but I don’t know! What to do! Anymore!

[ternionbpd]

i dont know how ive been feeling lately. if i dont manage to focus soon, im going to fail this one class.

[ternionbpd]

i feel like every aspect of me is up for debate whats concrete

[ternionbpd]

connect with me, im real theres more to me try harder

[ternionbpd]

im empty i dont think im a person this makes sense there is nothing here

[ternionbpd]

want to die want to die want to die want to die!!

[rottenbutrecovering]

Borderline experiencing extreme emotions looking at a borderline who’s empty: 

Borderline who’s empty looking at the borderline who’s experiencing extreme emotions:

[doubleshotofbpd]

Despite feeling continually victimized by others, a borderline desperately seeks out new relationships; for solitude, even temporary aloneness, is more intolerable than mistreatment. To escape the loneliness, the borderline will flee to single bars, the arms of a recent hook up, somewhere—anywhere—to meet someone who might save her from the torment of her own thoughts.

I Hate You—Don’t Leave Me Understanding the Borderline Personality (via doubleshotofbpd)

[kcborder-addict-deactivated2025]

Much of the borderline’s dramatic behavior is related to his interminable search for something to fill the emptiness that continually haunts him.

I Hate You- Don’t Leave Me (via love-war-pd)

[depressotogo-deactivated2018042]

In a sense, the borderline is like an emotional explorer who carries only a sketchy map of interpersonal relations; he finds it extremely difficult to gauge the optimal psychic distance from others, particularly significant others.

I Hate You - Don’t Leave Me (via depressotogo)

[liefly]

having no emotional permanence means that if a friend isn’t actively engaged in your life then you assume they don’t care and hate you

[ronebpd]

Bpd is so strange. If your FP starts talking about how much they love a video game/t.v show/even food, you feel jealous.

I’m literally feeling jealous because my FP said they love Pringles.

[ternionbpd]

i hate my fp i need someone to talk to later please i dont know what to think right now but i am very upset

[ternionbpd]

hello how are you? i hope youre well

[ternionbpd]

i consider linking my main to this but im nervous

[ternionbpd]

im shit at updating this blog winter break was a mix of ?? Hell. among other stuff happening, fp told me that there is an If situation that they might move back to what is basically the other side of the earth in a years time so you can figure how that went over with me and then when i expressed upset over it (very tamely, i might add), they misread my tone and became defensive. its clarified now. god it hurt though. i dont know how else they wouldve expected me to react or feel, i think anyone would be upset, borderline or not, fp or not. i would be losing one of my closest best friends.