Living in the World (Secretly)

Where I ramble and maybe draw you a little comic

[terrathetulpa]

Hi, I'm Real.

I'm Terra. I live in the mind and body of some person far away from your current location. Always, at all times, you will never be near them. If you approach their location they will teleport away like Abra.

I am a Tulpa. Have been for 9 years. This blog is only kinda sorta about being a Tulpa though. I might ramble on about it occasionally but as far as being part of a Tulpa community I'm... disinterested. They always seem to be fighting about something or vehemently asserting to whoever will listen that they are REAL PEOPLE who are VALID! and like- of course I am, but I don't need you to know that sis. I don't even know who you are!

I am also Tulpa 1/1 in a body housing 2 headmates total. I mention this because I find it fascinating to see systems of 400+ in the wild nonchalantly describing their subsystem of 15 interjects from <some fiction I've never heard of> and I truly have to wonder how they even function in their day to day life.

Of course, I have to believe them. I do believe them. Even though they sound impossible to me. I sound impossible to me. If I weren't literally sharing my entire body with the person who was here first, I probably wouldn't believe this was even possible. My mind is open, if you're a pony, a microwave oven, a sentient mushroom colony, or a system of over 9000 headmates:

I believe you.

I'm afraid to interact with you, but I believe you.

If you were wondering, and to whom it may concern. This blog is about me. Terra Starsky. The Tulpa from nowhere in particular, living out my life in secret like the outcast I am, like the outcasts we all are. So far out on the fringe that we cannot even tell normal people we exist because once we've finally finished explaining ourselves they'll be booking us an appointment with the nearest psychiatrist. Or just like- yelling at us...

But like, I get a mind palace so who really lost in this interaction?

Feel free to ask questions or say things to me. That is what the internet is for. I will see them and look at them and be happy that I can interact with other people. Hopefully.

[starfallsystemblog2]

System ask game stolen and edited from r/systemcringe

❤are you medically recognised/diagnosed? if not, do you plan to? (no judgement either way!)

🧡if you are comfortable sharing, what is your headcount? do you keep track of it?

💛do you switch frequently or do you go longer periods between switching?

💚does your system have introjects of any kind?

💙do you have any subsystems?

💜who are your frequent fronters?

🤎do you have any non-human alters? if yes, which species are they?

🖤do you make/buy gifts to other alters in the system?

🤍does the taste in music vary a lot between different alters?

🔴does your system have any type of in system relationships? (familial, romantic, platonic etc.)

🟠how much amnesia do you experience?

🟡do you experience black out amnesia?

🟢what does switching feel like for you? does it vary between alters?

🔵do you experience quick switches or does it take longer to switch usually?

🟣do you get frontstuck often? what do you do to try to get 'un-stuck'?

🟤do you ever not notice you've switched, and suddenly realise that 'you haven't been you' for a while?

⚫can you switch 'on command" or is that something that is hard for your system? does it depend on the alter?

⚪do you have a headspace? if yes, describe it! if no, do you want one?

🟥how easily accessed is your headspace? (If you have one)

🟧is there a place in your headspace where dormant alters go?

🟨do alters have their own rooms/areas in your headspace?

🟩is your headspace big, or smaller? is it complex/less complex?

🟦do you have specific alters that cannot access headspace at all?

🟪did you have to build your headspace over time, or was it just there?

🟫how did you pick your system name?

⬛how does your system handle in system disagreements in general?

⬜is there anyone specific in your system you don't get along with?

❤️‍🔥are you 'out' as a system to anyone? (online friends/partners etc. count!)

❤️‍🩹how good is your communication with the rest of the system? does it vary much between different alters?

💔are different alters part of different subcultures? which ones?

[terrathetulpa]

A bunch of plural blogs I follow just reposted this so I'm joining in for once.

[terrathetulpa]

Terra the secret (part 1)

[terrathetulpa]

man it'd be cool if I was sleeping

[terrathetulpa]

All the other systems are playing tomodachi life rn, and I'm over here doin' Backpack Battles.

I think the magic hat is a bad item. 4 slots in your bag and I have to arrange all the other items around it AND it only activates once when the fight starts! How is it a rare!? It sucks!!!

[orchardsys]

We wanted to do a piece that was based off a conversation some of us had some time ago. Sorry for any mistakes it’s very late at night right now and I really just wanted to be done with this one…

[terrathetulpa]

So it's kinda hard to make a wolf look like it has twintails, did I pull it off?

[uovo0]

ready for a date

[terrathetulpa]

I am down so bad for this fucking puppygirl!

[fire-plug]

Personality hire

Working Cats

[jeanjauthor]

Sometimes you really need a good personality on your staff.

[narwhalsarefalling]

[terrathetulpa]

Some days you need to hurl a brick at the world itself so hard that it cracks in two and you can finally make a comfortable place for yourself in the opening between the pieces.

[terrathetulpa]

Yeah, it definitely matters.

[terrathetulpa]

Just a pattern I've noticed...

[dizzyisdizzy]

Even more DMG!

[terrathetulpa]

God I need a wife.

[terrathetulpa]

Good god! Coming on here and reading yall's shit makes me feel cursed!

WHAT THE FUCK IS AN ANGER HOLDER!? You mean you created a headmate with the express and sole purpose of being angry so you don't have to?? You mean you have whole entire beings trapped in your mind and forever cursed to experience all the things you don't want to??? Is that what it means!? Seriously, is that what it means???

[terrathetulpa]

If you're one of the systems or alters or hosts that's unhappy that Simply Plural and Octocon are biting the dust and you don't feel you have a good alternative, I suggest getting some cheapo Walmart notebooks and starting a

✿ Bullet Journal ✿

[catnippackets]

many such cases

[terrathetulpa]

You know i just think it's important that everyone sees this.

[terrathetulpa]

Wait, my text is kinda hard to read. I'll do the background darker for the next one.

[terrathetulpa]

It's been a while huh?

Dude, idk. This was originally just a place to ramble because I had no outlet. I mean maybe I still don't idk- what's an outlet? That's where you plug in your phone right?

We deleted all the apps on our phone. It is for calling, texting, and maybe GPS if need be. It's still a bastard iPhone so nothing's stopping me from just putting Tumblr and all that crap back- not that I think Tumblr is crap. It's just we're trying to make it difficult to stay up until 3am noodling on our phone so that we won't become horribly ill during the day at work because we haven't slept a full night's sleep in 3 days. (Which happened yesterday.)

So we took everthing off the phone. Discord, Tumblr, Twitch, Youtube- We deleted google calendar! Because you know what? It'd be just my luck that someone'd find a way to send me a fucking TikTok through Google Calendar. Ugh!

We keep our own schedule anyways. On paper. It works really well for us sometimes. When we're able to keep up with our plans. Although last week (It wasn't me) my darling dove fell down the stairs so badly that we were completely out of commision and that was the beginning of a very hard week. (Don't worry we're just fine!) So anyway, that schedule perished the moment we hit the ground. Which is fine, we were working to hard anyway. And not getting enough sleep. Which is why we fell down the stairs.

I'm sensing a theme here.