Who Am I?

I am Test Subject 69 Also but you can call me Rern. I don't remember anything from my past other than my name. (Pic made by TS66)

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I’m scared….

I have reached to the point where I ended vomiting blood

I have reached to the point where I have nearly broke down crying

I have reached to the point where I have to hug my pillow for comfort

Today was the day where there was depression and suicidal thoughts nearly everywhere.

Normally I would try and reach out.

But they have crossed the line where I am too scared to even say anything.

They keep saying that they want to die and put numerous of ways of dying thinking no one would care

Thinking that know one would care if they disappeared

WELL I CARE!

Every time I see a post related to it, my heart starts breaking.

A void consumes my heart till there is nothing.

There is nothing to gain in killing yourself.

It only brings grief,

sadness,

pain,

and possibly move suicides….

I sit here everyday watching…

Trying to hold back the pain that I feel in my heart.

Putting up a wall, trying to hold it back…

But today it broke,

The feeling I have right now is possibly enough to drive a person insane

But I am still holding on.

I have friends and family that care.

I must be there for them.

They are the ones that drive me to live my life.

They are the ones that drives me forward.

They are the ones that made me smile and laugh

So please think of your friends and family.

It’s not worth it.

It’s not worth it….

[the-shadow-garden]

I'm scared....

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Anonymous asked: What do you think of P-Body?

“…. She is my everything…..”

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That's cute. First time I see a robot blush

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((Why can't I think up of a simple ask .-. ))

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morning everyone

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I give up on writing stories

[dotcore]

You’ve Got Suckers Luck. by Snarkless.

[fat-birds]

[gorgonetta]

[Four animated gifs of a hummingbird being petted]

Little bastards have few or no natural predators, so they are very chill.  I had to pick one up once and put it in a safer place (it was on the ground, maybe had been stunned) and it just hopped right into my hands and stayed calm until I put it back down.

[mofosplz]

OMG, IT’S SO ADORABLE~~ 

[alybuttons]

I had a dream last week that I was petting a hummingbird!

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i'm back

[the-shadow-garden]

gtg bbl cya tumblr

[theflirtycore-blog]

Rodney sighs and takes another beer, drinking it slowly. He wiped the liquid off his chin, staring off into the distance. He was hating his current life, it was constant turmoil for him. He stretched his legs, swinging them across the…

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He stumbled to his feet. He grabbed a bottle of his beer and hurled it at the mantis men before running to join the figure.

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From behind he can tell clearly who it is. “Fuck my idiotic curiousity!” He cursed.

[theflirtycore-blog]

He chuckled softly. He threw he empty bottle backwards, hitting one of them square in the face. “What in GLaDOS’s name did you do Rern?”

[testsubject69-blog]

"Long story short I thought what I was looking for was in that room back in the old wing sadly I didn't know that there was Aliens in there!" He made a sharp turn to the right keeping his pace. "hey do you know where is the turret testing area?" 

[theflirtycore-blog]

Rodney sighs and takes another beer, drinking it slowly. He wiped the liquid off his chin, staring off into the distance. He was hating his current life, it was constant turmoil for him. He stretched his legs, swinging them across the…

[theflirtycore-blog]

He stumbled to his feet. He grabbed a bottle of his beer and hurled it at the mantis men before running to join the figure.

[testsubject69-blog]

From behind he can tell clearly who it is. "Fuck my idiotic curiousity!" He cursed.

[theflirtycore-blog]

Open RP

Rodney sighs and takes another beer, drinking it slowly. He wiped the liquid off his chin, staring off into the distance. He was hating his current life, it was constant turmoil for him. He stretched his legs, swinging them across the catwalk.

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The sound of footsteps can be heard to his right. The sound getting closer and closer. Until it ran past behind him.

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He glanced in the direction of the footsteps. Though his vision was blurred, he could still see the figure ran past him. He watched him curiously, and turned back to see what he was running from.

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As he turned to see what was chasing Rern. He can see a small group of Mantis Men scrambling up the catwalk, looking extremely hungry

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Open RP

Rodney sighs and takes another beer, drinking it slowly. He wiped the liquid off his chin, staring off into the distance. He was hating his current life, it was constant turmoil for him. He stretched his legs, swinging them across the catwalk.

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The sound of footsteps can be heard to his right. The sound getting closer and closer. Until it ran past behind him.

[testsubject69-blog]

AIDAN!

I know how you feel but just hang on for a bit. I'll pass my studies so I can go to Perth to visit you.

 I PROMISE, SOMEDAY SOON, I'M COMING TO SEE  YOU! JUST YOU WAIT!