D.A.E
All I ever wanted you to see. Yes we had troubles. Yes we had our fights but I would have kept going until the end of time because life with you was beautiful. I knew absolutely nothing else but this to be true. Any other unfaithful truth or misfortune of I don’t know why, had been pushed out; with a reminder of where you brought me, what you had done for me and how much you were worth to me. You had and forever gave me A life worth living. In that moment I felt as though I had to force you out. Nothing I was saying was making you happy anymore. You had built to much against me without us really sitting down and talking about it and you broke me; when I truly thought everything was fine besides Him driving your car. I never knew your position on my family. At that time I didn’t know you were still worried about my previous life because I actually wasn’t for once finally. Took too long but I never could have made it without you. Although my heart torn that my time in life can’t be with you. I could never give up on this life for what you’ve shown me. I am forever in regret for thinking that pushing you away was what you needed and more selfishly what I thought I needed. It’s not what you needed. It’s not what I wanted. It was a selfish move of what I thought I needed. And it took my whole life to realize that. If I wouldn’t have taken this time I wouldn’t know this today, but is still no excuse. I will never forgive myself for pushing you away. And that’s the hardest. But wherever we might be I’m just blessed to know I knew you. I shared chapters of my life with the most incredible, creative, anxious but most captivating person I’ll ever meet. I pray to the stars every night you are happy. I’ll go to my grave with that. And to my grave that I wish I knew how to stand up for myself and show love when love need be expressed
To the stars and beyond
Tev
