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But who am I without whole heartedly loving someone every single time.

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Once, if you would’ve convinced me once, I would’ve stayed. I would’ve loved you harder. I would’ve kissed you deeper, I would’ve held you tighter.

All you had to do was prove that it meant something for you.

But you didn’t.

I love you, my avoidant little fuck.

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Breakup so bad almost can’t believe you kissed me like that.

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But what if I never feel for anyone as deeply as I felt for him?

Am I broken?

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Okay then, come look in my eyes and tell me that she can love you more than I do and i’ll leave you alone

Come tell me she can prioritize you like I do. Come tell me she cares for you like I do. Come tell me she’ll admire you from a distance like I do. Come tell me she’ll treasure you like I did. Come tell me she’ll look at you with the eyes of love like I did. Come tell me she’ll hold you like I did.

Come tell me, and I’ll leave you alone.

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I waited for you with a bouquet of roses and you’re chasing someone who held daggers to your heart.

If blood was what you wanted. Were the thorns of my roses not enough?

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I hate how I love with my entire body, my entire soul. When I’m tryna let go, It’s not just my heart or my mind that I have to let you go from.

When you held my hand it’s like you left your finger prints on my flesh. When you looked in my eyes, you left a reflection of yours in them. You whispered in my ear and your voice still echos in there. When you kissed me, my cells memorized your DNA.

Don’t blame me for being bad at this. You’re everywhere. Everywhere you shouldn’t even belong anymore.

But you do.

[that-blowncandle]

New fav hobby:- Reading our old chats.

I be doin that w the widest smile on my face and then cry as i reach the end.

How broken am i?

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Theres death then theres the morning after you let someone go.

~x

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How come the yearning, the pain, the disappointment , the waiting always lasts longer than the happiness?

Why cant loving someone be enough for them to stay?

They say love is mutual? How come I’m the only one feeling so much. If i felt it, how could you not?

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I’m waiting for a notification thats never gonna come, a text that you’re never gonna type, did our chat window scroll deep down in your dms? Are we supposed to just pretend that we were not each others first text when we opened our inbox?

Your pfp still haunts me when i’m trying to send someone something and youre right there.

Why is letting go so hard. How was it not hard for you?

Atleast give me a chance to write happy poetry lol all youve ever done is made me write when i’m upset.

Have we ever truly made eachother happy?

[a-mind-in-ruins]

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Letting go of someone who was a part of your routine is so hard because wdym I cant show you my new ring?