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Cheesy Pastry - Chinese Dessert, 13.4oz, Korean Buldak Carbonara Topokki - Hot Chicken Flavor, 6.31oz, 【AESPA Favorite】Korean Honey Butter P

Just made a huuuuge purchase for super cheap on the YAMI app. Gonna have to hide my box of snacks (Korean and Chinese) from hubby and the kids.

Ah yes, depression snacking gone international.

#noms #snacks

My brother found out today that his cancer is back- and it’s in his lungs, lymph nodes, and around his heart.

He starts chemo on January 2. If all goes well, we are expecting a max of 3 years. If there are complication, we may have less than 2. This is only to buy him some time. There’s nothing his team of oncologists can do to save him.

He’s only 37. He beat end stage cancer two years ago, only for it to come back even stronger.

I am going headfirst into a mental breakdown. I can feel my heart physically breaking.

#fuck cancer

Mental health check in- how are y’all doing currently?

I’m afraid that I’m on the verge of another breakdown and am doing everything I can in my limited power to stop it.

I’m trying to come to terms with the fact that every pregnancy I have had has not been successful and that with my history of this, attempting one more time is dangerous for me while living in the US and not being able to have medical intervention if needed anymore- unless I am physically septic and dying myself. It’s fucking devastating. I love my stepkids more than life itself but, they are grown and don’t need me. I feel like a failure as a wife, despite my absolute darling of a husband always assuring me that I’m not. I feel broken and that I won’t ever be whole. We can’t even apply to adopt a child in our state because we haven’t been married for three years yet. By the time we are, my husband will be almost 50 and feels that is too old to introduce another child into our family. He wants to be able to be active and match the energy of a child, but with his job being so draining, it would be too hard.

I’ve also been out of work for almost seven months and I just feel like I am a burden on my little family. There’s only so much that cooking meals and having heart to heart conversations and chauffeuring can do to contribute.

I’ve been a terrible friend, almost like I’ve been not there at all for a year and a half now… but consecutive miscarriages will make you crumble and forget how to human. My best friend is the second best human being ever in my life, next to my husband, and is so understanding. Her kids, however, are not. They think their bonus aunt hasn’t cared enough to be around them for birthdays and holidays and BBQs. It’s quite the opposite- I just couldn’t bear to be there because being around them and pregnant people (family friends and relatives) all in the same house would have been overwhelming. I did manage to go to their aunt’s baby shower in December and also meet their cousin’s new baby when he was about a month old. I held him and sobbed. I should have had a baby about a week younger.

Anyways, y’all doing okay? I hope so. Love you all.

#mental health #y’all good?

I found this relic from roughly 20 years ago and got SO excited that there may be old pics on it.

But of course not… memory card is totally blank. I’m incredibly disappointed.

#old camera

This is one of the wildest stories I’ve ever heard’

#true crime #podcasts #australia #historical fuckery

I love this so much!

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Housekeepers and Janitors Need Praise As Unsung but Very Much Important

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Remember when the NRA told doctors to “stay in their lane” RE gun violence and #thisismylane trended as a result?

One of the tweets I saw was a surgeon who’d taken a picture of her OR, having just finished surgery on a young man who’d been shot. Blood. Everywhere.

This bloke retweeted her, mentioning that he worked as a cleaner in a hospital and had had to clean up stuff like this and worse.

Surgeon replied to him (and went up *greatly* in my estimation) and, despite living in different countries, thanked him for his hard work.

I can’t find the tweets sadly, but hers went something like;

“Without a clean and sterile operating room to work in, my team, our skills and the best medicines in the world are next to useless. You are doing invaluable work, without which my work would be impossible.”