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Good morning.. doesn't feel so good.. yet. https://www.instagram.com/p/ByC6-3clO5msoMUR3nCmrMxt-U2eXsE9CwWF5A0/?igshid=1tebtgr7kn510

I'm scared.. https://www.instagram.com/p/ByC5x7blnjntFFQPAqGccj8Up32EnNh9e48VRw0/?igshid=81zpb4a6svf6

Hands, hands getting cold Losing feeling's getting old Was I made from a broken mold? Hurt, I can't shake We've made every mistake Only you know the way that I break https://www.instagram.com/p/Bx9MxbOho3dCj-NmnSxtqfghsfXDwe6puuCPSM0/?igshid=i4qym48h16y6

Some birthday.. I miss you tons.. https://www.instagram.com/p/BxylIwmlnsJL1YoL2DDXeTtZCWSEwVi38ihJqo0/?igshid=3l08rdhhfrue

R.I.P. ... https://www.instagram.com/p/BxnstvrlF1gHbK3n96IisYjKruPoqh1maXXmnU0/?igshid=1c6zjvrc0d10j

My mom is the strongest person I have ever known in my life and I will never believe anyone else will ever will be. She has done the worst things a woman she ever go through, she has been through things no one should ever get through. Yet, she has loved everyone she knows and constantly mothers everyone that I have ever known. Yesterday (technically noon-ish of May 16th) she was taken off life support.. due to the severely of what was told by examining her brain wave activities prior to placing her in a medical coma. There was nothing. She was considered brain dead. But there is power in hope, faith and prayer. When she dealt with her first attack.. it was raw and emotionally taxing on her. She was barely able to want anything as it happened, but she pushed through.. as a mother and a powerful woman. Even as the 2nd heart attack happened and it was destroying to see my ma put through so much pain.. she remained on her game and ever pushing forward.. she just been pushing too much and nearly taking care of herself because she is stubborn. I always crept in her room every morning to see if she was okay because as a son, I was truly on pins and needles to keep anything from causing her to be sick. She has scared me plenty of times.. hahaha but.. I think this will be her last stretch. Her last fight. She has been putting off well needed rest and has been keeping strong, showing us that she is still holding on. I just want her to wake up. There is so much left for us to do... but I won't blame (as I told her) if she really wants to rest. She doesn't want to that is for sure, but.. she wouldn't be in pain. I love her to death, and I don't want anything to happen to her. She is my blessing on earth and has been the only reason to keep pushing forward so I could support her. Sigh. Mentally, I am beyond broken.. but within hope.. I am holding strong. I love you ma. I really do. xoxoxo 💜 https://www.instagram.com/p/BxjQgokljD90VpsJbmWJRGsRrXzmGzDKNFQrBc0/?igshid=u43uzci0oo6n

I have not been able to really type this coherently.. and in a way, I ain't still. My mom has been my biggest supporter, best friend and everything. I put her through so much hell on a constant day to day basis especially in the past and I know as a mother, I was a difficult child throughout the years. Now, I am older and somewhat wiser. I think. I still fuck up but I know she still loves me. Through every stage of my life, from every hardships I had in relationships, losing people I love and just what I have accomplished thus far. I regret to say throughout the years, it has not been easy for my mom.. shes had two heart attacks in the last year.. and now she lays in bed at the ICU section.. fighting for her life. Ruled as a possible 3rd heart attack, it started off with a pretty bad blood blister on her toe; rubbed raw and became infected. Judging all from what I was told: it had been known as strepted and some other infections. Doctors told her that she needed to get the infected toe (became widely disgusting and bad) amputated. My mom is pretty stubborn. Lol.. and I wouldn't blame her.. shes been to school to gain proper medical degrees at Virginia College to where she walked the stage. I will never forget the look of accomplishment that spread across her face. She damn well deserved to be recognized for all the hard work she did.. and she became the best damn medical momma after that. Lol The myraid of medical and health problems just didn't come out the blue.. she has been struggling for years now.. and has endured a lot as a mother but I know she would never give up. She is a fighter. What I come to share about this.. is that she is on the last stage of life. Before this heart attack was ruled; she was coded for an unknown amount of time, and when they got to know about this period of time.. it took them 10 minutes to recucitate her. After that, they placed her in a medical coma.. and it was unknown beforehand to cause this if they gave her proper medication or not. Considering, she is a heart patient. As a mother, she has been through the ringer. As a woman, she has been through life's conocopious amounts of worldly pressures and problems. (Cont..) https://www.instagram.com/p/BxjQUd0Fnksd40v68698R4LKvdWKLsQ4C9IhVk0/?igshid=o9et4s5ah2lh

Not so happy mother's day is not so fucking happy. https://www.instagram.com/p/BxYlYvQloUVDXQuDGfWGkmSsyqW7qfAe1M2otc0/?igshid=1wxq2ryjrrbl0

Mirror mirror tell me who you see Am I you or me? I can never remember But you can't hide forever. https://www.instagram.com/p/Bw6_2dcF7sffbFTK429DLmN9AKq5skn-qtcWRg0/?igshid=1kpvitnod7khu

I have gotten a new phone and its a J7 Prime which is what I am using now. It has been a cool thing to have two phones but I think it is time to let it go to someone else. I don't think I am gonna sell. Probably don't have the right to but I am gonna pass it down. I still cannot begin to express my thanks to a friend who gave me what I am using now, so if the homie Rin is looking onto this. Thank you bro. 💜 You are the bomb dot com. 😋👌 https://www.instagram.com/p/Bw4X3_xlRfjRv_l6fxPGjVSeRs4jspiEl__-JU0/?igshid=123a282j6cf1h

Was there a sign I didn't read? Or was I lying to myself? Holding fast to every skeleton I've got there on the shelf I just tried to make them drown Drown every skeleton around It's just another bottle down It's just another bottle down https://www.instagram.com/p/BwwzUlhFPqD_Ty2qYK3d3FQTbDJmABTI-KctaM0/?igshid=1bxi1iyekwmqz

Smoke a fat one whenever you want. Gift from my art bab ~ Meant to post during Easter. Lol https://www.instagram.com/p/BwrZERkFWsdQ9PG4jfmZqGnpNwdnqiyWuMbBBA0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1mes20axgvtjf

Its just a phase. https://www.instagram.com/p/BwhlMgtFORbMVoKpm6kLMtsnlMkGzJPBtcLMVA0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1dldzcst0zium

Have some hot cocoa with marshmellos and a country fried steak sandwich if you lonely. 😅👌 https://www.instagram.com/p/BwgnDnRFZH2MKCyRcUO_xM5nq9488csz1kfKwA0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=17yvfcovzar56

Just a distraction... https://www.instagram.com/p/BwchoNvloCQEAs6vBuPXQIt_mrQCgzg8R30qxA0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=kmv12mc1genx

Today was a day so have some Croissant dragon rolls. https://www.instagram.com/p/Bwa16phlEmKIkb84n4XVKvHw3B0DFqgMDpkEAA0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=azz7gpkb0j3q

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