About my disappearance... (rant)
Some of you may have noticed that I suddenly one day left for many months until yesterday and there is a reason for that.
In the past I have been active in skycord lorechat for about eight or nine months, creating theories, photodocumenting lore and events, making big masterposts of those so everyone can access them there.
After about three months since I took courage to finaly talk there, one person who clearly disliked me for some reason started being a bully on my account. We never talked prior to that.
Some of you who have been active there during my time presence may already know who am I talking about but even if you dont, I urge you to NOT namedrop this person in replies here or go witch hunt them as I dont wanna be associated with this anymore.
Im glad for everyone who stood up with me both in public chat, DMs and in reports and I even heard couple of people noticed Im gone shortly after I left which saddens me but also fills with feeling of being seen at the same time.
For every theory I posted that this person saw, they had urge to "correct" me and nitpick the whole thing just to have some point and this nitpicking quickly evolved into straight up bullying and badmouthing and not respecting that I already had this person blocked. In fact they used this in their advance and kept telling other people (both in skycord and also inviting them to DMs to "tell them more") backhand insults and straight up lies.
All of this was reported to skycord moderators every time it happened but they either completely ignored it or victim blamed me instead for standing up for myself which even at one point resulted in ME being muted for 3 DAYS and the bully being "spared" once again. I literally had to yell at the mods for how unfair is this for them to not be muted for mods to actually mute them and they only did like 12 hours long mute. And it werent reports on this person only from me but from other people as well and those people even calling out said person publicly. Just for mods to throw blind eye every time.
This kept killing my motivation to engage with lore until I did not wanna do this anymore and it even started affecting me to even wanting to play Sky alltogether. On top of that, lorechat became much more alive and fast moving chat since Two Embers release which for me being autistic and chronically ill was very overhelming so I decided to leave.
Yes, I did delete all my masterposts and some of the theories I wanted to work on more myself before someone claims them as their own. Was it overdramatic? Maybe yes. But I also really wasnt in a good place back then. You can still find those photos here on this blog, they are not lost forever.
Slowly over time as I started recovering from this I started discussing lore again with few close people somewhere else but my spark is still not back fully as it used to be so please be patient with me, I will be slow in posting and it may take long time before I finish any of those long theorycraft text walls sitting in my drafts since summer. The same goes for photos, I dont feel like finishing the Sky architecture series any time soon.
Im not planning to return to skycord in any forseeable future as I am VERY disappointed with its moderators and also because that person is still there. And even if I do, I will very likely not be interacting or reading anything in lorechat. I am artist so look for me in art and screenshot channels if I ever return.
