I'm not gonna lie to you all.
I am so tired. I am so scared.
My nurse friends, my fellow EMTs, my girlfriend. Me. We have all dealt with this since March.
We have seen what this virus, this disease can do.
I have been told stories. First hand accounts. The ventilators. The cannulas. The faces with skin compromised from wearing PPE too long.
The bedside prayers and breakdowns in hallways. Trailers in driveways and FaceTime bedtime stories.
The mobile morgues outside the hospitals, waiting for the slaughter of the day to enter its walls.
Tagged, bagged, moving on.
I have heard the cries of the uninformed and the ignorant. I have seen their lies spread far and wide, through every medium known to us as humans.
"Don't be scared of COVID."
"I want to feel normal again."
Except we're not. And we won't be.
But to them, we always are. And always have been.
I have seen first-hand the stupidity of the human race and it makes me simultaneously want to vomit, cry, and light this place on fire.
I have heard and seen people struggle to breathe, struggle to speak, loved ones terrified and scared for their own safety as well as the person they care about, eyes wild with concern and anxiety.
Hospitals full of people, doors closed, a silent chaos that echoes like church bells.
The signs...pink, green, purple, plastered on the doors.
'STOP - Airborne precautions".
Doctors and nurses running ragged. Their eyes so tired but so focused at the same time. Wearing the same mask and the same gown since they walked in the doors.
I have listened as people, time and time again, have told me they were positive or around someone who was. Nothing happened. They waited. Nothing still happened.
I'm done being nice about this.
Applause means nothing if our words fall on deaf ears.
The embers turn to flames, to blazes, to an inferno.
And the audience is still watching the circus play on.
The smoke is all part of the act.
The burning flesh is just part of the show.
Fuck your feelings. Stay home. Wear a mask.
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