The Fallout Shelter

I'm Alex 19, Student, Dysthymic, Insomniac, Musician and Gamer. Check out my About Me for more + Pokemon trades. Ask, I'll answer. The "Mine" link is just original images and thoughts. Cheers for reading.

[the-fallout-shelter]

I've done so well, I've tried so hard, I've succeeded so much. But I don't think it was enough, I don't think I have enough left. I'm tired, and I want to cry, and I want to give up, and I want to go away.

[the-fallout-shelter]

Can't sleep because reasons so let's try talking about our problems. Yeah? Okay!

Life is pretty stuck right now, like frozen. I can't really do anything new. I'm currently studying my Masters, which yes, is a huge thing, but everything else is currently a bit pointless. I really don't like my hometown and I'm here for 6 more months, I won't be living here after I finish my degree. Why does that mean things are stuck in place? Well:

I can't really look for a postgraduate job. I don't have enough grades yet to start putting myself out there with some expected marks. I have indeed job alerts going but they just confirm the fact that thankfully I'll be anywhere but here.

I can't really get into a relationship. That's a lie, I probably could, if you take the overweight issue and other visual aspects out of the equation. But it's not a good idea, I'm leaving in 6 months which isn't really time to decide, hey up sticks and move with me somewhere! Plus then it becomes a two person decision which makes everything more complicated. Finally I wouldn't want to hurt anyone, but dear lord does it get lonely in the flat on my own every night, sometimes for multiple days at a time without even using my voice, which brings me on to my next point.

I can't really do... Stuff. I'm on quite a limited budget with it being a full time MSc. I do a bit of part time work every now and then but it's not much to fund hobbies I'm interested in or go out and socialise as much as I'd like. Which sucks because I'm a very social person.

Then also add the fact that my exes pop up and get involved in shit that they really had no need to and that just pissed me off and made some shit weird for me.

It's not a bad time in my life, I'm very grateful and privileged to be where I am and what's coming next is gonna be great. But right now things are dragging, and it's hard, especially the loneliness. And that kinda sucks to be honest.

If you read all this, hi I guess, not sure why I post this kinda stuff but I feel like an idiot doing it on FB or Insta and I want it somewhere so yeah. Hi.

[mariogoetze]

The Rated R Superstar lives on 🤘 🤘

[the-fallout-shelter]

I just can't get over his face in the second gif.

Honestly even if you don't like wrestling, to be told that thing you love more than anything, that thing you're one of the best ever at, to be told that you can't ever do it again or you'll die. That would crush you.

To then go "fuck this, I finish on my terms", and 9 years later you get m e d i c a l l y d a m n c l e a r e d, after more surgery, constant conditioning and working out, constant doubts and worries. Literal blood, sweat and tears.

If that doesn't make you believe that maybe, just maybe, anything is possible in some way if you put your everything into it, then I don't know what will.

At the very least take hope.

[winchester-cas]

“Thank God you’re cute”

[brokk-e-n]

“The way you explain things that you're passionate about, your laugh, your smile, the cute faces you do when you’re confused; all these things turn my heart to jelly.”

— 1:06

[methhomework]

[animatedtext]

[winterchristmastime]

[the-fallout-shelter]

Just days to go until February. The cold is here. Bring the damn snow.

[susemoji]

that woman you just called fat? it’s the moon. that boy you just called ugly? it’s a bike. that woman you called anorexic? that’s a lamppost. the man you called gay for kissing his boyfriend? its a woman. you need glasses.

[megacycles-blog-blog]

[the-fallout-shelter]

This has been Bill, with his short presentation on how to Facebook. Be more Bill.

[elmesza]

[spheal-a-day]

Requesting Seel balancing Spheal on its nose

The mythical double blep

[the-fallout-shelter]

Ever listen to music and hope that love is real in the ay you think it is, and that movie-style romance and all that passion still exists. I don't know if it does anymore, but it better, cos I'm not giving it up on it and I'm not a fan of wasting my time. Get your shit together universe.

[hypersexualsportswear]

“First of all… bitch”

[chiltonisaquack]

[re2make-deactivated20151029]

ok

[tumblr-er]

thank

[morbidology]

[morbidology]

Panjin Red Beach is located in the north east of Beijing and is appropriately called this due to the seaweed which turns to a bright red colour in Autumn. It has become known as the “home of the cranes” and is the home to 260 different types of birds, including the endangered Crown Canes and Blacak Beaked Gulls, and 399 different types of wild animals.

[cutepetsuwu]

Baby hummingbird drinking the juice from a raspberry

[signlesstheredbloodedtroll]

@narwhalsarefalling this is so fucking funny