Justice For Maroon

My name is May, im 21, she/her, Aromantic

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!!Intro post!!

Hi, my name is May, a lot of people call me May Bell

Some general Trigger Warnings for this blog

-Animal death

-Gore

I’ll add more if anything happens

Greetings, originally I was going to post about the situation a few months ago, but I was too scared of looking paranoid, and because I struggle with speaking…but I need to. I need this to get out of my head, I need a place to keep track of evidence, I need someone to tell me if I’m slipping. Three birds one stone.

In August my dog, Maroon was murdered, his poor body was left in the backyard of apartment building 3 (I live on the other side at 7) he was split in two. Like a hot dog bun, covered in meat mush and ketchup. At first everyone thought it was a Hunter, who thought he was a fox. Though no one spoke up. In the end everyone agreed it was coyotes. I don’t think so. The only things missing from Maroon wouldn’t be things Coyotes eat, and that cut was perfect. I think it’s my upstairs neighbor.

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I’m done with this, im sorry I can’t complete it. I don’t feel like this is good and that I could do better. I’m sorry. Maybe someday in the future I’ll give it another try. I had big plan for this, but I don’t even feel like it’s worth trying.

-Twig

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Sorry about yesterday. Marks gone missing.

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I feel sick so sick. Oh my god

Oh my god

I

It’s all my fault

I did this

I’m so stupid

Im sorry

Im sorry

Mark

I’m sorry

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Marks gone missing

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SOMEONE BELIEVES ME SOME ONE BELIEVES ME!

I told Mark everything! I took out my jacket from the trash. I even told him about maroon. He believes it. He believes everything even about maroon.

I’m sitting on my floor and crying. It’s…..everything….i feel ok.

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I’ve been getting mark to drive me to work

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He sat beside me on the bus today. I froze, too scared to say anything. I wanted to stand up and yell “Get away from me! Stop following me!” But he was a foot bigger, and something in his attentive eyes and loose smile told me to keep my mouth shut.

Man older woman, who sat near us, was very pleased about this. “It’s nice to see you two get together! I’ve seen how you look at her!” She swooned. Puke raised in my throat when she mentioned how he looks at me. Those stupid vile glassy eyes snapping into consciousness makes me more ill.

He spoke to her. “We’ve jusy started dating,” his voice was smooth and bubbly, excited to share his fantasy, “We’re still planning our first one!” I dared open my mouth and he grabbed my hand, tight. Even now it’s still throbbing.

I zoned out, resting my head on the window. I didn’t want to be part of this conversation anymore.

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I found my wind breaker. It was right in-front of the door. I actually hit it when I opened it. I looked at it for about five minutes, before picking it up. My shaking hands held it.

The words ‘oh my beloved may belle. So young and pretty.’ It was horribly done. It was like he only had an old ripped up book to go off of, with missing yellowed rotting pages.

Letters of languages I didn’t recognize and honestly looked like parodies of maybe French and Spanish.

I found my pills in the pocket of it.

I threw it away.

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I saw Roman out yesterday while I was waiting for the bus. “You cold may bell?” He asked with a slight laugh. “I…I think someone stole my other jacket.” He rolled his eyes. “Julie says the same thing almost weekly, and do you know what happens? Whatever it is, it was just tucked up in some closet. You’re still recovering, my dear, give your mind a break.

I felt dread. Really. How was I supposed to say that Im being stalked up the upstairs neighbor who is just the friendly father. That the note he left me is still hiding in my freezer. “Right.”

Roman frowned. “Hey it’s alright. I know you can get lost in your head sometimes. I’ve been thinking….maybe you should get a new dog. Might…clear your head. Give you something to take care of.” I trembled….if I got another dog Hed just kill that one too.

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I dreamt of him last night. We were walking through a park. I was holding onto his hand. Eating fruit and talking.

He brought me into the woods, and Maroon walked up to me. Split open, and…..dragging organs I don’t even think were real. He was making pained noises no dog should ever make. The whole world smelt like death, rot, and blood.

I woke up needing to vomit

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I’ve been trying to get Julie to my house more. Whenever I’m alone I can feel his eyes. Pinned onto me, staring at me every second. Sometimes I Desperately search for him. To yell at him, to have proof. But most times, im scared of what I’ll see

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I’ve picked up sleeping pills when I got my medication today.

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Julie and Brisket came by. We wanted Brisket to have some of Maroons toys. So he could remember his friend. Now that I’m finally able to part with them.

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It’s getting much, much warmer now. I’ve been trying to open the window more, I feel sick, so so sick.

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My wind breaker is missing. I have to go to work in an hour….. I’ll just have to wear my winter jacket…which is a little embarrassing.

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My brothers been calling me more, he’s been getting more worried about me, honestly….i am too