[the-idjits-randomness]

Hi and welcome to my "everything else goes here" account.

This is my sideblog where I post and reblog random things that aren't necessarily Supernatural, Good Omens, or Six of Crows content.

This includes my random thoughts and shit.

My other accounts:

@just-one-massive-idjit

@idjits-areus

Ao3

Fics from Ao3 I linked in a post:

"Blue Knitted Kitty Hat" - Haven Syfy (Duke/Nathan, Duke& Nathan fluff)

"Nothing More, Nothing Less" - Tadc (Cupioplatonic!Jax Episode 6 angst)

"Stay With Me" - Tadc (Jax&Pomni, Jax/Pomni Abstraction angst)

#Adorable little fucker -> for some bunny posts

[the-idjits-randomness]

I can try again with my irl starting tomorrow. Problem is every time I think about it, anxiety shoots through my body and I start having the thought "what if it learned it's better off without me?" Which, on one hand is bullshit, but on the other....I'll push through the anxiety and reach out at some point in the next week. I just....*sighs*

[the-idjits-randomness]

I reached out. I know I said I was going to wait, but I couldn't function this morning. I know I'm not going to get a response right away, which is fine. Understandable. I just needed to do it or I would spend the entire day stuck in anxiety and anticipation.

[the-idjits-randomness]

Reality: 1

Anxiety: 0

[dubiousculturalartifact]

The new Odyssey adaptation has inevitably gotten people talking about a Muppet version of it, and they’re frequently suggesting Kermit as Odysseus, Miss Piggy as Penelope.

I’m sorry but that’s thinking way too small, hear me out:

We need to have Miss Piggy as Odysseus, and Kermit as Penelope.

Think about it… who’s the more fickle, prideful, warlike one in that relationship? Who is absolutely ready to go ham, at a moment’s notice?

It ain’t Kermit

[the-idjits-randomness]

I can try again with my irl starting tomorrow. Problem is every time I think about it, anxiety shoots through my body and I start having the thought "what if it learned it's better off without me?" Which, on one hand is bullshit, but on the other....I'll push through the anxiety and reach out at some point in the next week. I just....*sighs*

[the-idjits-randomness]

I reached out. I know I said I was going to wait, but I couldn't function this morning. I know I'm not going to get a response right away, which is fine. Understandable. I just needed to do it or I would spend the entire day stuck in anxiety and anticipation.

[the-idjits-randomness]

Tumblr changed their UI for the settings and I dislike it

[the-idjits-randomness]

I think the fact that I'm starting to doodle wings on sticky notes I'm throwing away at work because I can't do any writing due to the temp sitting at the desk behind me says a lot.

The wing I just doodled

This is not my first one. I started doing it yesterday, but didn't take any photos of them.

[the-idjits-randomness]

I can try again with my irl starting tomorrow. Problem is every time I think about it, anxiety shoots through my body and I start having the thought "what if it learned it's better off without me?" Which, on one hand is bullshit, but on the other....I'll push through the anxiety and reach out at some point in the next week. I just....*sighs*

[the-idjits-randomness]

It's a requirement that I take photos of my bunnies whenever I see them. That's the rules. My phone will be filled by the end of the summer. And by "my bunnies" I mean the resident bunnies at work.

[the-idjits-randomness]

It's a requirement that I take photos of my bunnies whenever I see them. That's the rules. My phone will be filled by the end of the summer. And by "my bunnies" I mean the resident bunnies at work.

[archipithecus]

softshell and hardshell books

paperback and hardcover turtles

[cptsdwillgraham-deactivated2019]

beep beep sometimes when you have been in survival mode for a long time the parts of you dedicated to Wanting Things atrophy and you forget how to envision a future that feels rewarding because you are busy with the business of staying alive, and it can seem like your life must be pointless because you can’t imagine any long term goals. sometimes even when you leave survival mode you can’t remember how to Want Things. that doesn’t mean you need to give up on having a good and fulfilling life, it just means that Wanting Things is a muscle you need to gradually strengthen. the part of you that has dreams and aspirations is still there, it just fell asleep, but if you wiggle it enough it can and will regain feeling. it’s okay to start small

[the-alleged-mr-uncle]

#okay but how

I’m going to speak on this even though I’m not OP because survival mode stripped me of everything “non-essential” and I’ve put in a lot of work, so here’s what I got:

You probably know people who have desires and plans. Buddy system the fuck out of those relationships. Ask about their gardens, projects, and the new recipes they are trying out. If they are thinking about painting a room, volunteer to help them. Go to the hardware store, let them talk about this and that shade. While you are preparing the room to be painted, think about how the new paint color will look in the morning sun, or at sunset. 

Go to places where others have invested and planned. Community gardens that need watering volunteers. Neighborhood associations looking to fill potholes. Pet rescue centers that need blankets washed. Libraries looking for bodies to hand out summer reading rewards and T-Shirts. Hang out there, watch people care. Maybe lend a hand if you are able.

Allow yourself to be curious. Curiosity is the spark that leads to investment, and planning, and passion. “I wonder what hyenas sounds like” - “Huh, has anyone ever used hyena noises in music?” - “How does a person go about doing that?” - “Could I do that?” It is okay if the curiosity is easily satisfied. You are encouraging yourself to be interested, I promise that eventually you’ll hit on things that then interest you.

Buy candy bars in flavors you haven’t tried and are dubious about. Chips with unholy flavor combos. If it is tasty, share it with a friend. If it is awful, share it with a friend. Put sesame oil in milk to taste, like I did two weeks ago. Because I was curious, because it sounded disgusting but what if it wasn’t, because my friend laughed when I said I would. 

I keep a journal, more of a bulleted list collection. At the end of every day I write down things that I liked, or things I accomplished, or a simple pleasant moment. On my worst days I usually can still find something. Often it is “saw a bird” or “tea”. Just to write down anything, anything other than “survived”. I saw a bird today, so there must be something more to life, maybe.

[the-idjits-randomness]

Reconnected friend is good to have. Only problem is that he might be a fall back. I'm trying to not have that be the case, but the last time my other friend and I stopped talking, this reconnected friend and I kept talking. So part of me is afraid that I'm just repeating a cycle. I don't want to do that. So I'm trying to not.

[the-idjits-randomness]

Okay. I think we need to ban "my sex gloved his cock" as a sentence because what the fuck is that? There are so many more ways to put that and yet you choose one of the absolute cringiest. And who even approved that in the first place! This is in a published book! We need to burn it with fire. Though I'm not even sure that's strong enough

[the-idjits-randomness]

So I told the person I hung out with last weekend about Selene, Bavarian and Pavlova and how I constantly call them adorable little fuckers and he had such a brilliant idea. Adorable Little Fucker is their family name. Their last name. I love it.

[the-idjits-randomness]

Ah yes. I go to talk about my day to my mother and I get the look of "you're interrupting me". I talk anyways, but my god. And this is why I don't tell you shit about anything important.

[the-idjits-randomness]

Selene taken from about a foot away from my window at work

[the-idjits-randomness]

Selene from my car

[the-idjits-randomness]

Selene taken from about a foot away from my window at work