Filthy Trash Gremlin

Nyct0ph0bia 27 | she/they | ♓️ | Canada 🍁 | INFP | Mezzo soprano | Bisexual | DID system Currently hyper fixating on Genshin, Danganronpa, Nanbaka, YTTD and BNHA ⚡️Your local Denki kinnie⚡️ Filthy Homestuck Hyper fixating on things since 1999 I cosplay, draw stuff and play music (violin, piano, ukulele, trumpet, and guitar). I’m french canadian so be warned, my English is bad

[the-jukeb0x]

I never actually introduced myself on here, so I guess it’s finally time I do so!!

Hey everyone, my name is Gaby, or Jukebox, or Nycto, whichever you prefer!! You might know me from TikTok or Instagram (nyct0ph0bia.cosplay), or from AO3 (nyct0ph0bia)! And you might also know me from my I Don’t Love You Seagull meme that I did back in university when it was 3AM and I had classes that morning.

I’m a cosplayer, artist, musician, fanfic writer, and full time cancer patient with Metastasic Colorectal Cancer due to my genetic condition (Familial Adenomateus Polyposis). I’m also an advocate for fellow cancer patients and survivors, and disabled people since I’m disabled myself!

I love art, music and craft (as mentioned above) and I make resin art and sew sometimes. I want to make ostomy covers at some point since I have an ostomy myself.

I have had this blog since my teenage years and now I’m turning 27 this March! Feel free to ask questions, I’ll be happy to answer them! And follow along as I start using this blog to document my medical journey and other things related to my favourite fandoms!

Here’s a few of my cosplays, some date from before I got diagnosed with cancer and some are from last year.

Characters in order:

Jyugo (Nanbaka)

Aventurine (Honkai: Star Rail)

Childe/Tartaglia (Genshin Impact)

Kaedehara Kazuha (Genshin Impact)

Kyouka Jirou (My Hero Academia) (photo by VelvetR3d on Instagram)

Gundham Tanaka (Danganronpa)

Ororon (Genshin Impact)

[ruestep]

Ok, so...

No simplyplural (shuts down in june)

No octocon (shuts down in 2 weeks)

No ampersand (community uncertainty, major device limitations)

No writelighthouse 2.0 (in development)

No pluralconnect (supposed security issues, very early development)

No concordia (in development)

No halvex florality/project jasmine (just entering closed beta, keep an eye out...)

Now what? Here's some names I've heard tossed around:

Antar (private)

WriteLighthouse 1.0 (private; sign-ups open?)

HiveMind (private?)

Obsidian (private)

Notion (private)

Anytime (private unless shared)

TwiNote (private)

Pronouns.CC (public and/or private)

Neocities (public)

Pluralkit (discord bot)

Tupperbox (discord bot)

Thumper (discord bot)

Paper journals (private unless shared/found)

I may update this list if or when I find more, but as of now I need to focus on our own system.

Remember to take care and breathe. This has been a very stressful month for systems/plurals. Please remember that you can always step away and come back when you're ready.

It's ok to be scared, upset, uncertain. Thing's will get better; things will get easier. /g

[morning-stars-avenue]

now seems like a good time to share that me and a couple of friends from Cringe System Central (syscord server) compiled a doc a bit ago with resources for systems. any syscourse stance may interact with this post since the loss of both SP and Octocon is affecting the entire system community, but have it be known that I'm pro-endo and anti-radqueer. I don't care who reblogs this post just don't bring any hate pretty please!

Plural resources

Please contact @fall3n.f3ath3r on discord or @the-elysium-collective on tumblr for any questions, comments, or other about this document Th

[theindigospectrum]

Gonna be plural app posting for a bit

Ykw yeah. Yeah atp i *am* mad abt both SP and Octocon shutting down and Ampersand going on hiatus/considering shutting down. ESPECIALLY Octocon. When it was *just* simply plural, like, i understood why people were mad, but at least the creator was keeping the servers running for as long as possible and shit. Do i think there are other, better ways it couldve be handled? Yeah. Do i understand why the creator took the route they did? Yeah! I could deal with it

But octocon, OCTOCON. The app that was explicitly said by the SP creator as a good alternative, that ADVERTISED ITSELF AS A GOOD ALTERNATIVE, SHUTTING DOWN. WITH A 2 WEEKS FUCKING NOTICE. AFTER THEY SAID "we dont have any plans to shut down the project". WHAT THE HELL.

People have already went through losing a very accessible and good disability aid with SP being discontinued. And now Octocons fucking leaving us high and dry?! Look. I understand having mental health issues. I understand that the octocon dev has been under a lot of stress since the SP shutdown. But just shutting down a popular disability aid which was ADVERTISED AS AN ALTERNATIVE TO ANOTHER POPULAR, DISCONTINUED DISABILTY AID, is SO FUCKING CALLOUS. You could have just gone on hiatus! Hired someone else to handle it! anything BUT SHUTTING IT DOWN. OH MY LLLORD. I dont wanna say its stupid but its STUPID. AND SO FUCKING CALLOUS. And its breaking a promise, on top of disappointing thousands of people, pulling the rug out from under them, and taking away a disability aid. You can take care of yourself without doing shit like this. Im pissed tf off.

Along with that, Ampersand going on hiatus/possibly shutting down makes this issue compound. It feels like the plural and CDD communities are just getting basically left in house with like. 3 ingredients and no cooking knowledge and being told "have fun!!" While the people leaving take the rest of the food with them.

What the fuck, Atlas, Amaryllis (SP dev), whoever the ampersand dev is, do better.

[jerkbags]

I THINK IT'S INCREDIBLY FUNNY THAT THE DEVELOPER / STAFF OF OCTOCON WAS ACTING LIKE THEY'RE GOING TO BE TIED ONTO A STICK AND BURNED ALIVE LIKE IT'S A WITCH TRIAL. PEOPLE HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE UPSET, YOU LEGITIMATELY PROMISED YOU WOULD NOT STEP DOWN FROM THE DEVELOPMENT OF AN APP THAT PEOPLE DO NEED VERY MUCH AT THE TIME NOW THAT SIMPLYPLURAL HAS STEPPED DOWN. IT'S FINE TO OWN UP TO IT, THAT YOU CAN'T AND YOU NEED A BREAK, BUT TO GO AND ACT LIKE PEOPLE ARE THREATENING YOU AND TELLING YOU TO KILL YOURSELF OR SAYING SLURS? NOW I THINK THAT'S A LITTLE TOO MUCH. ALSO THEIR PAST CONTROVERSIES, YOU CAN'T EVEN CONSIDER THEM PAST IF THEY STILL FOR SOME REASON FEEL NEUTRAL IN REGARDS TO ENDO SYSTEMS. ENDO SYSTEMS HURT REAL SYSTEMS AND ARE THE REASON THERE IS STILL SO MUCH STIGMA AROUND THE TOPIC AT ALL. THERE IS SO MUCH MORE I COULD SAY BUT I CAN'T PUT IT INTO WORDS YET, MAYBE I'LL COME BACK TO THIS BUT THESE ARE MY TWO CENTS ON THAT.

[the-video-store-collective]

it’s almost like you lied to everyone’s face and now you’re being a coward.. interesting!

[simplydecorr]

✨Ourcana Alter Inspo✨

Hi everyone!! So I stumbled across a new system tracking project called Ourcana and I wanted to share as I think it’s really really cool! And I love what they’ve done with it so far.

The project is still in its early phases but what they’ve managed to pull off in less than a week is phenomenal!!

For more info you can check out THIS POST or check out their discord server on the settings page HERE

Below I’ll share some Screenshots of what I’ve managed to do with my own templates so far and I hope to share more as it progresses!

[the-jukeb0x]

Chronic illness blog no.3

I have been absent for a while because I was at the hospital (it’s my third week there) because I had a viral pericarditis due to me being immunocompromised.

My doctor said that chemotherapy is like a card deck: sometimes you have good cards, and sometimes you get wild cards that don’t make your life better.

The good news is that my pericard reacted well with antibiotics and I can go home tomorrow.

[the-jukeb0x]

A bit of a mobility aid positivity for today as I am currently at the hospital due to a fever. Will update on it as soon as possible

Image descriptions: the first 4 photos are of me with a green wig and a black hat. The first two I am standing up with my cane, and the next two I am sitting down on a chair. The last two pictures are of me without a wig and hat, proudly showing my shaved head. On the first I am sitting down, and on the last picture I am standing up with my cane. On all six pictures I am wearing a goth look and goth makeup with green accents that matches my green and black wig.

[the-jukeb0x]

Chronic illness blog post no. 2 - Chemotherapy cycle no. 12

Today I have no motivation but I know that it’s for the best. My pain level is orange (I use colours based on the diagram below made by reesesendojourney on Instagram)

This image shows different medical pumps that are used to give me my chemotherapy treatment.

This image shows a pain scale that goes by different colours: green, yellow, orange, red and dark red.

Green: My symptoms are at their most manageable, I am the most able and mobile I can be, I have energy to spare

Yellow: My symptoms are starting to worsen and I need more support, I will take it easy to avoid getting worse

Orange: My symptoms and needs are taking up most of my attention, I have more limited mobility and need to rest

Red: My symptoms are flaring badly and need all attention, I need support and the only thing I can do is rest

Dark red: My symptoms are at their worst or new, I have nearly no mobility and may possibly need medical attention

[the-jukeb0x]

Chronic illness blog post no. 1

Gonna start documenting my life with chronic pain and cancer since it helps get things out. I won’t go into too much detail ofc

Got my cane today! Very happy about it and I’m sure it’ll help me when I get bad neuropathy due to cancer treatments.

The cane in question (it’s pink!!!)

[liberaljane]

Your health may change, but your worth does not.

Keep reading

[the-jukeb0x]

As an ostomate, I love seeing more ostomy representation 🥹🫶

[the-jukeb0x]

Yo!! Fellow INFP Canadian!!

Hey!!! Nice seeing other Canadians on there!!! ☺️

[catgrump]

Danganronpa Tamagotchi Charms!!!

Trigger Happy Havoc

SDR2

DRV3

[literallyglitchn]

more Sero dumps! please take care of my boy thank you

[boobieteriat]

Harvard study finds Israel ‘disappeared’ nearly 400,000 Palestinians in Gaza, half of them children: Report

The study uses data-driven analysis and spatial mapping to highlight a severe decline in Gaza’s population due to Israel’s indiscriminate at

[stoptheantisemitism]

This is another Holocaust

This holocaust is a result of Zionism and Israel

[vinbitism]

Adam rosner is a rapist. fuck you. It's not up to you to decide if a victim is telling the truth. they're saying if there was more proof why is Adam not in jail and maybe it's because rapists never get in trouble for what they do??? does this mean I'm suddenly a liar because I have no proof of what happened to me with my teacher??? I didn't take fucking pictures of an assault to make one sick bastard believe me. Fuck you. Heather and the other victims don't owe you SHIT. when the fuck did it become acceptable to just decide people are lying Simply bc you feel like you don't have enough evidence? what do you wanna see, huh??? you wanna see him raping people? you wanna see him hurting people? I don't fucking understand. if you support Slenderversefunnn please block me and go away bc fuck you you're disgusting.