The Lovely Lost

The lost shows the truth about heartbreak

[the-lovely-lost-96]

Once again. Life is weird. On Nov 15th one of my best friends went missing. Her boyfriend didn’t say anything about it for two days until he involved her sister. I could speculate, but I have plenty of time to do that between now and eternity.

We pushed out information. About her. I pushed her face in front of every social media I could think of that would be able to see it. I pushed it on 5 local Facebook groups. 2 Reddit pages. I pushed it *hard*. Even discord groups that were local to me.

And now it’s bizarre to think today, on my friends’ birthday (she was turning 29). That she was found in a creek bed near a hotel, almost two and a half hours away from home. From her friends. That she took her last breath. And as of right now, they’re ruling it self inflicted. There’s so many details that doesn’t make sense. But I guess that’s the weird thing. It doesn’t have to make sense to me.

There’s a chance it will never make sense to me.

There’s a chance I’ll never get all the answers.

Only speculation. And what I think happened.

Hold your loved ones extra close. Pick a trusted person to be your legacy key holder for your phone. You’ll never know when it’ll be your last time seeing someone. Love them more. Make notes of memories and love so if your loved one has the unfortunate reality of having to use the legacy key, they can see all the memories you held significant and loved.

[the-lovely-lost-96]

For anyone that comes across this post who does not know me, Hi! I’m Bridgett. I will be your host for my one and only NEW podcast Campfire Inbox. Hang with me and my cats (sometimes) as we tell *your* stories.

Join me as we talk paranormal experiences, dreams that feel a little too real, a slice of wholesome pie, OR that one thing you survived that you’re not entirely sure you should’ve. To have *YOUR* story on my podcast send me an email at [email protected] OR direct message me for the link to the Google form where you can fill out the needed info there.

If you *are* gonna share your story there’s a few bits of info I need (most of this is on the Google form but if you email me, you will need this info.)-

We need a name to refer to you as on the podcast, an introduction if you will.

I need a title for your story (this can also be the subject line)

Any trigger warnings- mentions of violence, depression, that kinda thing.

Catagorized your story for me- is it a tale of survival? Or something you learned the hard way but comically, or even that really weird vivid dream that you CANNOT shake.

Lastly, this isn’t necessarily required but feel free to add photos and please indicate if we can share said photos.

Let me be clear, your story doesn’t have to be IRL. It can just be a short story of characters you’ve had kicking around in your mind. Or even stories you’ve had laying around that you’re like “pft, why not?”

Come gather around with me to tell your stories. And your stories wont be the only ones told. Join me for our intro and our first episode which will be short stories that I have brushed the dust off of and popped the cork to share. I’ll see you in a week!

-Bridgett

[acsparkplug]

Spark Notes | acsparkplug

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[acsparkplug]

HELLO! I thought with all the new traffic on my page I'd reintroduce myself!

My name is Amanda, but you can call me Spark. I specialize in Digital Art, and have been honing that skill for the past 12 years! My hyper fixations change frequently, and I apologize for the whiplash.

Some fandoms I frequent (not listed above) are:

Resident Evil (mostly 7 and 8)

Portal

Five Night's at Freddy's

Star Wars The Clone Wars

The Mandalorian

Stardew

Cult of the Lamb

I am: OPEN FOR COMMISSIONS

My pricing is below <3

Feel free to message me anytime with your questions!

YOU CAN SEND ME A KOFI

I want to thank all of my patrons for their continued love and support:

Rayson567

Madeline Haase

Rowan

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[acsparkplug]

<3 Open Commissions <3

MY COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN!

Here are some cropped photos of previous commissions and patreon exclusive art! My dms are always open, whether it be here, on tumblr or other forms of social media! I also do NSFW art <3 

Join my Patreon!

Buy me a kofi?  

Follow me on Twitter

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*please do not reupload my art*

[acsparkplug]

Hello! I’d like to introduce myself to all of my new followers!

My name is Amanda and I’m a digital artist! I’ve been practicing art since I was about 5 years old, but academically been sharpening my skills for 11 years. I originally started out with traditional art, then slowly found my passion for the digital variety. (I even went to college for a degree in Fine Art before Paint tool Sai lured me into their grips)

 Currently I’m working on a FNAF fan comic called, “A Runaway Superstar”, both on here (tumblr) and my patreon! 

If FNAF isn’t your thing I have a LOT of fandom interests (that is always steadily growing) and the list above in the gif is only the tip of the iceberg.

I’m always interested in hearing ideas and suggestions from others, so my inbox and personal messages are open! 

Want to support me?

Join my Patreon!

Buy me a kofi?  

Follow me on instagram: @acsparkplug_

My commissions are OPEN! (see pricing below)

*please do not repost my art*

[just-shower-thoughts]

Coffee drinkers are technically drug addicts.

[thoughtkick]

“Maybe you have to know the darkness before you can appreciate the light.”

— Madeleine L'Engle

[20o1-deactivated20240129-deacti]

you deserve to be happy.

you deserve to feel loved.

you deserve good things.

[deadxdoll]

[the-lovely-lost-96]

I used to share a lot of personal stuffs on my Instagram, I had my own picked out family on it because I didn’t feel like I belonged to my own.

In spirit of having that freedom again, I’ve made another blog of personal stuffs.

It helps sometimes. I guess.

[acsparkplug]

My first drawing of Lady D 💕💕💕

[the-lovely-lost-96]

Imma simp for some Lady D

[achievement-b-huntress-deactiva]

ALRIGHT. LISTEN UP.

So recently, I got calls from the phone number, [phone]. They claim to be a job service, and one of their “employees”, Carrigan, is friends with whoever the call recipient is, and that Carrigan has recommended you for this $15.00/h “job”. I also got a text message from [phone], claiming to be Carrigan, and that they need stuff to “win a scholarship”. I do not know anyone by the name of Carrigan and I know very well that this is a very dangerous scam. If you receive a call from a number, and they ask you if you would like a job for $15.00/h, HANG UP IMMEDIATELY. If you accept the “job” offer, and you go in for an interview, they will give you a drugged bottle of water and you will wake up somewhere you don’t want to be. These phone calls & texts are from a human trafficking service, and if you oblige to them, you will be sold to people and you will be raped, no doubt about it. So PLEASE PLEASE DO NOT ANSWER THESE CALLS OR TEXTS. I have listened to the voicemails, and allowed my dad to do the same, and he learned that anyone offering a $15.00/h “job” is a human trafficker. PLEASE SIGNAL BOOST THIS ALL OVER TUMBLR

[achievement-b-huntress-deactiva]

Okay, I am reblogging this because it is relevant again. I got another call from a 353 number. Not the exact same number, but I know that it is a trafficker because it’s 353 just like the last one. I also want this to signal boost so PLEASE REBLOG THIS.

[nawdah]

Why are people deleting the captions though I had to search for what the pictures meant don’t do that

[bleuberrygliscor]

a side note,  because theyre very popular around the DMV, If you ever see a sign with something akin to ‘free debt erasure’ ‘15/h job’ etc and ONLY A PHONE NUMBER, ignore it. tear it down if you can, because those are well known scams and sex-trafficking baits.do not, by any means, call or respond to these messages. do not let your friends do it. do not.

[findyourpenguin]

THIS IS IMPORTANT AF THANK Y’ALL HOLY SHIT

Oklahoma is one of the worst states as far as human trafficking, so thank y’all so fucking much. That’s literally my life and the lives of everyone I know that y’all just saved. Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you

[mcwie]

*FUCKING SPAMS REBLOG*

[ask-henry-yugi-tudor]

guys pls this needs more reblogs

[discourserealness]

how to fucking flag pedophiles

call me the fucking ~internet police~ BUT I DIDN’T KNOW UNTIL TODAY THAT THERE’S LITERALLY A COMMUNITY OF “PEDOPHILE POSITIVITY” ON THIS HELLSITE

THERE ARE PEOPLE OPENLY ADMITTING THAT THEY ARE ATTRACTED TO CHILDREN/CONSUMING CHILD PORN ON THIS WEBSITE!?!??! THERE’S 13 YEAR OLDS ON HERE!!!

so my dudes, how to flag “maps” (minor attracted people aka pedophiles)

1. click “flag this blog”

2. click “this violates tumblr’s community guildlines”

3. click “someone is at risk of harm”

4. click “harm to minors”

5. type “pedophile” in the box

[socialjusticeolivia]

THIS IS GOOD AND ALL BUT PLEASE IF THEY HAVE ACTUAL CP PLEASE REPORT IT TO FBI TIPS,

[excalibelle]

If it’s clear they have broken laws (they post/talk about using child porn, admit to things they’ve done with minors, etc), go fill out a form here ( https://tips.fbi.gov ) to make the FBI aware and bring this filth to justice. Every single one. And if there’s no proof of criminal offense, then go on and flag them, at least then they aren’t here to prey on children on the internet.

[gumsmack-deactivated20180527]

Hi guys I recently had a run in with a pedophile who was posting child pornography, please don’t call the police there’s not a whole lot they can do in situations of tracking unless it’s in your home state! And they don’t have a department that deals with blogs.

Instead call 1-800-843-5678 or fill out a form for cybertipline.com , they reach out within the same day and deal with these assholes all the time. They will contact you if they need more assistance or if they’ve resolved it! The police department redirected me to the hotline and will do so in every situation unless it’s local. Stay safe!

[constellations-and-energy]

WHAT THE FUCK EW???????? 

REBLOG TO WRECK A PEDOPHILE 

[boingovisions]

yes, please report to the fbi or the other place mentioned. tumblr will only delete the blog and all of the evidence.

[tatsumi-rin]

Also use IWF (Internet Watch Foundation/ iwf.org.uk) for mentioned imagery, especially if in the UK. You can even report anonymously.

[trevorr-belmont]

hey y’all, remember this. report if you see it. 

[catchymemes]

[breakfast-sandwich-deactivated2]

What really fucks me up about a 40 hour work week and I’ve tried to explain to people over and over is that like of you do the math you have maybe 3 hours every day to just like. Rest and be with your family. And that’s kind of it

Like the average adult needs about 8 hours of sleep every night, so that cuts your 24 hours to 16 right off the bat.

You’re working for 8 hours, so 8 left.

But you actually work 8 to 5 at most offices, not 9 to 5, and that lunch is basically just long enough to retrieve food and eat. 7.

It took you 20 minutes to shower this morning, 10 to get dressed, and 45 to make a bowl of oatmeal and eat it. We’ll say 15 to get your stuff together and out to your car. 5 and a half.

You get home and have to cook dinner, 30 minutes min for that, probably more like an hour, so somewhere between 5 and 4.5 hrs left. And then you’ve got to eat it, 30 minutes if you’re being healthy about it.

So at best you’ve MAYBE got 4/4.5 hours left every week day and that’s assuming you ran exactly zero errands, didn’t stop by the gym after work, didn’t have to stay late, have a wicked fast transition time between tasks AND a commute of like 5 minutes by car. If you have to go to the store after a quick run at the gym, pick your kids up from soccer across town, and you factor in a 30 minute commute both ways, you’ve got enough free time for like one episode of show Monday through Friday. And weekends have got to be for cleaning the house and going to visit your mom for a few hours.

When do you write, or paint, or read or sew or go on hikes? When do you go on spur of the moment adventures with your wife and try to perfect your grandma’s soda bread? What happens when it rains on Saturday after being sunny all the rest of the week so you can’t go to the zoo that day and you don’t have enough money for the museum? Why are we all just content to postpone our whole lives, put off “happy” and “healthy” for a miniscule amount of extra value we’re producing for someone else?

And it’s also a thing that fascinates me about hustle culture like. When do y'all rest? When do sleep and food happen? How do you make 3 different jobs work without dying?

Idk idk like I said I’m real fucked up about it. It amazes me that more office workers aren’t great big socialists because we have this miserable job where we’re monitored constantly and just have to sit. Still. And maintain focus on ONE THING for EIGHT HOURS in a BORING GRAY ROOM with exactly two short breaks at designated times and I just?? How does that not suck for literally everyone else?? You said yourself, Angie, you’re useless after 3 pm so just?? Organize with me and negotiate for shorter days??? Like you’re literally already only producing 6 hours of value, you don’t need to be sitting there for longer than that.

[thoughtkick]

“All of the years I spent trying to be someone you could be proud of would have been better spent being proud of myself for who I already was.”

— Paula Heller Garland

[thoughtkick]

“No matter how long you’ve been with them, there’s no excuse for a lack of attention.”

— Charles Orlando