~M~

—I am

[the-moons-undying-light]

If I ever reach towards you again

Turn your back to me

Don't even glance at me

I could not handle your silent rejection

You agree to me so respectfully

It almost fools me everytime

My feeble heart would convince me

To go gravedigging in places long abandoned

In the moutains far away from the present

To find a strand of hair or a forgotten heirloom

Then wear it on my person

As though it has nothing to do with you

Knowing I stole it from you and buried it there

[snakeplantz]

Merlin BBC Merlin they could never make me form a solid opinion about you !!! World’s bravest coward. The most loyal traitor. The most honest liar. The gentlest murderer. Destroys everything trying to avoid destruction. What a guy !!!!!!!

[the-moons-undying-light]

That smoke emanating from the ashes of my extinguished flames

I crave your very essense the fire inside me wants to devour you whole

[the-moons-undying-light]

Mapped to zero

Maybe that's all I've become

Maybe the law of survival

Is to lose a couple of flowers

[the-moons-undying-light]

I can not accept love without it destroyin everything that i am

My bones made of spite

[the-moons-undying-light]

Sometimes I find myself at odds

Between wanting to exist and thriving

Sometimes I yearn for more

More than what simple existence offers

How is it that I can't bear any flowers

Even though I grew in rich soil

Haven't I grown up around examples

Perhaps vague examples

No extravagent steps to follow

Just a simple survival guide

At some point I had to turn towards the sun

Because although I could grow against it

As my survival guide said

I needed it to thrive

It hurt a lot

But when I turned I felt my leaves open

But once winter came I was gone

I withered away in the fall

I wonder how long until spring comes again

Will I bloom once more

Is there still hope for me

Who knows

In a garden of the brightest flowers

My color seems rather dull

But for now I must suffice

Enough to sprout out of the ground

We can worry about colors later

Spring will come again

[the-moons-undying-light]

My love is a forest fire

The winds only invite it to blaze higher

It tears through, destructive.

It destroys life. My life.

It will never be as calm as a flowing river

It will rage like tides in a storm

My love wrecks havoc

I've built dams and fire lines to reel

The forces in

You could never understand the hurricanes I contain

[the-moons-undying-light]

This emptiness will wreck havoc and the desperation wont surface the currents of the ocean

[the-moons-undying-light]

This anger rattles against the edges of my heart yet I don't dare say it's rage, rage at the tides not appearing at the gravity of the moon

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

some fics really make me feel this deep in my heart man fanfics are so amazing. I love fanfics

[the-moons-undying-light]

I am the bitterest cup of coffee you'll drink

Fooled by my sweet aroma

You'll keep drinking even if I scald your tongue

My name warned you

So you can't say it's my fault

I am just but a cup of coffee

An order you'll try to convince yourself

Suits you

It's good to drink such a rare coffee

You've never quite tasted anything like it

Must be exotic

Poison must be exotic too

Since you don't seem to mind

How I poison your heart with every sip

At first the bitterness wasn't strong

But now it's overtaken your tongue

You just keep drinking in the hopes that it gets better

Maybe if you try me another day

Maybe my sharp bitterness won't sting you

But you'll be wrong everytime

You'll secretly pour sugar

In hopes to lessen the bite

You'll soon realize

I am made of the bitterest tongue and of the deadliest poison

You'll keep drinking til you bleed

And I won't do anything

I won't even make promises of sweeter days

After all I am just but a cup of coffee

And I will never be more

[the-moons-undying-light]

Watch me make it blue

A flower from tiny flower

And a sweet tooth

Maybe I'll find a lego car

Hidden in a cornflower field

Or maybe a dragon as empty as a kernel

A lost memory

I don't feel in the moment

Let me try again

Sapphire blue swirls

Pink stars breathing

Silver sharks glimmering

Gold and diamond shimmer on my wrist

Hidden away in the cave of wonder

I should feel something

You definitely do

I feel nothing still

Okay maybe once more

Nevermind I'm grey

Weary from aging years in months

I sit here haunting myself

I'll be fine as long as I'm alone

Maybe when time comes to pass

Maybe then you'd be more than just a

A drifting moment

[the-moons-undying-light]

Mapped to zero

Maybe that's all I've become

Maybe the law of survival

Is to lose a couple of flowers

[the-moons-undying-light]

Sometimes I find myself at odds

Between wanting to exist and thriving

Sometimes I yearn for more

More than what simple existence offers

How is it that I can't bear any flowers

Even though I grew in rich soil

Haven't I grown up around examples

Perhaps vague examples

No extravagent steps to follow

Just a simple survival guide

At some point I had to turn towards the sun

Because although I could grow against it

As my survival guide said

I needed it to thrive

It hurt a lot

But when I turned I felt my leaves open

But once winter came I was gone

I withered away in the fall

I wonder how long until spring comes again

Will I bloom once more

Is there still hope for me

Who knows

In a garden of the brightest flowers

My color seems rather dull

But for now I must suffice

Enough to sprout out of the ground

We can worry about colors later

Spring will come again

[the-moons-undying-light]

First love is just as fleeting

As a summer breeze

It leaves you chasing

[the-moons-undying-light]

I find traces of you in my dreams

It feels like scratching at a wounds just barely closing

[the-moons-undying-light]

Am I dumb for spilling my secrets before you? Or is it just my desire to be known in whatever capacity possible. I would bleed infront of a lion if it meant he understood my soul for the few moments before he devoured me.