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its Hard to say. there’s so much that I’ll never stop talking about and never talk about.

I went on a trip to the stars to find love. The love was myself.

I just wanted to say

Thank God, God is real. Even in the depths of me and my ocean, I look up.

not back. That’s where Everyone who I gave my love to is. because if I do I’ll reach out. And all of you hurt me to much. You know what you did. Even if subconsciously.

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So I chose something else

When I was alone the chose was myself so I picked me. I left into the world and left everything behind. College, friends, family; but not home. Home was a person and I was that person. I built my Life. I found that I loved being me. maybe when I was all alone I was happy because the intresnice value of me depended on how well I loved me.

how I learned to date myself. Too myself out to special places. Bought little presents. Made sure that my clothes were clean and fridge was full. Everything I did I did it to love me like the person I need to love me. The person who should have loved me was already ment to be me.

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my life went off the rails in 2017.

5 years ago I tried to kill myself. Everything was to much. the happier I tried to make people the sadder I was. the more I did for people the emptier I felt. The more I got hit the less I cared about myself. The more my clothes were ripped the more the part of me died; but that’s not what killed me. It was knowing that the more O put my life in order the more People were going to rip me apart.

I stopped being myself. People noticed they just ignored it. I couldn’t take it. if the world was going to treat me like it always did then I would just end it all. I tired. Then like usual nothing change. It was still what could others get from me but never if I was okay. I started working overnights Because it was easier. i was still to afraid of people.

people will do a lot of things to you just to get whatever it is that you have. They just want something.

it’s been for me all alone. Alone. Like alway a chose

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