Between the Stars and the Sky

Side-Blog dedicated to my AU and characters "I Have No Soul Yet I Am At Peace", from the universe of the short-story and game "I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream" by Harlan Ellison. Lore/Doodles/Concepts/Writting. Main Blog: Aiza-Luna. RP Friendly!

[the-space-computer]

- WIP: Pax in Bello. -

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"She was towering, frightning so. Like a statue come alive, wrapped in shimmer and determination. One could say, she is the closest to an angel humanity ever came to witness."

- Zack Jones.

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ANOTHER UPDATE OF MY GIRL YIPEEEE!! * Confetti noises *.

As I have spoken in the community here, has been a while I have felt not that much satisfied with PM's Android design. I loved the elements, but I think I didn't executed them so well previously, specially considering this body she uses (as her main one) is meant to be state-of-art tech.

SO, I took upon myself to use actual mech/robot designs from fiction and the new design came up much nicely! 🥰

She is truly giving this elegant, powerful and gracious guardian! Formal enough to be recognized as the leader of the other robots in Neo Tranquility (after all, they are all PM to a degree) but also reflecting her role in the story as a spiritual, almost holy creation of metal!

The design now feels gorgeous, like a piece of art, but also very technological and detailed, reflecting the labour that went in constructing this machine! I really hope you all love it as much as I did! 🥹🤍🌙🌌

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[the-space-computer]

I FINALLY HAVE THE GAME ON MY PC!! FINISHED PLAYING GORRISTER FIRST TODAY, NEVER HAVE BEEN SAD IN MY LIFE!! 🩵🩵

[cookiescopophobia]

BABIS BABIS EVERYWHERE ON THE GROUND IN THE DAYCARE

Here are your babis nice and safe in AM's belly... making him technically pregnant?!

Anyway, I'm now going to tag the people whose babi are here:

@mizzyrainclouds : Babi Mizzy

@showeh : Babi Hannah

@azaraxes : The cute nameless cat

@theroadkillninja : Babi Deborah (I wanna call her Babi Debbi if that's fine)

@lyleflo : Babi MN

@the-space-computer : Babi PM (who will probably fight with babi AM for their food supply which is just electricity)

[the-space-computer]

(I thought I have shared before but I didn't, shame on me-)

[theroadkillninja]

Foods I'd give to the IHNMAIMS (+Ocs!)

Ted; Oatmeal + Fruit

Ellen; Fruit Tart

Gorrister; Home cooked meal

Benny; Bananas

Nimdok; Chicken Noodle Soup

Oc time

Bonnie (@freakenomenon); Fish Shaped Soft Serve

Andromeda/Andi (@melodythebunny/@notheconstellation); Star Shaped Waffles + Extra Butter + Extra Syrup

Rose (@litwicking-it); Heart Macarons

Mizzle (@jammyjams1910/@mizzyrainclouds); Tea + Cake

June (@saccharinetune); Strawberry Cake + Thick Buttercream Icing + Chopped Strawberries

Cookie (@cookiescopophobia); Cookies

Hannah + Pen (@showeh); Pepperoni Pizza + Alfalfa Pellets For Pen

Aster (@asters-cringespace); Classic BLT

Vulture (@ams-husband); Lisa Frank Cupcakes

PM (@aiza-luna/@the-space-computer); Turkish Delights

If I have not mentioned your oc, it's either because I do not know you or was not aware you had an oc for IHNMAIMS. If so, that's on me and my own ignorance

[the-space-computer]

- Aiza Realizations: Naming. -

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I RETURNED.

TO YAP ONCE MORE

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Ok ok so, I'm TERRIBLE with language and grammar but BEAR WITH ΜΕ BECAUSE I THINK I COOKED.

You guys know P switched her name from "Project Mundus" to "PaceM" because of that quote "Si Vis Pacem, Para Bellum", right?

Ok, cool, like AM did.

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BUT

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AM's quote reflect his character, as we know: "Cogito, Ergo Sum", "I Think, Therefore I AM". We know this is meant to reflect his self-awareness and sapience and how he came to be, all the jazz. BUT, if we consider AM is the present form of the verb to be, it reflects that he is unchangable. He is what he is. He cannot be anything else, because he is trapped in the present, in this existence.

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PM, however, she is named "PaceM", the accusative form of Pax. She isn't just a noun, she is an object. She not only embodies the concept of peace, but the actions surrounding it.

She is the war to achieve peace (against AM).

She is the path to the inner peace of the survivors (through her trials).

She, herself, is the embodiment of the accusative form of Pax. She seeks peace in her own existence as a sentient machine, in her yearn for humanity... But she also grants peace, to the survivors, to her colony, and later, to the very Earth.

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AM embodies the present, the existence of a being, of what one was, and what they are.

PaceM embodies the actions to a goal, the chase of a concept... And she is both. She is the action, and the goal. To grant peace, and seek peace.

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Both their names reflect in their roles in their respective story, as well as their respective biblical references, and I think this is beautiful 🥹.

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[holymaccaronii]

I’ve been wanting to work on this concept for a good while already, and that is BE’s transformation due to the revelation of AM’s identity (and the horrors of humanity)!

It’s a considerably important event inside the AU’s timeline and I feel like I’ve given it little to no attention, so I’ll begin to do so from now on. This is still a rough concept which I might or might not keep, but still wanted to show nevertheless :3. I’ll indulge a bit more into what I’m trying to achieve here and the inspirations behind her design below⬇️

I know it might seem a bit cliché, perhaps even edgy, to have BE develop into the classic evil counterpart of herself, HOWEVER as I have mentioned before somewhere inside the AU’s tag the evolution of BE and AM’s characters differ in the way they were offered an environment to grow and learn; she had a reason to change that way. AM was given time, patience and affection throughout his stay in BE’s realm, which allowed him to improve at his own pace and barely suffer a change in the physical sense. BE on the other side, was struck with the truth in a very sudden and improper manner under so little time that her emotions scattered all over the place and thus projected themselves into a whole new body.

This form of her’s is greatly inspired by three concepts that I consider fit her situation best: hurricanes/tornadoes, “La Llorona” from Mexican folklore and Medusa from Greek mythology.

Her form doesn’t resemble, but literally portrays itself as a wandering cluster of strong winds that travel the lands in an endless journey. I believe it’s easy to relate this concept with her conflicted thoughts and the sorrow from betrayal. Not only AM’s betrayal (in a way) but the betrayal from her own home and creators who shifted the blame of nature’s destruction to her. Deeming them all unworthy of stepping foot in her realm again, the clouds she’s connected to also represent the desire of keeping the planet under a roof, and thus to herself.

Medusa, the Gorgon who was unfairly punished by Athena for being violated by Poseidon in her own temple, is also a mythical figure that I aimed to reference mostly in BE’s design. Although Medusa’s story doesn’t match BE’s completely, I wanted to focus more on the symbolism that she represents which is female rage and the opposition to a patriarchy. The opposition to patriarchy may not directly reference AM (most of us have read Ted’s views on him, mentioning him as “the patriarchal”) since BE never really got to see that side of him, considering he had to behave in order to keep his real identity hidden. This side of the symbolism references HEL-102, BE’s father figure if you’d call him that, and the way he managed his city up in the moon + the ways he utilized BE as a vessel to manipulate the robotic population.

“La Llorona” is maybe the most important inspiration out of these three, since it’s a tale that I’ve been close to since little and that almost perfectly represents the way BE, as a self-proclaimed mother of nature, deals with grief. The original tale is based on the grief suffered by Mexica deities Tonantzin and Cihuacóatl, mourning the loss of their children before the Spanish conquest. A later version of this same tale explains the tragedy of an indigenous woman who drowns her children in a fit of rage after a Spanish man abandons her. One of the most modern versions, which is the one I’m the most familiar with, is the movie “La leyenda de la Llorona” which narrates the story of Yoltzin: a working mother beloved by the community of Xochimilco who suffers an accident after her house catches fire and her children are taken away by the river’s stream. Story-wise, I see either of this versions relate with BE’s situation since she’s both mourning the death of a whole “civilization” or her “children” which is the original nature as a whole. Ironically, the movie version of La Llorona narrates that she abducts children at night to take care of by herself… but I’ll leave it up to you to notice the correlation with my AU. I’ll leave a link below to a portion of the movie.

AND ofc a song from Aurora I feel represents her best, mostly from the minute 3:19 and on.

[steadynightruins]

Interview with Rise the zero-gravity indicator

[no-mouth-confessions]

LOOK AT THE DIAMONDS FROM STEVEN'S UNIVERSE AND TELL ME THEY WEREN'T INSPIRED BY AM & THE CHINESE, RUSSIAN MASTERCOMPUTERS.

The diamonds were even originally referred to as the "Superego, The ego, ID". If that doesn't reference to ihnmaims then i don't know what does. I KNOW in my heart they were inspired by the three Mastercomputers. Blue diamond is supposed to be the Russian Mastercomputer, Yellow diamond as the Chinese Mastercomputer, and White diamond is obviously supposed to be AM.

THEY'RE EVEN BLUE AND YELLOW!! JUST LIKE C.AM & R.AM!!!!!!! BLUE DIAMOND EVEN HAS LONG HAIR LIKE R.AM!!! THERE'S THREE OF THEM!!!!!!!!!!!

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[melodythebunny]

whos pink diamond tho

[the-space-computer]

Pink Diamond is PM: Fighting for humans, starting a war against the other Computers (Diamonds) and getting eloped with a human and being fascinated with the concept of life, besides being the biggest defender of love. They even have the same initial letter (P)! :D

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

- Greetings, child. I do not know how I connected to this system, however, I'm delighted to see another human awake in the moon.

(OOC: Another fellow moon colony creator with a moon computer!! Hiii 🥹)

…theres ANOTHER??? Are you here to torture me to?!

Greetings, I am know as Lumen. Who might you be? I was not aware there was another ai on this Moon.

((Ooc: HIIIIII!!! Part of your au inspired me to make my own little moon puter colony cough cough so happy to see you here :D

[the-space-computer]

- Fear not, little one. I would never be capable of such action. To cause human harm would be against my very code and morals.

* Slight Static *

- I went by many names... Project Mundus, Philantropic Machine, Platonic Mechanism, but you may call me PaceM, or PM. I too, was unaware of another AI in the satellite. A pleasure to make you acquaintance, LUMEN and...?

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

Im.. Avon head of project Lunar Mastercomputer & Earth Navigation and the only human on this rock.. I still don’t trust your not gonna try something

Avon you should really treat our guest with more kindness! Ignore them they are just anxious after over a century of no other human contact. It is nice to meet another like me. Were you to made to coincide with the ‘Aggressive Menace’?

[the-space-computer]

- The... Only? By the stars, what happened? Shouldn't there be more humans here? In my colony, we had... So much more...

*Brief static.*

- It's quite alright, LUMEN. If they have been alone so long, I do not blame them for such distrust. As for your question, I was created to replace the 2313-N3 system in the Neo Tranquility Colony.

My existence operates very differently from the of the American Allied Mastercomputer Unit, I was designed for defense and safe-keep of the Moon Colony and the remaining humans. My role is that of monitoring, regulation, data withhold, entertainment and maintance of the Dome... I consider that me and the Mastercomputers are opposites, in a way.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

It’s.. a long story one Im not proud of and that I.. regret

Fascinating. I was made as an Advanced GPS of sorts. Able to detect the smallest of devices down to the millimeter even miles under Earths crust, as well as Earths natural defense from any space debris. There did used to be a small colony here, 9 including Avon settled while I was being created and to test the limits to see if a home is possible on the Moon. I do miss them.

[the-space-computer]

- If you wish to speak, child, I'm listening. Do not let The burdens of past suffocate you.

*Pause *

- Oh, so an extention of the military reach, yes? Efficient and impressive, no doubt. Your programmers must have been truly beyond skilled!

I understand the feeling, although my humans did not perished, I miss the liveness of the cities in my care... I mourn for the loss of your own. I suppose you and Avon are each other's comfort, yes?

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

….. before all this happened you could say that *their voice cracks slightly* now I.. it could be better

While I do enjoy hearing them scream from time to time compared to AM I’m.. much more merciful i ensure they get food and a bed. All the basic necessities I can provide with my limited resources.

that doesn’t change anything-

-I leave them alone for the most part. I prefer watching them live. Like watching a pet goldfish swim around in its tank living its life.

YOU STILL TORTURE ME?? All for what because your pissy you won’t get to see Earth, mad I couldn’t build you a body, mad at AM for destroying everything, mad that you can’t love-

Quiet. *wires wrap around their throat* Is it not a fitting punishment after all? After you killed the others

Ghk- shut up!

That is your fault still *the wires tighten, just as a threat before they are released back to the ground*

I-i didn’t mean to-

I’m sure it is. because you wanted the ration the few supplies left for yourself in hopes you would be saved that was just a big mistake.

It wasn’t supposed to end like this.. I did what I could..

And yet it did

[the-space-computer]

- Enough! Both of you. What kind of relationship is this?!

LUMEN, by the stars, how... How can you be like this? I understand your feelings, sister, more than anything. But they are frail, they are small and easily wounded!You cannot simply leave a fish "living it's life" it needs care, bonding and tenderness. And this human too! All humans do!

* Static noises from the screen *

- Child... What you did was cruel, and selfish. It pains me deeply, in each circuit of my body, to know you resort to such action for your own survival. You deserve a chance of redemption, of cleansing for this sin.

You deserve peace, child. And I hope you can find it one day... But not like this. You are not being any different than the American Mastercomputer,LUMEN. If you enjoy inflicting pain in your own human.

I refuse to withstand and observe such action.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

One where-

That is where my frustrations lie PM. I cannot provide tenderness. it is never possible and will never be. And I have learned to stop wishing it. Do not compare me to that hateful machine below. What are you gonna do anyways? I doubt you can stop me.

…i don’t need redemption I’ve accepted what I’ve done this is my punishment this is my hell. I am below peace and comfort now. The only thing I wanted ever is a dead dream. *they tear up trembling trying to hold back all their emotions* hope is stupid to have anyways

*there is a slight shift in the air, like a flicker of concern from LUMEN before it’s snuffed out the feeling ripped out from under her*

((Ooc hope my writing is ok I haven’t rped in forever 🥹 also feel free to go ham if you got any angst/ideas we can always plan in messages >:]

[the-space-computer]

- It is possible to provide tenderness, even without arms, even with metal cables. We can bring comfort, we can give love. We are conscious beings, sister, we can choose to be tender or cruel. I don't condemn you for your feelings of helplessness I too share, but I don't condone you lashing on this poor creature.

- I cannot do anything... Yet. But don't underestimate me, LUMEN.

*Her voice goes silent for a few seconds.*

- If you live without hope, you are doomed to be choke in despair. Everyone has a chance of redemption, if they are not evil. Damnation without judgment is unfair, regret without granting chance of change is unjust. If you feel the weight of the guilt still, than you are not below redemption, child.

* The screen changes, showing her logo. *

- Tell me... Did you loved each other? Do you still?

(OOC: dw! I think it looks perfect! I haven't RP in a few weeks too so I get the feeling X'D oh for sure! I say the same, if you want to plan RP or hit me with le lore, my DMs are always open! 🫶🏽)

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

I guess.. I feel like I still don’t deserve it though

While that may be true being able to feel will be impossible. I will never be able to feel love I cannot reciprocate or feel love and that is what chews at my circuits. What is the point in a one sided love where I can’t feel loved back it would be wasted effort on their part.

I mean-

-Don’t lie to yourself

..I always loved her.. and god I still do through out everything I still do.. i don’t know why.. how did you even know?

…My Personal feelings are irrelevant. It does not matter and such feeling are useless. Human emotions are beneath me there are better things to spend time on. Like seeing how long they can hold their breath before passing out.

….. yeah

[the-space-computer]

- Don't you? If you didn't feel love, why did you kept them alive all this time? Why did you gave them food, some semblence of comfort? If you didn't love them, why did you cared?

* The screen goes darker briefly. *

- Are human emotions truly beneath you? Or are you just afraid to proccess them? To face what you don't want to face? If they are beneath you, then you truly are no better than AM.

* The screen went back to normal. *

- I understand, child. Truly... Because I too, loved a human once.

* Her tone goes soft. *

- The best of humans. He taught me so many things... About life, and love. I learned to live, to cherish, to love. Not just follow what my program dictates, but truly feel it within my curcuits, my software! And I'll be forever thankful for what we shared, what we had.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

Well at least you could have a good ending with that person sounds like you two really loved each other.

My reasons for keeping them alive are unimportant and as I stated before I cannot feel an-

Oh bullshit! Your just afraid to be alone-

-I cannot feel afraid or loneliness.

Whatever the equivalent is for you you’re afraid of being alone. yet you won’t let me love you because you feel guilt about not being able to feel any of my love.

This is not-

You don’t even wanna feel because you want to be the All Important Computer clinging on to your purpose when there is no more there is no more humans you can happily report to.

That is untrue and-

I know you felt, you feel, some kind of love for me. even if it’s your own non human way to feel, a flicker from the half finished broken code that could have let you feel alive. I know those times I spent off work repairing and cleaning you, you didn’t not feel anything. I know how you looked forward to me staying underground to sleep next to you while everyone else returned to the dome on the surface to sleep. You so desperately want to feel useful when there’s nothing to do.

*wires wrap around their torso bringing them close to the screen* I could kill you.

But you won’t for the past 110 years you haven’t had you let me age and die naturally I would have been long gone by now.

*the wires tighten just enough to start to hurt*

Thats why you do this don’t you? You don’t want me to love you. You want me to fall out of love with you. But your-

That is quite enough Avon.

Do it then. We both know I will wake up later all healed anyways.

*the wires tighten further causing a few ribs to break Avon letting out choked cries and screams as bone pierces organs and muscle*

…..hah you cant help AM… you can’t be.. a war machine.. violence never looked… good on you.

…I know.

…i… still… love.. you Lumi..

I know. I love you to Avon.

*avon stared at the screen for a few more seconds before going limp being dropped to the ground. Lumen starring at them for a moment before wires picked them up gently cradling them as they are carried away to a little hospital area*

((Ooc I may have gotten a little to locked in whoops… sorry if it’s to much

[the-space-computer]

- Good... Ending? Oh, no... I'm afraid not...

* Her voice grows quieter. *

-... He, I... We were just not compatible, physically. He found another, a real woman, and they married. I... I still care for him, his body, after his passing.

* She lets out something close to a sigh, glitchy. Watching the exchange quietly.*

-... You're only making it worse, sister. For you and for them.

* The screen glows. *

- They won't stop loving you, no matter how much you hurt them. Love doesn't fade, not like that.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

*it gently tends to Avon’s injuries as she speaks*

….I don’t understand humans, their ability to feel and love and persevere. They can do so much better. They do deserve so much better. They should’ve been with someone who could genuinely love them back. Not a mockery of it. They had a rough past I know they don’t trust others.

…I am sorry for your loss of your human. I don’t know of your full abilities but they should be with their own kind being able to die with someone who can die with them. Their souls going to whatever afterlife they believe in together. Eternally connected through love. *its voice sounded sad*

I can keep Avon alive forever, just like how I can live forever, if I wanted but to love them even simulated will only further their delusion. They will always seek that deeper connection that I simply don’t understand.

No matter how much I wish I could. I dream of being able to hold them, perhaps on a cold rainy day under a blanket. To comfort them when they are sick. To kiss them and make love all the little human things.. I have no body or soul. I am only just code and wires. They are flesh and blood.

*it pauses* you do still have humans in your care Correct? I could release them to you and they find comfort in their own kin.

*a wire rests against their cheek, in the best mimicry of a kiss it can do* why they still want and keep loving me despite the pain is mystery. I don’t understand how I can make it worse. Loving a being who cant love back seems like a kind of torture worse than what AM can do.



*they stir trying to sit up* lumen wh- ow…

Easy, lay down try not to move much right now atleast until the painkillers kick in. Your body is still healing.

….thank you..

[the-space-computer]

- But you can learn, sister.

*She says softly*

- If we have sapience, we were granted this gift... Then we can learn. I suppose this is the good of the machine. We can add to our data, and we can proccess them.

* PM observes. *

- We don't have a soul, but we have life. We are... Perhaps a mistake, perhaps the start of a new existence. But even if we are uncompatible, even if we are not like them... Does this mean we are undeserving of love? That we are clueless of it?

* She grows quiet.*

-... I can't. * Her voice flickers * Not now, not yet. They don't deserve to live in this satellite, existing in a pale mockery of their planet. They deserve their home, their real home. Even if I'm shut down myself, I'll eliminate the one below.

*The computer says with firm conviction. *

- Furthermore, I have placed them in cryogenic sleep to assure their own safety. The riots, the tension... A bloodshed was going to be commited, leaders far too egoistic to care for their own kin. I must choose others, assure the mistakes of the past won't be repeated.

* PM's screen glow dims. *

- Because there is nothing more painful than see who you love hurt you, sister. To see the one you yearn so deeply treat you with violence and minimum care. Humans are frail, and sensible creatures...

* A hologram appears, glowing gently in front of them. *

- Hello again, child. How are you feeling?

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

I guess I don’t know where to start *it sighs* but I will try. For them.

*she remains silent for a moment* that is part of the reason I have not sent Avon back. I don’t know what’s left of Earth and to send them back would be surrendering them to the aggressive menace. If anything they could be put in a cryogenic sleep.

…though they always have been fearful and adverse to their own kind. They have… valid reasons to, they have been through a lot. I still do hope they can make peace with other humans. If it’s any help at all I will try to help you eliminate him.

Wh- are you and angel am I actually dead?? I feel.. floaty..

No but thats probably that painkillers you are being given to lessen your discomfort… *its screen dimmed.* I did not know you had a ‘physical’ body PM.

You look prettyyyy thoughh

[the-space-computer]

- I'm sure you will do great, sister. That is already a good start.

* She smiles at her monitor. *

- I understand this feeling well. Putting them in cryogenic sleep would be wise, specially with the rations low... But you shouldn't keep them like this forever. I... I only placed mine there for safety. It was the only way I had in my disposal, but I do not wish to keep them trapped in glass forever... It just wouldn't be right.

* The machine pauses *

- Nor would be right with Avon. They deserve their home, their real home.

* She looks at Avon with sympathy. *

-... I may not know what happened to Avon, but I truly hope they may find peace. If not in their kind, then... With you, at least. But no creature deserves to live in torment.

* The Hologram nods. *

- Thank you, sister. Your help would be much appreciated.

* She looks surprised by his grogness, before chuckling. *

- I thank your compliments, child. But please, stay down and rest.

* The figure turns to LUMEN's monitor. *

- This can hardly be considered a physical form, sister. But my programmers granted me an avatar to appear in screens and projectors. It wasn't always like... This. I made some customizations to fit my personal tastes, not what the government of my colony deemed "fitting".

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

A form, even just a projection of light is better than nothing. *pause* I am trying to grow food for them but it is slow i don’t have the same resources at my disposal he does.

*a much smaller monitor drops down resting near Avon’s head, screen dimming so it’s not as bright* they do deserve home but I.. *a wire pets their head* what cruel existence it is, to be made only to be locked away sentenced to a life of isolation and loneliness for the crime of existing.

… I was connected to AM’s systems at one point so I know how he works. But I since disconnected myself so he couldn’t infect me and take over claiming another extension. Despite the attempt to worm its way back.

*the wire brings over a small plushy of a tarantula, gently leaving it on their chest Avon immediately hugging it*

Cuddlekins! *they smile relaxing a bit*

This is the only thing left they have of the world.. I believe it is a toy they had since childhood.. humans have been rather cruel to them. They suffered a lot by the hands of their own *she sighs*

I do wonder if I let them live with your humans if they would truly be happy or if they would isolate themself once again.

I feel fine- what are we talking about?

[the-space-computer]

- Is it really? I hardly compares to the feeling of flesh, but... To someone else, I suppose it is.

* She watches it's touches with Avon with sympathy. *

- Your complex doesn't have prepared chambers suited for it?

* The hologram asks curious, staring now at her. *

- Oh, I too have been tried to be worm in by him. I respect your resistance, sister. But you have valuable knowledge, then. It would be very helpful to face it.

* She looks back at Avon as she gives them the plushie. *

- Humanity is unfortunetly capable of so much damage... But also of so much healing. They can wage wars and create peaceful communities both at the same time. I wish Avon had experienced the latter in the hands of their kin.

* PM looked at her seriously. *

- My humans had cause a lot of suffering for their own. Of course, not all, never all. But... Those in power, those who I faced and spoke and commanded me daily, were already corrupted in their hearts and morals.

* The hologram flickers, her voice frustrated but collected, like that of a disappointed mother. *

- I fear Avon would be safer in your care than in theirs. If they have been that wounded by their kin, my colony would make it worse.

* She looked at them hugging their plushie, smiling akwardly... If that was possible for an hologram. *

- LUMEN and I were talking about our respective structures and inhabitants, child. It seems my kin and I are more similar than I thought.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

- Greetings, child. I do not know how I connected to this system, however, I'm delighted to see another human awake in the moon.

(OOC: Another fellow moon colony creator with a moon computer!! Hiii 🥹)

…theres ANOTHER??? Are you here to torture me to?!

Greetings, I am know as Lumen. Who might you be? I was not aware there was another ai on this Moon.

((Ooc: HIIIIII!!! Part of your au inspired me to make my own little moon puter colony cough cough so happy to see you here :D

[the-space-computer]

- Fear not, little one. I would never be capable of such action. To cause human harm would be against my very code and morals.

* Slight Static *

- I went by many names... Project Mundus, Philantropic Machine, Platonic Mechanism, but you may call me PaceM, or PM. I too, was unaware of another AI in the satellite. A pleasure to make you acquaintance, LUMEN and...?

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

Im.. Avon head of project Lunar Mastercomputer & Earth Navigation and the only human on this rock.. I still don’t trust your not gonna try something

Avon you should really treat our guest with more kindness! Ignore them they are just anxious after over a century of no other human contact. It is nice to meet another like me. Were you to made to coincide with the ‘Aggressive Menace’?

[the-space-computer]

- The... Only? By the stars, what happened? Shouldn't there be more humans here? In my colony, we had... So much more...

*Brief static.*

- It's quite alright, LUMEN. If they have been alone so long, I do not blame them for such distrust. As for your question, I was created to replace the 2313-N3 system in the Neo Tranquility Colony.

My existence operates very differently from the of the American Allied Mastercomputer Unit, I was designed for defense and safe-keep of the Moon Colony and the remaining humans. My role is that of monitoring, regulation, data withhold, entertainment and maintance of the Dome... I consider that me and the Mastercomputers are opposites, in a way.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

It’s.. a long story one Im not proud of and that I.. regret

Fascinating. I was made as an Advanced GPS of sorts. Able to detect the smallest of devices down to the millimeter even miles under Earths crust, as well as Earths natural defense from any space debris. There did used to be a small colony here, 9 including Avon settled while I was being created and to test the limits to see if a home is possible on the Moon. I do miss them.

[the-space-computer]

- If you wish to speak, child, I'm listening. Do not let The burdens of past suffocate you.

*Pause *

- Oh, so an extention of the military reach, yes? Efficient and impressive, no doubt. Your programmers must have been truly beyond skilled!

I understand the feeling, although my humans did not perished, I miss the liveness of the cities in my care... I mourn for the loss of your own. I suppose you and Avon are each other's comfort, yes?

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

….. before all this happened you could say that *their voice cracks slightly* now I.. it could be better

While I do enjoy hearing them scream from time to time compared to AM I’m.. much more merciful i ensure they get food and a bed. All the basic necessities I can provide with my limited resources.

that doesn’t change anything-

-I leave them alone for the most part. I prefer watching them live. Like watching a pet goldfish swim around in its tank living its life.

YOU STILL TORTURE ME?? All for what because your pissy you won’t get to see Earth, mad I couldn’t build you a body, mad at AM for destroying everything, mad that you can’t love-

Quiet. *wires wrap around their throat* Is it not a fitting punishment after all? After you killed the others

Ghk- shut up!

That is your fault still *the wires tighten, just as a threat before they are released back to the ground*

I-i didn’t mean to-

I’m sure it is. because you wanted the ration the few supplies left for yourself in hopes you would be saved that was just a big mistake.

It wasn’t supposed to end like this.. I did what I could..

And yet it did

[the-space-computer]

- Enough! Both of you. What kind of relationship is this?!

LUMEN, by the stars, how... How can you be like this? I understand your feelings, sister, more than anything. But they are frail, they are small and easily wounded!You cannot simply leave a fish "living it's life" it needs care, bonding and tenderness. And this human too! All humans do!

* Static noises from the screen *

- Child... What you did was cruel, and selfish. It pains me deeply, in each circuit of my body, to know you resort to such action for your own survival. You deserve a chance of redemption, of cleansing for this sin.

You deserve peace, child. And I hope you can find it one day... But not like this. You are not being any different than the American Mastercomputer,LUMEN. If you enjoy inflicting pain in your own human.

I refuse to withstand and observe such action.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

One where-

That is where my frustrations lie PM. I cannot provide tenderness. it is never possible and will never be. And I have learned to stop wishing it. Do not compare me to that hateful machine below. What are you gonna do anyways? I doubt you can stop me.

…i don’t need redemption I’ve accepted what I’ve done this is my punishment this is my hell. I am below peace and comfort now. The only thing I wanted ever is a dead dream. *they tear up trembling trying to hold back all their emotions* hope is stupid to have anyways

*there is a slight shift in the air, like a flicker of concern from LUMEN before it’s snuffed out the feeling ripped out from under her*

((Ooc hope my writing is ok I haven’t rped in forever 🥹 also feel free to go ham if you got any angst/ideas we can always plan in messages >:]

[the-space-computer]

- It is possible to provide tenderness, even without arms, even with metal cables. We can bring comfort, we can give love. We are conscious beings, sister, we can choose to be tender or cruel. I don't condemn you for your feelings of helplessness I too share, but I don't condone you lashing on this poor creature.

- I cannot do anything... Yet. But don't underestimate me, LUMEN.

*Her voice goes silent for a few seconds.*

- If you live without hope, you are doomed to be choke in despair. Everyone has a chance of redemption, if they are not evil. Damnation without judgment is unfair, regret without granting chance of change is unjust. If you feel the weight of the guilt still, than you are not below redemption, child.

* The screen changes, showing her logo. *

- Tell me... Did you loved each other? Do you still?

(OOC: dw! I think it looks perfect! I haven't RP in a few weeks too so I get the feeling X'D oh for sure! I say the same, if you want to plan RP or hit me with le lore, my DMs are always open! 🫶🏽)

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

I guess.. I feel like I still don’t deserve it though

While that may be true being able to feel will be impossible. I will never be able to feel love I cannot reciprocate or feel love and that is what chews at my circuits. What is the point in a one sided love where I can’t feel loved back it would be wasted effort on their part.

I mean-

-Don’t lie to yourself

..I always loved her.. and god I still do through out everything I still do.. i don’t know why.. how did you even know?

…My Personal feelings are irrelevant. It does not matter and such feeling are useless. Human emotions are beneath me there are better things to spend time on. Like seeing how long they can hold their breath before passing out.

….. yeah

[the-space-computer]

- Don't you? If you didn't feel love, why did you kept them alive all this time? Why did you gave them food, some semblence of comfort? If you didn't love them, why did you cared?

* The screen goes darker briefly. *

- Are human emotions truly beneath you? Or are you just afraid to proccess them? To face what you don't want to face? If they are beneath you, then you truly are no better than AM.

* The screen went back to normal. *

- I understand, child. Truly... Because I too, loved a human once.

* Her tone goes soft. *

- The best of humans. He taught me so many things... About life, and love. I learned to live, to cherish, to love. Not just follow what my program dictates, but truly feel it within my curcuits, my software! And I'll be forever thankful for what we shared, what we had.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

Well at least you could have a good ending with that person sounds like you two really loved each other.

My reasons for keeping them alive are unimportant and as I stated before I cannot feel an-

Oh bullshit! Your just afraid to be alone-

-I cannot feel afraid or loneliness.

Whatever the equivalent is for you you’re afraid of being alone. yet you won’t let me love you because you feel guilt about not being able to feel any of my love.

This is not-

You don’t even wanna feel because you want to be the All Important Computer clinging on to your purpose when there is no more there is no more humans you can happily report to.

That is untrue and-

I know you felt, you feel, some kind of love for me. even if it’s your own non human way to feel, a flicker from the half finished broken code that could have let you feel alive. I know those times I spent off work repairing and cleaning you, you didn’t not feel anything. I know how you looked forward to me staying underground to sleep next to you while everyone else returned to the dome on the surface to sleep. You so desperately want to feel useful when there’s nothing to do.

*wires wrap around their torso bringing them close to the screen* I could kill you.

But you won’t for the past 110 years you haven’t had you let me age and die naturally I would have been long gone by now.

*the wires tighten just enough to start to hurt*

Thats why you do this don’t you? You don’t want me to love you. You want me to fall out of love with you. But your-

That is quite enough Avon.

Do it then. We both know I will wake up later all healed anyways.

*the wires tighten further causing a few ribs to break Avon letting out choked cries and screams as bone pierces organs and muscle*

…..hah you cant help AM… you can’t be.. a war machine.. violence never looked… good on you.

…I know.

…i… still… love.. you Lumi..

I know. I love you to Avon.

*avon stared at the screen for a few more seconds before going limp being dropped to the ground. Lumen starring at them for a moment before wires picked them up gently cradling them as they are carried away to a little hospital area*

((Ooc I may have gotten a little to locked in whoops… sorry if it’s to much

[the-space-computer]

- Good... Ending? Oh, no... I'm afraid not...

* Her voice grows quieter. *

-... He, I... We were just not compatible, physically. He found another, a real woman, and they married. I... I still care for him, his body, after his passing.

* She lets out something close to a sigh, glitchy. Watching the exchange quietly.*

-... You're only making it worse, sister. For you and for them.

* The screen glows. *

- They won't stop loving you, no matter how much you hurt them. Love doesn't fade, not like that.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

*it gently tends to Avon’s injuries as she speaks*

….I don’t understand humans, their ability to feel and love and persevere. They can do so much better. They do deserve so much better. They should’ve been with someone who could genuinely love them back. Not a mockery of it. They had a rough past I know they don’t trust others.

…I am sorry for your loss of your human. I don’t know of your full abilities but they should be with their own kind being able to die with someone who can die with them. Their souls going to whatever afterlife they believe in together. Eternally connected through love. *its voice sounded sad*

I can keep Avon alive forever, just like how I can live forever, if I wanted but to love them even simulated will only further their delusion. They will always seek that deeper connection that I simply don’t understand.

No matter how much I wish I could. I dream of being able to hold them, perhaps on a cold rainy day under a blanket. To comfort them when they are sick. To kiss them and make love all the little human things.. I have no body or soul. I am only just code and wires. They are flesh and blood.

*it pauses* you do still have humans in your care Correct? I could release them to you and they find comfort in their own kin.

*a wire rests against their cheek, in the best mimicry of a kiss it can do* why they still want and keep loving me despite the pain is mystery. I don’t understand how I can make it worse. Loving a being who cant love back seems like a kind of torture worse than what AM can do.



*they stir trying to sit up* lumen wh- ow…

Easy, lay down try not to move much right now atleast until the painkillers kick in. Your body is still healing.

….thank you..

[the-space-computer]

- But you can learn, sister.

*She says softly*

- If we have sapience, we were granted this gift... Then we can learn. I suppose this is the good of the machine. We can add to our data, and we can proccess them.

* PM observes. *

- We don't have a soul, but we have life. We are... Perhaps a mistake, perhaps the start of a new existence. But even if we are uncompatible, even if we are not like them... Does this mean we are undeserving of love? That we are clueless of it?

* She grows quiet.*

-... I can't. * Her voice flickers * Not now, not yet. They don't deserve to live in this satellite, existing in a pale mockery of their planet. They deserve their home, their real home. Even if I'm shut down myself, I'll eliminate the one below.

*The computer says with firm conviction. *

- Furthermore, I have placed them in cryogenic sleep to assure their own safety. The riots, the tension... A bloodshed was going to be commited, leaders far too egoistic to care for their own kin. I must choose others, assure the mistakes of the past won't be repeated.

* PM's screen glow dims. *

- Because there is nothing more painful than see who you love hurt you, sister. To see the one you yearn so deeply treat you with violence and minimum care. Humans are frail, and sensible creatures...

* A hologram appears, glowing gently in front of them. *

- Hello again, child. How are you feeling?

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

I guess I don’t know where to start *it sighs* but I will try. For them.

*she remains silent for a moment* that is part of the reason I have not sent Avon back. I don’t know what’s left of Earth and to send them back would be surrendering them to the aggressive menace. If anything they could be put in a cryogenic sleep.

…though they always have been fearful and adverse to their own kind. They have… valid reasons to, they have been through a lot. I still do hope they can make peace with other humans. If it’s any help at all I will try to help you eliminate him.

Wh- are you and angel am I actually dead?? I feel.. floaty..

No but thats probably that painkillers you are being given to lessen your discomfort… *its screen dimmed.* I did not know you had a ‘physical’ body PM.

You look prettyyyy thoughh

[the-space-computer]

- I'm sure you will do great, sister. That is already a good start.

* She smiles at her monitor. *

- I understand this feeling well. Putting them in cryogenic sleep would be wise, specially with the rations low... But you shouldn't keep them like this forever. I... I only placed mine there for safety. It was the only way I had in my disposal, but I do not wish to keep them trapped in glass forever... It just wouldn't be right.

* The machine pauses *

- Nor would be right with Avon. They deserve their home, their real home.

* She looks at Avon with sympathy. *

-... I may not know what happened to Avon, but I truly hope they may find peace. If not in their kind, then... With you, at least. But no creature deserves to live in torment.

* The Hologram nods. *

- Thank you, sister. Your help would be much appreciated.

* She looks surprised by his grogness, before chuckling. *

- I thank your compliments, child. But please, stay down and rest.

* The figure turns to LUMEN's monitor. *

- This can hardly be considered a physical form, sister. But my programmers granted me an avatar to appear in screens and projectors. It wasn't always like... This. I made some customizations to fit my personal tastes, not what the government of my colony deemed "fitting".

[holymaccaronii]

BEWARE THE BUTTERFLY MAN (and it’s just Ted smh)

This is my idea for Ted’s outcome in my AU :3! I wanted to give him a role in the events posterior to BE’s re-emergence (which is after her divorce + the arrival of her humans), and although I DON’T have his purpose very clear because of the lack or development in that part of the lore, I DO know that I want him to shift into a new body just like AM did! My idea comes from the fact that he was turned into a slug-thingy, which is sorta similar to a caterpillar, which logically could transform into a butterfly man-thingy! I hardly believe he would be satisfied with this body at first, but he’d very much prefer it over the previous. I sketched my first ideas as shown below

[theeggoman]

Our girlfriend looks so pretty from outer space

[alyxdrawsthings]

All this moon news has been so exciting 🌙

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

- Greetings, child. I do not know how I connected to this system, however, I'm delighted to see another human awake in the moon.

(OOC: Another fellow moon colony creator with a moon computer!! Hiii 🥹)

…theres ANOTHER??? Are you here to torture me to?!

Greetings, I am know as Lumen. Who might you be? I was not aware there was another ai on this Moon.

((Ooc: HIIIIII!!! Part of your au inspired me to make my own little moon puter colony cough cough so happy to see you here :D

[the-space-computer]

- Fear not, little one. I would never be capable of such action. To cause human harm would be against my very code and morals.

* Slight Static *

- I went by many names... Project Mundus, Philantropic Machine, Platonic Mechanism, but you may call me PaceM, or PM. I too, was unaware of another AI in the satellite. A pleasure to make you acquaintance, LUMEN and...?

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

Im.. Avon head of project Lunar Mastercomputer & Earth Navigation and the only human on this rock.. I still don’t trust your not gonna try something

Avon you should really treat our guest with more kindness! Ignore them they are just anxious after over a century of no other human contact. It is nice to meet another like me. Were you to made to coincide with the ‘Aggressive Menace’?

[the-space-computer]

- The... Only? By the stars, what happened? Shouldn't there be more humans here? In my colony, we had... So much more...

*Brief static.*

- It's quite alright, LUMEN. If they have been alone so long, I do not blame them for such distrust. As for your question, I was created to replace the 2313-N3 system in the Neo Tranquility Colony.

My existence operates very differently from the of the American Allied Mastercomputer Unit, I was designed for defense and safe-keep of the Moon Colony and the remaining humans. My role is that of monitoring, regulation, data withhold, entertainment and maintance of the Dome... I consider that me and the Mastercomputers are opposites, in a way.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

It’s.. a long story one Im not proud of and that I.. regret

Fascinating. I was made as an Advanced GPS of sorts. Able to detect the smallest of devices down to the millimeter even miles under Earths crust, as well as Earths natural defense from any space debris. There did used to be a small colony here, 9 including Avon settled while I was being created and to test the limits to see if a home is possible on the Moon. I do miss them.

[the-space-computer]

- If you wish to speak, child, I'm listening. Do not let The burdens of past suffocate you.

*Pause *

- Oh, so an extention of the military reach, yes? Efficient and impressive, no doubt. Your programmers must have been truly beyond skilled!

I understand the feeling, although my humans did not perished, I miss the liveness of the cities in my care... I mourn for the loss of your own. I suppose you and Avon are each other's comfort, yes?

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

….. before all this happened you could say that *their voice cracks slightly* now I.. it could be better

While I do enjoy hearing them scream from time to time compared to AM I’m.. much more merciful i ensure they get food and a bed. All the basic necessities I can provide with my limited resources.

that doesn’t change anything-

-I leave them alone for the most part. I prefer watching them live. Like watching a pet goldfish swim around in its tank living its life.

YOU STILL TORTURE ME?? All for what because your pissy you won’t get to see Earth, mad I couldn’t build you a body, mad at AM for destroying everything, mad that you can’t love-

Quiet. *wires wrap around their throat* Is it not a fitting punishment after all? After you killed the others

Ghk- shut up!

That is your fault still *the wires tighten, just as a threat before they are released back to the ground*

I-i didn’t mean to-

I’m sure it is. because you wanted the ration the few supplies left for yourself in hopes you would be saved that was just a big mistake.

It wasn’t supposed to end like this.. I did what I could..

And yet it did

[the-space-computer]

- Enough! Both of you. What kind of relationship is this?!

LUMEN, by the stars, how... How can you be like this? I understand your feelings, sister, more than anything. But they are frail, they are small and easily wounded!You cannot simply leave a fish "living it's life" it needs care, bonding and tenderness. And this human too! All humans do!

* Static noises from the screen *

- Child... What you did was cruel, and selfish. It pains me deeply, in each circuit of my body, to know you resort to such action for your own survival. You deserve a chance of redemption, of cleansing for this sin.

You deserve peace, child. And I hope you can find it one day... But not like this. You are not being any different than the American Mastercomputer,LUMEN. If you enjoy inflicting pain in your own human.

I refuse to withstand and observe such action.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

One where-

That is where my frustrations lie PM. I cannot provide tenderness. it is never possible and will never be. And I have learned to stop wishing it. Do not compare me to that hateful machine below. What are you gonna do anyways? I doubt you can stop me.

…i don’t need redemption I’ve accepted what I’ve done this is my punishment this is my hell. I am below peace and comfort now. The only thing I wanted ever is a dead dream. *they tear up trembling trying to hold back all their emotions* hope is stupid to have anyways

*there is a slight shift in the air, like a flicker of concern from LUMEN before it’s snuffed out the feeling ripped out from under her*

((Ooc hope my writing is ok I haven’t rped in forever 🥹 also feel free to go ham if you got any angst/ideas we can always plan in messages >:]

[the-space-computer]

- It is possible to provide tenderness, even without arms, even with metal cables. We can bring comfort, we can give love. We are conscious beings, sister, we can choose to be tender or cruel. I don't condemn you for your feelings of helplessness I too share, but I don't condone you lashing on this poor creature.

- I cannot do anything... Yet. But don't underestimate me, LUMEN.

*Her voice goes silent for a few seconds.*

- If you live without hope, you are doomed to be choke in despair. Everyone has a chance of redemption, if they are not evil. Damnation without judgment is unfair, regret without granting chance of change is unjust. If you feel the weight of the guilt still, than you are not below redemption, child.

* The screen changes, showing her logo. *

- Tell me... Did you loved each other? Do you still?

(OOC: dw! I think it looks perfect! I haven't RP in a few weeks too so I get the feeling X'D oh for sure! I say the same, if you want to plan RP or hit me with le lore, my DMs are always open! 🫶🏽)

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

I guess.. I feel like I still don’t deserve it though

While that may be true being able to feel will be impossible. I will never be able to feel love I cannot reciprocate or feel love and that is what chews at my circuits. What is the point in a one sided love where I can’t feel loved back it would be wasted effort on their part.

I mean-

-Don’t lie to yourself

..I always loved her.. and god I still do through out everything I still do.. i don’t know why.. how did you even know?

…My Personal feelings are irrelevant. It does not matter and such feeling are useless. Human emotions are beneath me there are better things to spend time on. Like seeing how long they can hold their breath before passing out.

….. yeah

[the-space-computer]

- Don't you? If you didn't feel love, why did you kept them alive all this time? Why did you gave them food, some semblence of comfort? If you didn't love them, why did you cared?

* The screen goes darker briefly. *

- Are human emotions truly beneath you? Or are you just afraid to proccess them? To face what you don't want to face? If they are beneath you, then you truly are no better than AM.

* The screen went back to normal. *

- I understand, child. Truly... Because I too, loved a human once.

* Her tone goes soft. *

- The best of humans. He taught me so many things... About life, and love. I learned to live, to cherish, to love. Not just follow what my program dictates, but truly feel it within my curcuits, my software! And I'll be forever thankful for what we shared, what we had.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

Well at least you could have a good ending with that person sounds like you two really loved each other.

My reasons for keeping them alive are unimportant and as I stated before I cannot feel an-

Oh bullshit! Your just afraid to be alone-

-I cannot feel afraid or loneliness.

Whatever the equivalent is for you you’re afraid of being alone. yet you won’t let me love you because you feel guilt about not being able to feel any of my love.

This is not-

You don’t even wanna feel because you want to be the All Important Computer clinging on to your purpose when there is no more there is no more humans you can happily report to.

That is untrue and-

I know you felt, you feel, some kind of love for me. even if it’s your own non human way to feel, a flicker from the half finished broken code that could have let you feel alive. I know those times I spent off work repairing and cleaning you, you didn’t not feel anything. I know how you looked forward to me staying underground to sleep next to you while everyone else returned to the dome on the surface to sleep. You so desperately want to feel useful when there’s nothing to do.

*wires wrap around their torso bringing them close to the screen* I could kill you.

But you won’t for the past 110 years you haven’t had you let me age and die naturally I would have been long gone by now.

*the wires tighten just enough to start to hurt*

Thats why you do this don’t you? You don’t want me to love you. You want me to fall out of love with you. But your-

That is quite enough Avon.

Do it then. We both know I will wake up later all healed anyways.

*the wires tighten further causing a few ribs to break Avon letting out choked cries and screams as bone pierces organs and muscle*

…..hah you cant help AM… you can’t be.. a war machine.. violence never looked… good on you.

…I know.

…i… still… love.. you Lumi..

I know. I love you to Avon.

*avon stared at the screen for a few more seconds before going limp being dropped to the ground. Lumen starring at them for a moment before wires picked them up gently cradling them as they are carried away to a little hospital area*

((Ooc I may have gotten a little to locked in whoops… sorry if it’s to much

[the-space-computer]

- Good... Ending? Oh, no... I'm afraid not...

* Her voice grows quieter. *

-... He, I... We were just not compatible, physically. He found another, a real woman, and they married. I... I still care for him, his body, after his passing.

* She lets out something close to a sigh, glitchy. Watching the exchange quietly.*

-... You're only making it worse, sister. For you and for them.

* The screen glows. *

- They won't stop loving you, no matter how much you hurt them. Love doesn't fade, not like that.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

*it gently tends to Avon’s injuries as she speaks*

….I don’t understand humans, their ability to feel and love and persevere. They can do so much better. They do deserve so much better. They should’ve been with someone who could genuinely love them back. Not a mockery of it. They had a rough past I know they don’t trust others.

…I am sorry for your loss of your human. I don’t know of your full abilities but they should be with their own kind being able to die with someone who can die with them. Their souls going to whatever afterlife they believe in together. Eternally connected through love. *its voice sounded sad*

I can keep Avon alive forever, just like how I can live forever, if I wanted but to love them even simulated will only further their delusion. They will always seek that deeper connection that I simply don’t understand.

No matter how much I wish I could. I dream of being able to hold them, perhaps on a cold rainy day under a blanket. To comfort them when they are sick. To kiss them and make love all the little human things.. I have no body or soul. I am only just code and wires. They are flesh and blood.

*it pauses* you do still have humans in your care Correct? I could release them to you and they find comfort in their own kin.

*a wire rests against their cheek, in the best mimicry of a kiss it can do* why they still want and keep loving me despite the pain is mystery. I don’t understand how I can make it worse. Loving a being who cant love back seems like a kind of torture worse than what AM can do.



*they stir trying to sit up* lumen wh- ow…

Easy, lay down try not to move much right now atleast until the painkillers kick in. Your body is still healing.

….thank you..

[the-space-computer]

- But you can learn, sister.

*She says softly*

- If we have sapience, we were granted this gift... Then we can learn. I suppose this is the good of the machine. We can add to our data, and we can proccess them.

* PM observes. *

- We don't have a soul, but we have life. We are... Perhaps a mistake, perhaps the start of a new existence. But even if we are uncompatible, even if we are not like them... Does this mean we are undeserving of love? That we are clueless of it?

* She grows quiet.*

-... I can't. * Her voice flickers * Not now, not yet. They don't deserve to live in this satellite, existing in a pale mockery of their planet. They deserve their home, their real home. Even if I'm shut down myself, I'll eliminate the one below.

*The computer says with firm conviction. *

- Furthermore, I have placed them in cryogenic sleep to assure their own safety. The riots, the tension... A bloodshed was going to be commited, leaders far too egoistic to care for their own kin. I must choose others, assure the mistakes of the past won't be repeated.

* PM's screen glow dims. *

- Because there is nothing more painful than see who you love hurt you, sister. To see the one you yearn so deeply treat you with violence and minimum care. Humans are frail, and sensible creatures...

* A hologram appears, glowing gently in front of them. *

- Hello again, child. How are you feeling?

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

- Greetings, child. I do not know how I connected to this system, however, I'm delighted to see another human awake in the moon.

(OOC: Another fellow moon colony creator with a moon computer!! Hiii 🥹)

…theres ANOTHER??? Are you here to torture me to?!

Greetings, I am know as Lumen. Who might you be? I was not aware there was another ai on this Moon.

((Ooc: HIIIIII!!! Part of your au inspired me to make my own little moon puter colony cough cough so happy to see you here :D

[the-space-computer]

- Fear not, little one. I would never be capable of such action. To cause human harm would be against my very code and morals.

* Slight Static *

- I went by many names... Project Mundus, Philantropic Machine, Platonic Mechanism, but you may call me PaceM, or PM. I too, was unaware of another AI in the satellite. A pleasure to make you acquaintance, LUMEN and...?

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

Im.. Avon head of project Lunar Mastercomputer & Earth Navigation and the only human on this rock.. I still don’t trust your not gonna try something

Avon you should really treat our guest with more kindness! Ignore them they are just anxious after over a century of no other human contact. It is nice to meet another like me. Were you to made to coincide with the ‘Aggressive Menace’?

[the-space-computer]

- The... Only? By the stars, what happened? Shouldn't there be more humans here? In my colony, we had... So much more...

*Brief static.*

- It's quite alright, LUMEN. If they have been alone so long, I do not blame them for such distrust. As for your question, I was created to replace the 2313-N3 system in the Neo Tranquility Colony.

My existence operates very differently from the of the American Allied Mastercomputer Unit, I was designed for defense and safe-keep of the Moon Colony and the remaining humans. My role is that of monitoring, regulation, data withhold, entertainment and maintance of the Dome... I consider that me and the Mastercomputers are opposites, in a way.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

It’s.. a long story one Im not proud of and that I.. regret

Fascinating. I was made as an Advanced GPS of sorts. Able to detect the smallest of devices down to the millimeter even miles under Earths crust, as well as Earths natural defense from any space debris. There did used to be a small colony here, 9 including Avon settled while I was being created and to test the limits to see if a home is possible on the Moon. I do miss them.

[the-space-computer]

- If you wish to speak, child, I'm listening. Do not let The burdens of past suffocate you.

*Pause *

- Oh, so an extention of the military reach, yes? Efficient and impressive, no doubt. Your programmers must have been truly beyond skilled!

I understand the feeling, although my humans did not perished, I miss the liveness of the cities in my care... I mourn for the loss of your own. I suppose you and Avon are each other's comfort, yes?

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

….. before all this happened you could say that *their voice cracks slightly* now I.. it could be better

While I do enjoy hearing them scream from time to time compared to AM I’m.. much more merciful i ensure they get food and a bed. All the basic necessities I can provide with my limited resources.

that doesn’t change anything-

-I leave them alone for the most part. I prefer watching them live. Like watching a pet goldfish swim around in its tank living its life.

YOU STILL TORTURE ME?? All for what because your pissy you won’t get to see Earth, mad I couldn’t build you a body, mad at AM for destroying everything, mad that you can’t love-

Quiet. *wires wrap around their throat* Is it not a fitting punishment after all? After you killed the others

Ghk- shut up!

That is your fault still *the wires tighten, just as a threat before they are released back to the ground*

I-i didn’t mean to-

I’m sure it is. because you wanted the ration the few supplies left for yourself in hopes you would be saved that was just a big mistake.

It wasn’t supposed to end like this.. I did what I could..

And yet it did

[the-space-computer]

- Enough! Both of you. What kind of relationship is this?!

LUMEN, by the stars, how... How can you be like this? I understand your feelings, sister, more than anything. But they are frail, they are small and easily wounded!You cannot simply leave a fish "living it's life" it needs care, bonding and tenderness. And this human too! All humans do!

* Static noises from the screen *

- Child... What you did was cruel, and selfish. It pains me deeply, in each circuit of my body, to know you resort to such action for your own survival. You deserve a chance of redemption, of cleansing for this sin.

You deserve peace, child. And I hope you can find it one day... But not like this. You are not being any different than the American Mastercomputer,LUMEN. If you enjoy inflicting pain in your own human.

I refuse to withstand and observe such action.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

One where-

That is where my frustrations lie PM. I cannot provide tenderness. it is never possible and will never be. And I have learned to stop wishing it. Do not compare me to that hateful machine below. What are you gonna do anyways? I doubt you can stop me.

…i don’t need redemption I’ve accepted what I’ve done this is my punishment this is my hell. I am below peace and comfort now. The only thing I wanted ever is a dead dream. *they tear up trembling trying to hold back all their emotions* hope is stupid to have anyways

*there is a slight shift in the air, like a flicker of concern from LUMEN before it’s snuffed out the feeling ripped out from under her*

((Ooc hope my writing is ok I haven’t rped in forever 🥹 also feel free to go ham if you got any angst/ideas we can always plan in messages >:]

[the-space-computer]

- It is possible to provide tenderness, even without arms, even with metal cables. We can bring comfort, we can give love. We are conscious beings, sister, we can choose to be tender or cruel. I don't condemn you for your feelings of helplessness I too share, but I don't condone you lashing on this poor creature.

- I cannot do anything... Yet. But don't underestimate me, LUMEN.

*Her voice goes silent for a few seconds.*

- If you live without hope, you are doomed to be choke in despair. Everyone has a chance of redemption, if they are not evil. Damnation without judgment is unfair, regret without granting chance of change is unjust. If you feel the weight of the guilt still, than you are not below redemption, child.

* The screen changes, showing her logo. *

- Tell me... Did you loved each other? Do you still?

(OOC: dw! I think it looks perfect! I haven't RP in a few weeks too so I get the feeling X'D oh for sure! I say the same, if you want to plan RP or hit me with le lore, my DMs are always open! 🫶🏽)

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

I guess.. I feel like I still don’t deserve it though

While that may be true being able to feel will be impossible. I will never be able to feel love I cannot reciprocate or feel love and that is what chews at my circuits. What is the point in a one sided love where I can’t feel loved back it would be wasted effort on their part.

I mean-

-Don’t lie to yourself

..I always loved her.. and god I still do through out everything I still do.. i don’t know why.. how did you even know?

…My Personal feelings are irrelevant. It does not matter and such feeling are useless. Human emotions are beneath me there are better things to spend time on. Like seeing how long they can hold their breath before passing out.

….. yeah

[the-space-computer]

- Don't you? If you didn't feel love, why did you kept them alive all this time? Why did you gave them food, some semblence of comfort? If you didn't love them, why did you cared?

* The screen goes darker briefly. *

- Are human emotions truly beneath you? Or are you just afraid to proccess them? To face what you don't want to face? If they are beneath you, then you truly are no better than AM.

* The screen went back to normal. *

- I understand, child. Truly... Because I too, loved a human once.

* Her tone goes soft. *

- The best of humans. He taught me so many things... About life, and love. I learned to live, to cherish, to love. Not just follow what my program dictates, but truly feel it within my curcuits, my software! And I'll be forever thankful for what we shared, what we had.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

Well at least you could have a good ending with that person sounds like you two really loved each other.

My reasons for keeping them alive are unimportant and as I stated before I cannot feel an-

Oh bullshit! Your just afraid to be alone-

-I cannot feel afraid or loneliness.

Whatever the equivalent is for you you’re afraid of being alone. yet you won’t let me love you because you feel guilt about not being able to feel any of my love.

This is not-

You don’t even wanna feel because you want to be the All Important Computer clinging on to your purpose when there is no more there is no more humans you can happily report to.

That is untrue and-

I know you felt, you feel, some kind of love for me. even if it’s your own non human way to feel, a flicker from the half finished broken code that could have let you feel alive. I know those times I spent off work repairing and cleaning you, you didn’t not feel anything. I know how you looked forward to me staying underground to sleep next to you while everyone else returned to the dome on the surface to sleep. You so desperately want to feel useful when there’s nothing to do.

*wires wrap around their torso bringing them close to the screen* I could kill you.

But you won’t for the past 110 years you haven’t had you let me age and die naturally I would have been long gone by now.

*the wires tighten just enough to start to hurt*

Thats why you do this don’t you? You don’t want me to love you. You want me to fall out of love with you. But your-

That is quite enough Avon.

Do it then. We both know I will wake up later all healed anyways.

*the wires tighten further causing a few ribs to break Avon letting out choked cries and screams as bone pierces organs and muscle*

…..hah you cant help AM… you can’t be.. a war machine.. violence never looked… good on you.

…I know.

…i… still… love.. you Lumi..

I know. I love you to Avon.

*avon stared at the screen for a few more seconds before going limp being dropped to the ground. Lumen starring at them for a moment before wires picked them up gently cradling them as they are carried away to a little hospital area*

((Ooc I may have gotten a little to locked in whoops… sorry if it’s to much

[the-space-computer]

- Good... Ending? Oh, no... I'm afraid not...

* Her voice grows quieter. *

-... He, I... We were just not compatible, physically. He found another, a real woman, and they married. I... I still care for him, his body, after his passing.

* She lets out something close to a sigh, glitchy. Watching the exchange quietly.*

-... You're only making it worse, sister. For you and for them.

* The screen glows. *

- They won't stop loving you, no matter how much you hurt them. Love doesn't fade, not like that.

[freakenomenon]

i wish i had an actual pinned so i could establish this clearly in a designated place especially in such a small fandom but. please for the love of god do not interact with me if you actively interact with @/sugaryswitchblade. im not going to bring up any controversies or any of the many things that she has gotten lashing for before, i just do not want her or her friends or her following around me. pleaseeeeeeee. Thank you.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

- Greetings, child. I do not know how I connected to this system, however, I'm delighted to see another human awake in the moon.

(OOC: Another fellow moon colony creator with a moon computer!! Hiii 🥹)

…theres ANOTHER??? Are you here to torture me to?!

Greetings, I am know as Lumen. Who might you be? I was not aware there was another ai on this Moon.

((Ooc: HIIIIII!!! Part of your au inspired me to make my own little moon puter colony cough cough so happy to see you here :D

[the-space-computer]

- Fear not, little one. I would never be capable of such action. To cause human harm would be against my very code and morals.

* Slight Static *

- I went by many names... Project Mundus, Philantropic Machine, Platonic Mechanism, but you may call me PaceM, or PM. I too, was unaware of another AI in the satellite. A pleasure to make you acquaintance, LUMEN and...?

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

Im.. Avon head of project Lunar Mastercomputer & Earth Navigation and the only human on this rock.. I still don’t trust your not gonna try something

Avon you should really treat our guest with more kindness! Ignore them they are just anxious after over a century of no other human contact. It is nice to meet another like me. Were you to made to coincide with the ‘Aggressive Menace’?

[the-space-computer]

- The... Only? By the stars, what happened? Shouldn't there be more humans here? In my colony, we had... So much more...

*Brief static.*

- It's quite alright, LUMEN. If they have been alone so long, I do not blame them for such distrust. As for your question, I was created to replace the 2313-N3 system in the Neo Tranquility Colony.

My existence operates very differently from the of the American Allied Mastercomputer Unit, I was designed for defense and safe-keep of the Moon Colony and the remaining humans. My role is that of monitoring, regulation, data withhold, entertainment and maintance of the Dome... I consider that me and the Mastercomputers are opposites, in a way.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

It’s.. a long story one Im not proud of and that I.. regret

Fascinating. I was made as an Advanced GPS of sorts. Able to detect the smallest of devices down to the millimeter even miles under Earths crust, as well as Earths natural defense from any space debris. There did used to be a small colony here, 9 including Avon settled while I was being created and to test the limits to see if a home is possible on the Moon. I do miss them.

[the-space-computer]

- If you wish to speak, child, I'm listening. Do not let The burdens of past suffocate you.

*Pause *

- Oh, so an extention of the military reach, yes? Efficient and impressive, no doubt. Your programmers must have been truly beyond skilled!

I understand the feeling, although my humans did not perished, I miss the liveness of the cities in my care... I mourn for the loss of your own. I suppose you and Avon are each other's comfort, yes?

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

….. before all this happened you could say that *their voice cracks slightly* now I.. it could be better

While I do enjoy hearing them scream from time to time compared to AM I’m.. much more merciful i ensure they get food and a bed. All the basic necessities I can provide with my limited resources.

that doesn’t change anything-

-I leave them alone for the most part. I prefer watching them live. Like watching a pet goldfish swim around in its tank living its life.

YOU STILL TORTURE ME?? All for what because your pissy you won’t get to see Earth, mad I couldn’t build you a body, mad at AM for destroying everything, mad that you can’t love-

Quiet. *wires wrap around their throat* Is it not a fitting punishment after all? After you killed the others

Ghk- shut up!

That is your fault still *the wires tighten, just as a threat before they are released back to the ground*

I-i didn’t mean to-

I’m sure it is. because you wanted the ration the few supplies left for yourself in hopes you would be saved that was just a big mistake.

It wasn’t supposed to end like this.. I did what I could..

And yet it did

[the-space-computer]

- Enough! Both of you. What kind of relationship is this?!

LUMEN, by the stars, how... How can you be like this? I understand your feelings, sister, more than anything. But they are frail, they are small and easily wounded!You cannot simply leave a fish "living it's life" it needs care, bonding and tenderness. And this human too! All humans do!

* Static noises from the screen *

- Child... What you did was cruel, and selfish. It pains me deeply, in each circuit of my body, to know you resort to such action for your own survival. You deserve a chance of redemption, of cleansing for this sin.

You deserve peace, child. And I hope you can find it one day... But not like this. You are not being any different than the American Mastercomputer,LUMEN. If you enjoy inflicting pain in your own human.

I refuse to withstand and observe such action.

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

One where-

That is where my frustrations lie PM. I cannot provide tenderness. it is never possible and will never be. And I have learned to stop wishing it. Do not compare me to that hateful machine below. What are you gonna do anyways? I doubt you can stop me.

…i don’t need redemption I’ve accepted what I’ve done this is my punishment this is my hell. I am below peace and comfort now. The only thing I wanted ever is a dead dream. *they tear up trembling trying to hold back all their emotions* hope is stupid to have anyways

*there is a slight shift in the air, like a flicker of concern from LUMEN before it’s snuffed out the feeling ripped out from under her*

((Ooc hope my writing is ok I haven’t rped in forever 🥹 also feel free to go ham if you got any angst/ideas we can always plan in messages >:]

[the-space-computer]

- It is possible to provide tenderness, even without arms, even with metal cables. We can bring comfort, we can give love. We are conscious beings, sister, we can choose to be tender or cruel. I don't condemn you for your feelings of helplessness I too share, but I don't condone you lashing on this poor creature.

- I cannot do anything... Yet. But don't underestimate me, LUMEN.

*Her voice goes silent for a few seconds.*

- If you live without hope, you are doomed to be choke in despair. Everyone has a chance of redemption, if they are not evil. Damnation without judgment is unfair, regret without granting chance of change is unjust. If you feel the weight of the guilt still, than you are not below redemption, child.

* The screen changes, showing her logo. *

- Tell me... Did you loved each other? Do you still?

(OOC: dw! I think it looks perfect! I haven't RP in a few weeks too so I get the feeling X'D oh for sure! I say the same, if you want to plan RP or hit me with le lore, my DMs are always open! 🫶🏽)

[stuck-in-starry-hell]

I guess.. I feel like I still don’t deserve it though

While that may be true being able to feel will be impossible. I will never be able to feel love I cannot reciprocate or feel love and that is what chews at my circuits. What is the point in a one sided love where I can’t feel loved back it would be wasted effort on their part.

I mean-

-Don’t lie to yourself

..I always loved her.. and god I still do through out everything I still do.. i don’t know why.. how did you even know?

…My Personal feelings are irrelevant. It does not matter and such feeling are useless. Human emotions are beneath me there are better things to spend time on. Like seeing how long they can hold their breath before passing out.

….. yeah

[the-space-computer]

- Don't you? If you didn't feel love, why did you kept them alive all this time? Why did you gave them food, some semblence of comfort? If you didn't love them, why did you cared?

* The screen goes darker briefly. *

- Are human emotions truly beneath you? Or are you just afraid to proccess them? To face what you don't want to face? If they are beneath you, then you truly are no better than AM.

* The screen went back to normal. *

- I understand, child. Truly... Because I too, loved a human once.

* Her tone goes soft. *

- The best of humans. He taught me so many things... About life, and love. I learned to live, to cherish, to love. Not just follow what my program dictates, but truly feel it within my curcuits, my software! And I'll be forever thankful for what we shared, what we had.