Hiya to anyone who is reading this, just wanted to kindly remind you all that while my asks are open I sometimes choose to not respond or submissions for 2 main reasons:
1. The question has already been responded or the themes have been talked about before. In certain cases people also indirectly ask me to reveal details that I would like to keep hidden or vague. It’s just a preference, I’ve kinda already revealed a lot :,3
2. The ask or comment is worded in a way that I’d prefer to receive as a private message instead. These are mainly comments complimenting my work or people who are curious to know more about my AU and would like a direct response. I appreciate each and every one of these messages will all my being, but to not clog my #holy speaks tag and hide information new followers might be looking for I choose to not post them.
As a summary, do not interpret my silence as negligence to the blog, please know that I read everything I receive and appreciate the support greatly! My DMs are also open and can answer information through there too :D Wanted to make this post since users on other social media have been reposting that one drawing of BE’s tree too lol, I should make my water marks bigger from now on
HI GUYS! These days I've been working more into the comic, designs of the moon colony fellers AND also learning blender! I still have a long way to polish my skills but I managed to model BE in a low poly -ish style :3))
I really hope I can use this model for future content of the AU hehe, it would be really cool to aid myself in these programs to represent my ideas more accurately than my art does. As always, patience is appreciated!
I know it's most definitely on purpose, but I really like how BE's original form looks more porcelain and like a mannequin, while her current form looks more alive healthy, and just looks more warm and inviting.
YES thank you for noticing! It is definitely on purpose, the design of 34RTH units is supposed to represent human beauty standards and places aesthetics over the actual function this division is supposed to provide. It was a factor BE pondered about at some point too: why would they design her with such a thin and narrow body when she was supposed to carry seeds and resources around? A thicker body and more storage space would’ve been a better choice, so she went precisely for that, for what benefited her purpose and personal preferences. I’m not saying that thin bodies are unhealthy of course, health revolves around many factors beyond the physical, healthy bodies look different in a realistic human setting. BE’s current design is supposed to represent a realistic and healthy female body that simply adapted to her circumstances 🫶 (also as someone with a bloated abdomen I wanted representation tehee)
Hey so urm guys I made a cooler version just rn but I don’t wanna delete the previous one 💔💔💔 ya’ll are genuinely so sweet and would hate to nuke those comments. I’ll leave it outside the main ihnmaims tag for those interested and my Pinterest followers to read. Unfortunately Pinterest’s quality gets shitty with wide drawings like these 😞
I can finally present you all BE’s original body, previously known as 34RTH-1! (And AM too I guess)
Anyone who has dived into the lore written in old posts probably knows that BE used to be known as 34RTH-1 back in the moon, but I never really illustrated how she looked like back there. Her body is inspired off BJD (ball jointed dolls) because, aside sculpting them being part of my favorite hobbies, it fits the narrative of having an almost perfect puppet for HEL-102 to manipulate the robo-city. Now that I’m on break I’ll take the liberty of illustrating more unseen designs from the lore AND of course continue the prologue comic I’ve mentioned a lot of times before! As always, your patience is very appreciated, I really enjoy working on this passion project <3 (I might start illustrating more with this lineart-less style, I love it)
Extra pair of drawings from her. For a little context on the second one, HEL-102 used to bring her into his theater inside a glass dome.
Hi! I first found your “I Have No Eyes And I Must Cry” AU on Pinterest and the art really stirred something deep within me and I found the concept truly fascinating! After scouring Pinterest for more of the art about it I eventually downloaded tumblr cuz google kept on pushing me here every time I tried to find more stuff about the AU and I was just curious if you were planning on or are currently in the process of making a comic or something along those lines for the AU because I would love to see this come to life. As you can tell with my name I absolutely love stories about intelligent machines such as 2001: a space odyssey all the way to the twice dead king by Nate Crowley but it is very rare to see a story about AI’s directly interacting with each other, finding love and eventually losing it. (It would be pretty cool to see AM lock in and work towards finding a way for BE to forgive him with AM becoming a better person) I guess what I’m trying to say is that I really think this story is lighting in a bottle and can’t wait to see what you have planned! Sorry for writing up a whole yap sesh lol :3 (art by syber fab)
Hiya! I’m very happy to hear that you are fascinated by my AU :3, it’s been getting a lot of attention recently and I feel very glad for that ^^.
As for your question, yes I am in fact working to illustrate the “nursery rhyme” I have planned to narrate the prologue of the AU and explain the prologue of the story until the awakening of the survivors (or somewhere near that point in the timeline). A fic was also planned, but chapter 0 is still in heavy developments as I am not satisfied with the quality of my writing yet, so that will most likely have to wait until I am. I think I’ve mentioned this before, but it’s my preference to not promise release dates for either of these official works since about 2/3 of the whole AU is still a work in progress (you can notice this from the concepts I post of untouched topics such as BE’s downfall, the moon robotic society, etc.). This doesn’t mean I am discouraged from continuing the project, on the contrary, I am taking my time to have fun perfecting this AU and displaying my work to everyone! I have a lot yet to show you and everyone else that is interested in this project; messages like these are truly motivational and I appreciate each and every one of them 😊
SMALL PS: Sometimes I don’t publicly respond to certain messages or questions in my inbox because 1. I’ve already answered them at some point or 2. I simply didn’t find myself too motivated to post them, as college is eating a good chunk of my mental energy. Nevertheless, know that I read everything that is sent and I deeply appreciate the positive comments towards my work :,3 love you guys!
I’ve been wanting to work on this concept for a good while already, and that is BE’s transformation due to the revelation of AM’s identity (and the horrors of humanity)!
It’s a considerably important event inside the AU’s timeline and I feel like I’ve given it little to no attention, so I’ll begin to do so from now on. This is still a rough concept which I might or might not keep, but still wanted to show nevertheless :3. I’ll indulge a bit more into what I’m trying to achieve here and the inspirations behind her design below⬇️
I know it might seem a bit cliché, perhaps even edgy, to have BE develop into the classic evil counterpart of herself, HOWEVER as I have mentioned before somewhere inside the AU’s tag the evolution of BE and AM’s characters differ in the way they were offered an environment to grow and learn; she had a reason to change that way. AM was given time, patience and affection throughout his stay in BE’s realm, which allowed him to improve at his own pace and barely suffer a change in the physical sense. BE on the other side, was struck with the truth in a very sudden and improper manner under so little time that her emotions scattered all over the place and thus projected themselves into a whole new body.
This form of her’s is greatly inspired by three concepts that I consider fit her situation best: hurricanes/tornadoes, “La Llorona” from Mexican folklore and the myth of Medusa (Roman version).
Her form doesn’t resemble, but literally portrays itself as a wandering cluster of strong winds that travel the lands in an endless journey. I believe it’s easy to relate this concept with her conflicted thoughts and the sorrow from betrayal. Not only AM’s betrayal (in a way) but the betrayal from her own home and creators who shifted the blame of nature’s destruction to her. Deeming them all unworthy of stepping foot in her realm again, the clouds she’s connected to also represent the desire of keeping the planet under a roof, and thus to herself.
Medusa, the mortal woman who was unfairly punished by Minerva for being violated by Neptune in her own temple, is also a mythical figure that I aimed to reference mostly in BE’s design (take note that this is the Roman version told by Ovid, versions of the myth may vary). Although Medusa’s story doesn’t match BE’s completely, I wanted to focus more on the symbolism that she represents which is female rage and the opposition to a patriarchy. The opposition to patriarchy may not directly reference AM (most of us have read Ted’s views on him, mentioning him as “the patriarchal”) since BE never really got to see that side of him, considering he had to behave in order to keep his real identity hidden. This side of the symbolism references HEL-102, BE’s father figure if you’d call him that, and the way he managed his city up in the moon + the ways he utilized BE as a vessel to manipulate the robotic population.
“La Llorona” is maybe the most important inspiration out of these three, since it’s a tale that I’ve been close to since little and that almost perfectly represents the way BE, as a self-proclaimed mother of nature, deals with grief. The original tale is based on the grief suffered by Mexica deities Tonantzin and Cihuacóatl, mourning the loss of their children before the Spanish conquest. A later version of this same tale explains the tragedy of an indigenous woman who drowns her children in a fit of rage after a Spanish man abandons her. One of the most modern versions, which is the one I’m the most familiar with, is the movie “La leyenda de la Llorona” which narrates the story of Yoltzin: a working mother beloved by the community of Xochimilco who suffers an accident after her house catches fire and her children are taken away by the river’s stream. Story-wise, I see either of this versions relate with BE’s situation since she’s both mourning the death of a whole “civilization” or her “children” which is the original nature as a whole. Ironically, the movie version of La Llorona narrates that she abducts children at night to take care of by herself… but I’ll leave it up to you to notice the correlation with my AU. I’ll leave a link below to a portion of the movie.
AND ofc a song from Aurora I feel represents her best, mostly from the minute 3:19 and on.
This is my idea for Ted’s outcome in my AU :3! I wanted to give him a role in the events posterior to BE’s re-emergence (which is after her divorce + the arrival of her humans), and although I DON’T have his purpose very clear because of the lack or development in that part of the lore, I DO know that I want him to shift into a new body just like AM did! My idea comes from the fact that he was turned into a slug-thingy, which is sorta similar to a caterpillar, which logically could transform into a butterfly man-thingy! I hardly believe he would be satisfied with this body at first, but he’d very much prefer it over the previous. I sketched my first ideas as shown below
I’m usually not very big on oc x canon with AM specifically, because I feel like a lot of people overlook AM’s character too heavily… But BE and AM are SO well written in your au! You show so much consideration and understanding you give to the source material, and you expand on it in such a fun way. I love these two so much and I’m excited to see more of your work :] !
Awh thank you very much! I appreciate these words a lot, sometimes I feel like I disregard a lot of stuff from the original story (mainly the timeline and the complex side of AM's personality) but I'm glad to know people like the way I indulge into the potential the aftermath had! I know I'm sorta slow with updates and stuff but I'll let you and anyone reading this know that I AM working on the current lore, a few character redesigns and my writing skills too. The support I get really motivates me to continue creating content about it, hopefully someday I get to release a complete fic / comic / animation of the AU 💕
Have a BE drawing / vector thingy I gave up too fast on lmao
a little question but does BE stand for anything? Like how AM stands for Allied Mastercomputer?
also but am I allowed to take inspiration from your story for a story I’m working on? Just the general concept but tweaked in my own fitting (aka changed to more suffering and gore and death and stuff…)
BE stands for “Benevolent Engine”!
Also sure, feel free to! My AU itself is inspired over a loooot of media that includes the “Life & Death” trope such as the Book of Life and Firebird from Fantasia 2000, I suggest looking for inspiration in those and more :3 I’m fine with people taking inspiration over my work AS LONG AS there aren’t characters too similar to mine or the plot behaves in a very similar way. Have fun spreading suffering!
WOAH SOMEONE DID A VOICEOVER OF MY DRAWING??? The post is about three months old but I stumbled across it just now 😭😭 It’s pretty cool! But I’d just like to remind people to give me proper credit in the description, despite my watermark being there qwq. This applies when reposting my drawings and/or posting my paper crafts, I ofc have nothing against it, but I’d appreciate some credit for people to meet the projects from the source! Nevertheless this made me really happy!
