The Gecko's Scratchpad

Random Musings from an Anonymous Lizard

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Men’s Self-Esteem Issues

Someone told me today that men can not have self-esteem issue. Please reblog and/or like if you believe that men are capable of having low self-esteem and are held up to a false standard much like women are, I’m trying to prove a point.

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What is cool?

I don’t understand why people think I’m cool. People have expressed that in multiple ways at many different times, but it’s still a foreign concept to me. Why do people think that I’m “cool”. Or do people think that I think I’m cool. I’ve never considered myself popular or part of the “in” crowd, so this is mind-blowing.

Maybe it’s because I’m somewhat aloof and kind of do my own thing regardless of what other people are doing. I’m not great at compromising my own wants and desires in exchange for someone else’s. Maybe it’s my apparent charisma, but I don’t feel I have that. I’m seriously socially awkward and have anxiety issues when dealing with people, but maybe I just mask that well.

I have a lot of acquaintances, a dozen or two friends, and only a handful of what I’d consider close friends. It then puzzles me why people think I’m cool or something. I feel blessed to have the close friends I do, even though each of them is fundamentally flawed in one way or another. I’m someone who will take whatever I can get, rather than seeking out possibly better more loving and more interesting friends.

I wonder what people consider “cool” to be. Is it being chill? Is it caring about people? Is it having sway and influence? Is it respect and having people listen to you? I don’t know, but whatever it is, I don’t think I have it. Edit: I feel like this post could come off as braggy or as me saying “why am I so great”, but that wasn’t the intention. The intent was to ask “what’s so great about me?” and “is there something I don’t see or recognize?”

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First Post

Rather than using my friends as faux-conselors, I think I’m going to start posting to tumblr, because why not.