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rewatching Ouran high school host club and

KYOUA IS THE GAYYEST MAN ALIVE

“I just don’t see myself as supporting cast, homosexual or not” EXUSE ME SIR?????

OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS EVIL GAY MAN SONMUCH HE AND TAMAKI SHIUKD KISS KISS FALL IN LOVE

#Ohshc

maybe we’ll meet at a bar he’ll drive a funky ehh

#Makokuu #omg I actually tried to render everyone applaud

thebeanisme

Plus or Minus Zero - a Makokuu band au [chapter 1]

[got some notes real quick! This is my first time posting a fanfic, sorry if it sucks. This chapter is kinda short so sorry again. Please give me any notes in the comments!]

Makoto finished his vocal warmups, sighing. Another normal day in his band. Or at least, they were trying to be a band.

It was his idea to start it actually. They called themselves “The Psychics” for some reason. (don’t ask him, it wasn’t his idea.) he managed to convince his younger sister Kokomi to join as the guitarist and backup singer, along with some kid named Kusko as the bass. (Apparently, he’s Kokomi’s friend? He pisses Makoto off. He doesn’t trust him around Kokomi, although he can be a little protective of her.) Makoto was the lead singer, of course.

There was one thing missing.

The drummer.

Kusko (ugh) came in with Kokomi. She stepped off to the side and Kusko cleared his throat. “I found us a drummer.” he stated, perfect monotone as usual. “He’s my brother, Kuuske. He’s annoying, but he plays well. Figured we could take what we could get.” As if on cue, this “Kuuske” strutted into the room.

He had blond, medium length hair and dark green eyes. He had a smile on, though his eyes felt dim and lifeless. He was wearing a baggy pair of jeans that seemed like they haven’t been washed in a while and a baggy t shirt that slightly hung off of his collarbones. Something about him made Makoto feel warm, butterflies suddenly swarming into his stomach. Not because he was attracted to him, (although he was cute), as he was definitely straight and had no attraction to guys at all. Yeah.

“Hey guys!” He said in an overly cheerful voice, waving. Suddenly he glanced over at Makoto. “What are you staring at, pretty boy?” He said with a smirk. Makoto coughed, glancing away. “I’m not staring, asshole, I was looking at you because you were talking. Asshole.”

Wait, did he call him pretty?-

Kuuske just laughed, the noise shrill and annoying. “You said asshole twice in that sentence, y’know?” Makoto clenched his jaw. “No I- shut up, you’re annoying.” Kokomi looked at Kusko with concern. He just rolled his eyes. He lifted his hand up to interrupt their middle school level argument. “Can you guys shut up? Kuuske, play something on the drums.” He gestured over to the drum set in the corner or the room. Kuuske walked over, while Makoto glared at him.

He can’t be that good, right?

He sat down, and started to play.

He was amazing.

He drummed with persision while also being fast and hectic. He was clearly in his element, his obviously forsed smile dropping for a moment. It felt like time stopped for a moment. Makoto couldn’t help but stare at his eyes, his hair bouncing around slightly as he hit the drums, his skin sweating, the small but genuine smirk he had on his face. It felt like his chest exploded.

And then it was over.

The room was silent for a moment before Kokomi started applauding vehemently, giving accolades as the fake, overly cocky smile was placed back on his face as he stood up. Makoto was frozen in place, face heating up. (Because it was so impressive. Not because he’s hot when he’s focused. Nope.) Kuuske glanced over at Makoto and laughed. “If you liked it that much pretty boy, there’s more where that came from!” “I- you- no- s-shut up! That was ass!” He replied, looking away. Kuuske giggled. “Why were you staring so hard, then?” “I WASN’T STARING!!!” They went on like that for a while, Kuuske clearly winning the argument. Eventually, Kusko interrupted them. “If you guys can shut up for a seccond, we can discuss the logistics of Kuuske joining the band. “This asshole is NOT joining the band!” Makoto shouted. Kusko just glared at him. “Let’s have a vote. Who wants him to join?” Makoto was the only one without a hand up. “Three against one, I guess.” “WHAT- KUUSKE DOESN’T COUNT AS A VOTE!” “You still loose. Just give it up, we’re desperate for a drummer and he’s good.”

Makoto was at a loss for words.

Well, there goes the band.

Makoto collapsed in bed that night, exsaused by how much happened that day.

Weirdly, he couldn’t get one nuisance off his mind.

A blond, olive eyed nuisance, one with a loud, forced laugh and a weird amount of smarts. One who was a genius on the drums. One who made his stomach twist in knots for some reason.

He fell asleep without realizing it.

[the great thing about writing a fanfic is that I can name it whatever. The title is referencing a dennoko-p song 💔. Also idk how to format this hrlp]

thebeanisme

okay so like I hated this and have an ao3 account now so it’s up there! I slightly rewrote this bit and also added a lot more to the first chapter. Please read it if you have the chance :)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/89572481/chapters/237914816

#Makokuu #fanfiction

Neko Kota festival but Makokuu

#makokuu #Had a lot of fun experimenting with my style

Makokuu thrifting edition :D

(Some extra shit under cut)

#makokuu #saiki k #saiki no psi nan #headcannons #redraw #gay

Makokuu redraw

aughhh the sillies (original image under cut)

#Makokuu #Ship art #redraw #hshshfhdhdhhshdhdhd

is my Miku canon guys

#Horror #every miku is canon #Miku #voclaoid

mossyrocks1

does anyone have any vocaloid / vsynth song reccomendations? im new to vocaloid...

now its all just miku and teto... i wanna listen to something else, especially gakupo since i love his voice and design

thebeanisme

I’ve been waiting for this day 🥹🥹🥹🥹

he’s my long ass list of vocaloid song suggestions!!!!!

FLAVOR FOLEY: if you like synth v, highly reccomend. Some might say they are overrated, but their songs slap.

DENNOKO-P: genuenly the most UNDERRATED PRODUCER EVER. They single handily made me fall in love with Aoki Lapis. Most known for Dai Dai Dai Kirai, but they genuenly have so many bangers. I would recommend starting with Dennostalga 1, and then checking out their yt as most of their best songs have an animation to go along with it.

SATAPANP: if you like fast songs here you go. They only have three songs (and one had Miku and teto lmao) but I highly recommend checking them out!

NASHIMOTO UI: they have so many BANGERS! Great guitar and drums and stuff. Very very peak

MINAMI NO MINAMI: they make a tooooon of silly goofy songs and I adore them. Highly recommend SEKAI-chan and KAFU-chan’s Otusakai Gakusomthing idk long ass title

ONE OFFS: some singular songs I like

Heat Adnormal

Fear Garden

Kitsuneno Yomeiri

and yeah that’s it lmao

sorry for all the yapping I really like vocaloid if you can’t tell

#vocaloid #song reccomendations #Yapping #idk

Vocaloid Never Dance - Kaito x Gakupo fanfiction

description:

Kaito is drunk. So is Gakupo. And they both happen to meet.

[aka drunken shenanigans with these gay people that will probably be angsty. This fic WILL be updated/long ish I just suck at writing lmao.]

Fanfiction written by me wowie! Please check it out if you get the chance, it would mean the world to me :)

link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/87510466

#Yaoi #gay #vocaloid #kaito #kamui gakupo #Kaito x gakupo #Fanfiction #ao3 #Read it please #I tried my best to be funny

so like I had a dream about the vocaloids last night and it was centered around kaito x Gakupo and I’m tempted to write a fic about it. Lmk if anyone would like that

#Gakupo #kaito #vocaloid

small art dump bc I drew a lot this week

Tw for some blood/gore