The Black Warden

@derjaegermond

"What on earth could I have possibly done?"

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@derjaegermond

"What on earth could I have possibly done?"

#helena.#“I do this out of love” is what he would say.#It is totally true.#But also.#His mind is. an enigma.#derjaegermond

@derjaegermond

#What an incredible ride.#Illustrated superbly well in this post.

SONG ASSOCIATIONS - send a symbol receive a corresponding song for my muse || accepting:

@henosiis inquired:🖤for warden!!

001. ⇁ Emma Ruth Rundle - Marked for death

You were right on time to break your head and make the death bed You were right on time to crash those galaxies and flat-line You were right on time to make the light inside of me a life You were right on time to meet me, crazy love, and watch us die Who else is going to love someone like you, that’s marked for death?

Concerning bloodborne: It was the early escalating contention that first brought them together. Wherever he instilled his 'generous order' she was there to rip up the foundations he set and challenged him on his spanning control. She hunted his foot steps, chased his scent and he acted likewise. In her perspective, he was a someone desperate to be something like a God when he was only a man. He wanted to be judge, jury and executioner and she wanted to remind him that he is only flesh and will. It's a messy ship dynamic that feels like it was so keenly carved out to fit in so many unexpected ways. They match the other's energy, parallel in sheer determination and animosity; play into each others strengths and weaknesses... and eagerly stoked hunger and desire before they knew the ever name of it. They traced the fault line of what should and should not be between them with force. Sometimes they're as reflections twisted into opposing directions, or like shadows tailing the heels of the other-- where one begins and the other ends wasn't always clear. Initially, they were both denying the weight of it even as it became near unbearable They stole closer to with every struggle, crossed lines where they wouldn't cross before. It was a growing want like a fever that they couldn't quite soothe. A bone-deep hunger that began simply at first; then strained into mutual obsession with one never far from the thoughts of the other. From a murky passionate "hatred", turned respect, twisted into a mutual want and budding obsession with the goal to entirely ensnare-- he was a hound chasing a fox. And she, with her incessant want to undo him, let him give chase... she wanted to lure him closer. She wanted to see him for who and what he is, experience and grasp the whole of him, take him apart and pull him back together-- meat, gristle, bone.

Between the both of them, she was the first to recognize the true shape of it-- and all the conflicting love and filth that came with it. Of course, it never entirely prevented them from playing their parts. The want to know the other's step follow so closely, thwart whatever plan in place-- to witness them again, steal more time. He sees her as his equal and relished in every moment. At the core of it, these two come to witness the other to the fullest; she doesn't have to be restrained. She doesn't have the feign a mask over what she feels or wants. The immense amount of honesty that Helena presents to him is honest and stunningly ravenous.

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If you lay your life down, no man can take it. Will you join me.

yellowfingcr

the hunter-prospector, saved.

#UNFATHOMABLY GOOD

Forgot about this. Oh my god I can't believe this.

#HER!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#The tension between the inhuman essence within her and her human-ish form is so strong #The gravity of being in her presence #it’s enough to be called human is a superb line #really sets all senses alight and really paints a moving picture

42 character development questions! || Accepting;

@theblackwarden inquired:

How do they move and carry themselves? Pace, rhythm, gestures, energy? Do they dream? What are those dreams like?

― 001. How do they move and carry themselves? Pace, rhythm, gestures, energy?

We gonna spit ball a mix of energy/vibes/descriptors and some gestures I guess. Gonna spin abit of a stream of consciousness, so let's get this going. Hers is a distant way of being, though deliberate in other manners—almost as if rehearsed like a well practiced ritual. The chains and violence she knew are not forgotten; she merely delights in the freedom that could only be obtained in death. And perhaps, in spite of everything, there's still a flicker of whimsy she portrays. A space between worlds that unified past and the present, but stands as testamentto a time before. However, that is a surface level glance. If you stare for longer than a minute, there is always more to it than whatever passing mask is offered. For any want of truer words perhaps: she is phantasmal—at times, near-beast and graceless. At one moment she is across the fields, at another she is beside you. Distant as a fading star, yet hauntingly close and earthen. Much about her bears the grace of an otherworldliness, as though she had been carved from beyond the pale, and left where she doesn’t belong. A loose fragment of primal force, or the will of something so forebodingly ancient made flesh— now housed within a form that is vaguely human and upright. At once apart from, and deeply woven into the land. Forgotten… or perhaps, more fittingly, buried and forbidden. Suspended between body and soul, scred or profane-- whatever elusive idea you want to pin to her. By the 'law of the land', it is the inherit "wrongness" of her nature that clings to her though it remains carefully guarded. A relic of a world long perished and buried beneath the Golden Order— its bones still echoing in her words, in every uttered incantation and in every act of violent defiance that is too precise to be rage alone. Whatever she is, it sits nameless upon the bed of the tongue, like something half-remembered and undefined. She stands before you, upright upon two legs; it's enough to be called human. The smell of cold ash drapes upon her, the bouquet of perfumist aromatics and funerary herb tinder cling to her flesh. Beneath the cover of a feather cloak and offered, inked, ashen hands, and she carries on. She wanders with always something to offer in unexpected places. A gentle touch, her shoulders unburdened, a hand that guides another close to the fireside, the other curled around the handle of a sickle; a healing touch and a confessional. Her head canted in curiosity and the grinding of cervical vertebrae reverberates beneath skin so subtle but it can't quite be ignored, scar-split lips pulled into the facsimile of a careful smile with an unyielding gaze that holds the eye and never relents; one that always welcomes, always watching. She sees without invitation and weighs the spirt. Her presence lingers long after she leaves: whether a blessing or a haunting, it is no less an irrevocable and ever-present weight, or a pull that cannot be explained. An entity a touch, a hush closer to true death made manifest, and still getting closer. Far away, and yet, entirely, terribly near. Quite simply, where absence should be, she persists. Verbosity aside: it is without a doubt she sits beyond the pale in a way that isn't ever immediately conceived, and less so fully understood... unless one already attune to those particular qualities of her character be they like her, or unlike her... but close enough. One might think her manner is all theatrics and in some ways, perhaps it is… and she's having fun playing it up bit that does not at all deny what she is. For what it's worth, she plays her 'role' well, and she's more than happy to lead the way. Healer or heresiarch? Why not both. All that said, these are not things she has 'named' herself... at least nothing beyond 'healer'. All other names and ideas? Pinned to her by others.

― 002. Do they dream? What are those dreams like?

--Answered here-- <3

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Plan of Action and Complaint Template Regarding Adult Content Being Delisted from Itchio

Alright so as y’all may or may not know, credit card companies and other payment facilitators have put pressure on digital storefronts such as Steam and Itch.io to remove “adult content” recently largely due to lobbying by fringe radical organizations. It would be bad enough if it just affected actual porn, but you know to these people “porn” means “anything that even mentions a homosexual.” Several of my team’s projects including mini-expansions to Eureka: Investigative Urban Fantasy “The Fanservice Files” and “The XXX-Files,” as well as team artist @chaospyromancy’s personal side project “A Squad of Drow” have been delisted from itch.io as of last night though they are still available by direct link or from our main account page and you can still pay us for them for now but there is no telling how long they'll actually stay up. Many others have had their projects completely delisted or outright removed, and are having payments withheld from them. If you don't want to see us and other creators pushed under by this crap, you need to do something about it.

People affected by this far outnumber the people who lobbied to make it happen. These organizations are very vocal but also relatively small and very fringe, and since it is a policy decision that was created by complaints it may be able to be destroyed by complaints.

Here are the phone numbers of these companies and an email address I was able to find. We need to blow their phones off the wall and fill their inboxes with customer complaints.

Mastercard (US): 1-800-627-8372 Mastercard (Int.): +1-636-722-7111 Visa (US + Can): 1 800 847 2911 Visa (AUS): 1 800 125 440 PayPal(UK): +44-0203-901-7000

Paypal (US) 1 888 221 1161

For investor relations:

914-249-4565 (Mastercard) 650 432 7644 (visa)

Visa Email Address: [email protected]

Mastercard Contact Form: https://b2b.mastercard.com/contact-us/

Saying stuff like “sex work is real work” and “this affects black trans women,” while true, is not the kind of thing that is going to tug at the heartstrings of lib-conservative CEOs and board members and their PR teams. They’re mercenary. You need to tell them how this is going to hurt their wallets and make their customers very unhappy.

If feasible, you need to get your moms and dads on this too, and get them to get their friends on it, etc.

40-60-year old middle class white people high credit scores and stuff will have more sway with these corporations than any young adult trans person.

My team has put together a template for your phone calls and emails. Take the template and delete the [bracketed parts] that don’t apply to you.

“My name is [_____], and I’m contacting you about your recent decision to alter your user policies regarding adult content and thereby putting pressure on digital storefronts like itch.io and Steam to hide and remove adult content. By doing so, you're cutting off a significant revenue stream, [and as someone with financial investment in your company, this has me extremely concerned]

[I both buy and sell that blocked content, so this is directly interfering in my finances, and I will seek compensation.]

Products I paid for are no longer available to me, [and people are buying my products without the money going to me because of your interference with the payment processing.]

If you don’t want to lose customers and face potential legal trouble, these policies which pressure itch.io, Steam, and other digital storefronts need to be reversed.

You have changed these policies because of Collective Shout, a radical group from Australia that sent only a mere 1000 calls to destroy a significant revenue stream on your part and to interfere with my finances. This decision literally affects millions of people and millions of dollars, and so I expect a prompt response on reversing these policy changes and removing the pressure on itch.io and Steam to ban adult content on their sites. [As a cardholder, I worry that these new policies are responding to a vocal minority of customers, and I’m left doubting the reliability, versatility, and integrity of your services. I use these services to securely and conveniently make the transactions I see fit, and it’s disappointing to see legitimate, legal transactions be excluded.]

[I am furious that an American company would bend so easily to a lobbying group from a foreign country.]”

There is also a petition you can sign here.

#NSFT #SUPERB weightiness #lineweight #detail #anatomy #very well crafted

Hear my tongue, my heaving lungs Expelling notes, open throat

WIP

Do you care her? Do you?

Lovely little gift featuring The God Doctor from the fantastic @yellowfingcr <3

#CARE HER!!!

#exceptional art #superb weightiness #a strong form #nsft

ALRIGHT, last look before I keep it for myself until completion. We have to finish/fix the hand, MAYBE remove some of the lil hair curls.... and add the markings. Either leave it like this or ink it full. Ah man.

#Doctor. Researcher. Experimenter.#so cool to see all this level of detail.#Really really well thought out

Helena has come to compose her own sort of 'Pharmacopoeia.' In her case, it is very much a reference and compendium of some of her work. The study, origin, preparation, effects and dosage of drugs based on her findings concerning various drug concoctions and herbal combinations. Also ordered by weight, time, and dose and to keep track of effects, and success rates, pains and cravings of the afflicted/beasts or those struggling with beasthood in varying phases. She isn't expressly limited to only traditional or means, this is segmented into various sections of what can (and has been) used, while denoting the differences between human and beastly metabolisms and physiology and what is thusly applied. Within the contents: From listing all recipes and specific herbs and various drug substances that aid in the sedation of large and uncooperative beasts/ late stage afflicted, to progression notes, biomarkers, to keeping track of drug metabolism by height, weight and stage of beasthood as required. What it also contains is diagrams, illustrated examples, plants and the process used to decoction/extractions, distillation, isolation, and even certain processes about synthesizing. While no concoction has yet to entirely prevent a full-on transformation, some combinations -as she’s discovered- stave off the worst of their suffering. There is a focus on isolating and reducing maladies induced in early onset of beastly affliction. All this to say, the compendium in question is entirely curated specifically around beasts, the afflicted and those between stages treatment and the like. It’s a useful body of knowledge for her own reference and crossed referenced with others to further expand her understanding in the process of investigating beasts and beasthood and the effectiveness of treatments beyond blood and sedatives. Of course it is also in part to prolong her research and as one of many means to heal without reliance on blood healing, or needlessly amplifying the mental (and physical) anguish of her subjects and patients when and where she can afford it. Being an outsider doctor, it is what comes most naturally to her compared to use of the healing blood.

#stunning beautiful creative fantastic superb exquisite the best

Healer || Knight || Witch

— 001. King Woman - Paradise Lost

— 002. Lingua Ignota - Spite Alone Holds Me Aloft

— 003. Miranda Sex Garden - A Fairytale About Slavery

#i can attest to the fact that we have not seen anyone talk about this. we soughto ut the truth. and had to uncover it ourselves #very good stuff

A small thing of note:

--I haven't really seen this touched upon too much... so bear with me here. This may be a little disorganized but hopefully you'll see what I'm trying to put down-- or maybe I'm biting my own ass on this ah well. I'm picking up on something but, the parts may be scrambled tbh. There are a few other things I would like to connect in here, but it needs to cook a little more, so that'll come at a later point.

We know the interesting history with blood and blood transfusions in Yharnam. We know some of the culture built around the blood and why. How it heals, how it thoroughly contaminates through ingestion, transfusion and... how it transforms the afflicted. From marrow, to blood, to bone... More importantly, we know what manner of beasts that spring forth from the scourge and that the blood has led to that. So then... what the hell is up with Darkbeasts in particular? Despite the blood hunger, the links to Loran, The Beggar, Paarl, the blood letting beast... However, the fun connecting detail and the implications with beasthood and the blood... and that is the persistent theme of undeath attributed to Darkbeasts, another alleged creature of the beastly affliction supposedly. It is ever present, and it persists, often tied back to Darkbeasts in particular as said. A contamination that is inherent to them and what they are as beasts... It is also the condition in which we find the few that are present in game as well. Most of them are in various half alive or damaged states, with the exception being the beggar who presents himself as a man first and foremost. Alive and intact. I will point at one such case being the description for the 'Beast Claw' which I found interesting... but make of it what you will:

Of course, the beastclaw itself-- is made with Darkbeast bones. The blood is thoroughly imbued, it only makes sense to retune to the idea of 'living bones' as a result-- that something could infect so deeply, or spring forth from the very marrow of beasts. With the weapon, the presence of the Darkbeasts...? Oh yeah, It's till there, not quite gone, not quite dead. You're just using 'stolen' bones-- stolen power that guides you into a fleeting state of beasthood touched by the Darkbeast. If we also apply the more literal Japanese translation that described said bones as having belonged to an 'abominable undying black beast' it also infers further about the Darkbeast being undead/undying. Although, I suppose there are some liberties to be taken with the word 'undying'. Darkbeast marrow, bones, blood... undeath. Clearly it is a malady or is it... Darkbeasts are not a side effect of church ministration, they are of the depths. Something that came above. However, I wonder then… what of the rotted corpse creatures in the sewers as well? Are they some manner of would be Darkbeasts? A fluke? Are the Darkbeasts themselves the final point of beasthood or something else entirely that further highlight what the blood can do? Is this manner of living death/undeath the natural progression or is it mainly linked only to Darkbeasts? The main lynchpin here being: what is the exact role of undeath with the blood affliction, and the fact that this solely seems bound to Darkbeasts? An earlier variant of the scourge that could impart such a thing? A unique thing bound to them and them alone? Darkbeasts which are very much defined by undeath if not the strange nature of thier powers... From the mention that they live on even through their bones and how that can impart a temporary beasthood, and how it is almost explicitly said in two different translations that thier bones are 'still alive' and that they themselves are undead...