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let me come back —

with the purest heart,

with the fullest soul,

with the firmest deen,

in my deepest longing of You

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..and for everything I whispered here, dear God, I meant it.

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eid self-camroll

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third 10 days: until next year!

My last 10 days of ramadan was pretty much dedicated to lock in and give myself one last push. I tried my best balancing everything to this point and hopefully we are all given the chance to meet ramadan again next year.

Speaking about eid, apparently it will be a little pack this time. I have 5 days off (a week in total including weekend), and honestly it's fun to think about and estimate my time attending all of gathering with fam and friends and do vacation.

So now relax... lets give ourselves time to break and to savor the moments for a while.

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*sharing last bukber footage in my camroll

Counting down the hours :)

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second 10 days: sleep deprivation & screen time

I did not do much except doing mundane. Oh and tried to get longer sleep hours while not fasting cause i was pretty sleep deprived. I dont think my sleep quality was getting better tho, given that i would keep waking up in the middle of the night almost everyday for no reason. Maybe because my body was still sticking with its biological clock when i fast, as I'm accustomed to waking up for suhoor. But that's fine, it'll be back to normal.

I dont really remember what else happened during this time. So i think it'd be fun to share movie/show i've watched or been watching lately (not that much tho cause again i am sleep deprived):

Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind (2004)

I know i am late to the party. I've heard a good thing about this one but just got the chance to watch it few days ago. I think this one's worth to watch if you want another romance exploration. Mind-blown and emotionally full it is.

Upstream (2024)

A warm and awakening movie. The premise is simple yet interesting, a corporate manager who got laid off and swerve into a food delivery courier. He faces multiple challenges; family, debt, job, and the struggle as a newbie courier that turns out not as easy as he thought. It's fulfilling to see how he deals with it all.

Adolescene (2025)

I just started this series and currently in episode 2. This show is lit, story about a 13yo boy who’s suspected of murduring his friend. I can feel the tension in the first episode, that's why i am so up to the next ones. The character development is also appealing. We're fed with a rich point of view.

Will update about these later!

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Happy fasting everyone, we’re almost there!

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first 10 days: ramadan routine & bukber

Documenting my (anticipated but templated) Ramadan this year because... i tryna force myself to be productive outside work and personal stuff. So in the future, hopefully can realize how much my Ramadan will have evolved as my life phase will also be shifting (girl is getting rooted to self 🤪)

The first week was about adjusting my schedule and adapting to new routine. No sleep after suhoor cause i need to commute early so i can wrap my work earlier and catch iftar at home and do taraweh afterwards. Which to be completely honest, it's a bit overwhelming and exhausting to chase it all back to back in a short range of time. But that's the art in it, people said. It happens once in a year either way..

One of the most energy taker is obviously commuting. Palmerah in the morning and Tanah Abang in the afternoon has been predictably insane (not surprising cause that's what happens in a regular day too). Given that everyone is in a rush for iftar and tanah abang is currently renovated, it's getting worst then. But that's fine, my survival skill has skyrocketed 📈📈 ever since. lol

I did not have proper preparation back before ramadan, yet i'm detemined to keep my energy good enough to function well 😌. Tho i am still not sure if i'm already on top of my game with the level of energy i had all this time.

But if i may give a protip to maintain energy; reach your daily protein intake goal does really help! and adjust activity to your physical clock as well if you can. Definitely easier said than done, but there's no other way, just try to keep it as realistic as possible so that it can last.

I personally aim for at least 5 to 6 hours of sleep and have bedtime as early as i can, otherwise i'll get sick the day after. I also prefer to have a long deep work in the morning and get 20-30 minutes nap on lunch break. It helps quite a lot cause i feel awake after taking a nap. And at around 4pm, i'll be braindead and my blood sugar will slowly drop hehe. That's why finishing important task in the morning will help compensating slow afternoon.

So again, try to twist my regular schedule a little bit during ramadan to remain accountable out of other responsibilities.

One of fun times that i like about ramadan is endless iftar meetup. Including with my childhood friend (circa 2005), we had the time of our life catching up for iftar together with good foods, hours of yapping, and lots of tiktok trending video trials (yes, i am the one who sucks).

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Randomly picked this pics just to balance the long text post.

Ramadan Mubarak! 🌙

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weekend getaway 🌻

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what 2024 left me with

End of year always gets me a mixed feeling. It's a combination of a bit melancholy realizing that i am slowly losing my teenage features *[insert Tiktok vid 'forever young' trend here]* and turning into another year of adulthood. And also an excitement to experience something I've not been before. Younger me would relieve knowing life did not end when i was 19 and thought all doors are closed, crying myself alone in my room :)

So I just want to reflect and gather fuels from this year, my takeaways:

practice detachment, be it to things, to people, or to feelings. dont put expectation, dont root too much. just let them be, accept how they really are

be wiser to spend my energy. the only person that deserves the most from you is yourself then your loved ones. prioritize who and what is more valuable. and vice versa, aware that i am not everybody's cup of tea too. and that's totally ok

my happiness does not have to make sense to other people

there will always be problems as long as we live. learn how to face it while still enjoy other sides of life. you are allowed to be sad, but remember to keep finding even the simplest joy in anything. fiha khair

my body and mind are two things that 100% under my control

dont sabotage yourself for not doing something you are actually capable of

never force anything. nothing in this world is worth-forcing

instant gratification, instant dopamine, instant pleasure is destroying you. bear with uncomfortableness and stay a little longer with it

always have courage to keep my glass half full. always provide room for another point of view, improvement, and acknowledge the unknown

keep showing up for good things and constructive behavior everyday. discipline will get you there, do it even when you dont want to

life is short. do what your heart desires and have fun

want to thank myself for everything. ily and lets have our self together :))

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you did it again?

n-, y-yes, kinda..

..i freaked out. this was my coping mechanism. what’d you suppose me to do with that

coping mechanism should be coping you, not torturing

i— okay. i know

you knew

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what's really happening on your not-so-special day

growing up, you are forced to deal with routine. it sometimes becomes frustrating when you lose the spark, feels like you trapped in a narrow space when in reality you have a wide wide window. without ignoring the fact that having a routine and a stable life are truly a privilege, at some point it will drain you – and that's valid.

it's sometimes hard to enjoy the morning walk, or commute hour, or quiet afternoon, because you wish something more exciting could happen its way.

you barely realized that through that time, you are given the freedom to breath. to slowly experience the straight line before the curved ones come.

in reverse — maybe through chaotic, off the radar, unpredictable day that life could possibly bring, you are taught to appreciate the mundane, the borings, to which you answer 'nothing special' when somebody asked 'how's your day going'.

that on a deeper level, you need those kind of phase. because the good news does not come everyday, neither does the bad – and rather than that, no news would be more preferable.

so appreciate any era that life throws you into.

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water might not be my element – but the wave and its crashes that create the sound, the sky and the sea that create the line, the white grain and the thrill stepping on it — they are all surely my thing

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A Glimpse of Eid

Sharing my Eid footage that the vibe I cant resist! As I always love seeing everyone shares eid moment with their loved ones.

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Eid in white

Featuring my mom's high-maintenance plants (wish I could inherit her passion in gardening)

..and dont you ever skip the authentic ketupat opor ayam on eid!

Halal bi halal and long awaited meet up were packed.

Behind the picture after we watched Siksa Kubur: eh tunjukin tiketnya ke kamera! I was kinda trapped between those 2 horror movie junkie, I even watched 70% of the movie with my eyes closed lol

The girlhood is blooming. I spent eid day 3 (or 4 I forget) with them and Thai dishes. The moment was rare, glad we made time

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Eid Mubarak! 🌙

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lets gawrrr! 🪩🎵

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NYE :)

Another way spending new year’s eve. Tho I barely go out for celebrating it because I never have the urge to have to 😆

But this time, we were lowkey hanging out and were having sleepover because couldn't manage to see live fireworks at Bundaran HI, the crowd was insane

wrapping 2023 up; here’s to be easier finding any little joy in everything happens, to filling myself with gratitude, and to respecting moment and time the universe offers

Be a cool year, 2024! ✌️

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