A Handful Of Moments I Wish I Could Change

I'm fucked up in the head

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Holy fucking shit I just feel so...

That feeling gotta go and I gotta calm myself the fuck down

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Do you ever feel like you don’t have anything in common with your friends anymore

Like I can still sit and have fun with them all the time but all we do is... sit

I want to do actual things but all the things I want to do no-one else does

And it’s stupid to say, but even down to no-one wants to go on a night out, I just get told everywhere to go is shit and it’s boring, when we used to go out all the time and love it.

I hate even asking if anyone wants to go out because I know I’ll just get shot down in flames.

I love my friends but the things we like to do to pass our time are very different these days.

I wanna go places

Not even extravagant places, just spoons or maybe go to dinner or coffee or something

But we’ve got ourselves into a rut

And I don’t like asking if people wanna do things bc the answer is always no I don’t like drinking or we get excited about it and never follow through.

The amount of times I’ve sat through strictly, or waited till 9pm for someone to simply wake up, but I wanna go out for one simple night at new year and the sheer convincing it took was crippling.

And now I’m scared the night will go shit because I know no-one wants to be there and they’re only going for my sake.

Bet the bells will hit and everyone will wanna go home.

Or no-one will actually drink with me.

I just wanna have a fun time with my pals, why does no-one wanna have a fun time with me?

[thedemonshavemovedfromundermybed]

Ah fuck I didn't wanna be here again

[thedemonshavemovedfromundermybed]

High key fucking depressed that I can't get a decent job what so ever. But a 16 year old can walk into a shop and have a job half an hour later. Yeah that doesn't make me wanna relapse at all hahahahahahah

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Unknow source

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Absolutely dreading the fact that all my pals are gonna get steamin and end up talkin to her tonight. Coz then to her it's like "oh well I still got these ones" When no. No ya don't. But what's a gal to do huh

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I remember being told "hope your dick of a boyfriend is worth losing your best pal over" ????? You lost your best friend over a burd. How ironic, sad, and honestly pathetic.

[thedemonshavemovedfromundermybed]

I have my response typed out and ready, but it’s my birthday and I’m petty so you can wait till tomorrow to ruin my day

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I'm so done with all of this, I'm so tired, I'm exhausted, just speak to me please

[thedemonshavemovedfromundermybed]

Here, quick question, why don't I fit in anywhere anymore

[thedemonshavemovedfromundermybed]

So if you're actually reading this (lol what a thought) Supposedly you wanna message everyone, OK soond. You have until my birthday. If you haven't womaned up by then to speak to me, I'm done. I've felt so fucked around for too long. You have until my birthday to speak to me if you really want to, or I'm walking the fuck away from everything.

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I'm screaming this is hilarious Because this was 150% truth until a few months ago

[thedemonshavemovedfromundermybed]

I hate you with every inch of my being. Like I actually... Hate... You ??? Hate is such a strong word, but in all honesty I do feel hatred towards you. I hate you more than Kira. I hate you more than Steven. I fucking hate you.

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One Good Thing

One good thing actually did come out of this whole situation, believe it or not. I know I love Han again.

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What's annoying is I wanna post on this about other stuff that's goin on, It's not bad stuff it's just... Stuff I wouldn't tweet about ya feel? But I don't want to. Because I don't want you to read it. Which is hilarious to think because I know you don't care about me enough to check this blog 😂😂😂

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You say you want to speak to people and try fix it, yet you have done nothing to support that. I get you need time be you're working shit out, but it's February now. It's February and we haven't spoken this year. (It's hilarious I'm even saying this in first person because we all know you just aren't gonna speak to me at all but lol whatever) You can't just sit back and wait, you have to fucking do something. What? You think you can just turn round after 2 months and go "soz I was thinking" and everyone will just pander to it? No. Everyone's mad. Because there's taking time to think and there's just point blank ignoring the problem because you have a happy life now. If you fucking mean it stop putting it off.