DiorAddict

Focused on my Four F’s; Food, Fashion, Finance, and Fitness. Chronicles of a 30yr old woman rebuilding her life

[pinkxindicta]

Goal right now: Reclaim my time and become less attainable.

[thedioraddict]

Money Ritual

I did a money ritual this past weekend.

Apparently if you want material wealth, or more money you need to ask for it from your Water Ancestors.

Also, it needs to be done at a sight with a stream of water, not wear stagnant water resides.

My left hand has been itching a lot. Personally for me that means money incoming.

I know most people it’s the right hand, but if my right hand itches money goes out, always.

Anyways, I was trying to be slick about it, while I was at a public family park. Just cause it was really busy and kids were jumping all around.

I also, would like permission to actually share the ritual with the person who I got it from. Don’t want them to be upset or offended. I did pay for it though.

I will update with results; I would say within 30 days.

[thebundlegigi]

[thedioraddict]

Infestation…When Life Stinks

Omg, I’m so mad rn

I have an infestation in my apt.

Apparently my upstairs neighbor place was fumigated last week.

Well, they should’ve done mine to prevent what’s happening to me rn. Now, I have a beetle infestation. All they did was move downstairs.

Gosh, I’m so angry. I can’t stand critters. ESP ones that like to climb everywhere and have no respect.

they better send someone soon.

This makes me not want to renew my lease here.

Like dude wtf.

They are under my desk, climbing on my couch, all over the carpet. Bathroom, kitchen, curtains. I don’t understand how it spread so fast.

My desk, I don’t feel comfortable sitting at my desk. There are so many under there, nor do I want to be on my couch.

I also regret watching that YT video of the girl in NYC with a roach infestation that came from her neighbors.

I feel like I brought this upon myself for watching that video!

Le sigh…just when things were looking up or so I thought.

Update.

They came and sprayed. Fingers crossed that does it. They said it’s some kind of beetle, coming from outside, due to me being on the ground floor.

[thedioraddict]

Spirituality

I dream to study and learn more about spirituality. I would love to go on a quest and talk with practitioners and witch doctors, psychics, mediums.

I would love to know more about how to protect myself and how to come up with my own spells and rituals. Learn more about herbs, and their powers and abilities.

I want to learn how to make powerful oils, and spells. 🪄

I want to go to Africa, Europe, and South America. Learn all I can about spirituality. The good kind of course.

I would then compile and share my knowledge with others. If I had it my way that is what I would focus on.

1-2yrs would be ideal, in traveling, trekking, learning, etc.

[thedioraddict]

When I talk to God - The God of the book

I woke up early this morning at 2:55am so, I could talk to God. 3am is an ideal time to reach out to him to air out your grievances. Light a candle 🕯️ and speak away.

I had ALOT to say. I usually do get some kind of response or answer. Especially when I am overly emotional. Lots of tears and crying and reading scriptures. That’s usually the only time when change happens for me. When I’m extremely upset.

So, sometimes the respond I get is scary, but I’m not gonna hold my feelings in, esp when things are happening that I don’t agree with.

I think everyone should make it a habit to talk to God. Let it be known what’s on your mind.

Don’t ever hold your emotions in, that’s what causes physical illness. Air out your grievances, your disappointments, your unhappiness.

[stuckinapril]

The truth is I just want more financial freedom so I can buy high quality skincare, buy quality pieces and form a classic capsule wardrobe, travel and see the world, spoil my friends and family, gain access to any hobby i want ever, never rely on anyone ever, nourish myself with good food, buy all the books i want ever, and do anything I want forever

[lesb0]

I looove having 0 children and sleeping alone in my quiet clean cool apartment and going to concerts and festivals and shopping for new cute clothes and watching TV

[thedioraddict]

Investing in myself - time to take action.

I’m gonna take a risk and invest in myself.

Something I’ve been wanting to learn and do for a long time, years even.

I am now actually going to put in the necessary effort to be successful in this thing. I’m done chasing low paying jobs that don’t respect my efforts.

Not only that my last paycheck was so pitiful. It reminded me why I needed to leave $1,054.05

My last job showed me that I CANNOT do this anymore.

I was super sick this week, and thank goodness Amazon doesn’t penalize you if you drop your shifts with 16hr notice. I absolutely love that, leaves me feeling free.

I only really have started to feel better today. It was so nice to be able to rest and recover and be kind to myself. Not having to worry about calling in or getting penalized for something out of my control.

I much rather work PT and focus on my education. If I take this seriously I have the potential to not only survive but thrive.

Then I will be able to not worry about money and continue with school.

No more excuses, it’s time to move forward. I know I can do it, I just need to put my head down and apply myself. I’m going to spend June, studying, learning and practicing. My bills are paid for the month of June, so I have nothing to worry about.

My goal is to be able to get this off the ground in July. I have extremely high hopes for myself, and I don’t plan on letting anything stop me.

Time to get focused.

[thedioraddict]

Fill in the gaps - Poem by me

I yearn to fill in the gaps,

to find my place

I want to fit in, that I know

But I always feel so alone

Why can’t I get it right? Why can’t I know?

I’m playing a game,

that I don’t know

Is it real? Is it fake?

Why can’t I know?

Who am I? Oh I know….

I

I am a lost soul.

This world is big, this world is great

I don’t belong, that I know

I want to leave, I want to go

I’m playing a role that I don’t know

I’m in a foreign land a foreign place, fighting for my life through time and space.

Round and round I go, up and down

To and fro

STOP

JUST STOP

I QUIT

I AM LEAVING

Let me know, if I am alone…

Do you feel what I feel?

Empty inside?

Are you also looking for a place to hide?

Let me know if I can go

Let me know when I can go

Let me know because I can’t decide

Who is my God? I want a word

Who is God? I must know

Please someone, tell me where to go

I don’t want to be here anymore

I desperately want to go.

I gotta go I gotta run….

I’ve had my fun

My time is done.

-It’s time for me to run

-I know it. I know my time is done

Time for me to leave

This unruly place, this unruly space

This is not for me, this is not my place.

I WANT TO YELL

I WANT TO SCREAM

Where will I go?

I wonder, will I find another place?

Time will tell,

That I know but for now

I know I must go

I bid you a-dew

I bid you farewell

I want to go back

I want to hide

I am going back into my shell…

[thedioraddict]

R A I N B O W

I saw the most beautiful rainbow while driving on the highway today. It was so dreamy and surreal.

[maxxie-or-smth]

you've met me at a very "yeah i'm trying to work on that" time in my life

[thedioraddict]

Amazon Flex WareHouse

I was recently rehired as a Flex Employee at Amazon. Which means at a minimum I must work 4hrs a week. At maximum 30+ during the busy season max hrs can/do increase.

I worked there about a year ago and I really enjoyed the flexibility of the position. I also recall never being broke or in a bad financial position during my time there.

Unfortunately I had too many infractions (points) which is why I was let go. If I had been better about dropping shifts, and monitoring them I wouldn’t have been let go.

I’m so glad to be back, esp now.

I think I may just pick up more shifts until I find a full time position that works for my schedule. Summer classes go through early July, and then I don’t start school again until Fall.

I also love the availability of Anytime Pay. It’s nice to know I can transfer money if need be.

Which is helpful to me as I reconfigure my finances and build myself back up. I really need to lower my expenses, there are two things in need to eliminate/reduce (car payment,and car insurance). That would drop my fixed/variable monthly expenses wayyy down. Then I could do just fine working 30hrs week and not worry about feeling like I need to find a Full Time position. I’m just generally much happier when I work part time.

Going to do some homework and then continue reading: The Power of The Subconscious Mind.

[thedioraddict]

HIP/WAIST BEADS

I finally got myself some waist beads.

I have always wanted to get into wearing waist beads, but I am finally doing it. Feels so natural already, I can’t wait to feel the effects of it.

As far as I know it is supposed to protect against womb attacks, and those who aim to steal your destiny. Also protecting you from energy syphoning from xesual partners and/or their other partners.

When my ex was cheating on me with his ex. I swear she was dark and she would show up in my dreams 3-4nights a week and attack me.

She only was no longer allowed to once I kicked him to the curb. The last time she tried. She fell into a portal and I haven’t seen her evil ass in my dreams since.

I should’ve worn hip beads back then.

[thedioraddict]

I love taking cleansing baths before bed.

I always feel so clean and giddy.

Now I rest…!

[thedioraddict]

I QUIT

I have officially quit my job today. Now I can be happy 😊

I did try to put in a notice, and they advised me that, I should use my vacation hours as they wouldn’t be eligible to be cashed out. So, I don’t have to go back.

This is great, because I have classes this summer and that is my main focus.

My workload has increased with no incentive or accommodations.

I’m done.

[thedioraddict]

If you have a good relationship with your mother wish her a Happy Mother’s Day!