a part of my brain you get to see

unfortunately i cant keep this part of my brain to myself and we shall all suffer for it. if you see me hopfully you dont. .......leave........ ah your still here enjoy the melo dramatics i supose lol say hi, if you dare. if you dare.

[theembergrim]

... " am i more scared of the wolf"

" am i more scared that there might be a wolf in the shadows, than of what could lie ahead:'

" do i not know that the only need to fear the wolf shall not meet the need to fall into the maw of something far greater harsher and to be unwise"

" is it lest, is it worse, am i justified in the mind of others to shield myself in terror. for i cannot be a worse beast then the wolf . i am not and have never been one."

" we all live, we all die. one way or another. is to let ourselves be in the hands of another. in a life dictated buy fear am i not best to let it."

" would it taught me as one could breath"

[theembergrim]

I sink I feel my body rot around me Light skaters throughout the water's scorching surface. Mocking Me. My breath lanint heavy with exhaustion as to my inaction My roots of passion heavy and dry My chest rise begging for breath life Heavy with water my body flailing in some idiotic desperation i If i were simply to move the surface mear inches from my face but i sink Tired i did not try to swim Tired i only flailed against my will Tired i and yet it’s so heavy Not a responsibility met nor a quota up heald Heavy Lifes’ sinking from my eyes Heavy exhaustion taking way Creeping through my nerves as they fry with the last moments of panic Heavy. Life could be freeing, I could find comfort. Heavy. My body shift and sways as a pressure lanint on my back Heavy, The roots have made way to my lungs Heavy I can't see the light but its still there far from willing my breath A light pressure surrounds me now it fills my body lungs organs mind I find myself unable to move unable to free heavy I see my body contort and rot with time slowly the pressure overtaking me No longer panic brain flashing screaming , resting This has been some time now no report of ritchaos reaching nor the care of light to do more than bleach the skin I feel not my flesh moving Friends stay with me quite taking what little of me they find of value but its not mutch Is simple i am an intrusion It is simple i am nothing Even as it rises to the surface clouded in mud and wight Distorted contortions find no more

I fight no more

[theembergrim]

My hands wish to work but my mind

it sleeps

[theembergrim]

take my skin run it through a meat grinder and plaster it to the walls.

[theembergrim]

SOME MORE EMO BULSHITT

i grow tired Why move For my brothers What a fucking joke am i I tier I bore I still rot I still feel my self inflicted diesis rack my bones I still feel tired at my own melodramatic bullshit I'm fed up i want to say I'm done so fucking bad When's the last time I've bathed when's the last time my laugh has felt Ok Whyyy I could be an existential great thing Or i could just be upset because i have a tummy ach How beyond pathetic i am in my mock apathy

[theembergrim]

I'm being consumed by ya overwhelming self loathing as much akin to an inky darkness of the beyond the c void of creation slowly eating away, at my each end every unwitting breath i find joy a supple distraction but no matter what i do its always their looming waiting beaconing me into the abbess

i feel it might derive joy or pleasure from this pass time of its in our existence why its there toughing me with my mistakes, or i just need to drink some water and get on with my life so that i may find some distraction and hopelessly think it may go away I've begged to whatever god may exist but it takes little action this is all dramatic and all ill live and more on but something tells me nonmatter what this feeling I'm putting to writing willll be there ever more it may weaken but it shall be their ever more

[theembergrim]

i want tofeelthewormslowlynawmyflesh till nawt but the stick of red remailn. the slow searing numing my sences.

pls let the worms naw my flesh great one