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He could have left, when the nursemaid appeared. He should have left, should have gone back into the party and gotten so drunk he couldn’t see, should have called it a night and gone off to bed, dubbing the whole encounter the hallucinations of a desperate man. It was just that he could not convince his limbs to quite listen to him, frozen in place in the shadows, watching the interaction before him like a statue in the dark. It did not escape him that this woman had achild, but for once Asher’s mind was brutally and completely blank, thoughts lost in a shock that he was not sure he could recover from. Asher felt her grip, felt his body moving, but as if he were in a dream, watching his body from somewhere else. “No,” he responded, voice soft, emotionless. “It does not feel real because it cannot be real. I -” he stopped, swallowing hard, eyes closing as if to shut it all out.
“Again,” Asher repeated, taking a few steps back under the guise of leaning against a nearby tree trunk. The added distance helped little, though, his heart torn between wanting to stepcloser, closer, and wanting to run away and never look back. “If you are who you say you are, then you must know I never stopped thinking about you.” Emotion was slowly starting to trickle back into his body, his words laced with a pained ferocity that left no doubt that he meant what he said. A harsh laugh, full of something one could almost call cruelty, escaped from him before he could stop it. “No, you couldn’t know why I’m here. Why I’m - back.” Just as he couldn’t know why Gwyn was here, why she held an infant so clearly her own. Life - call it their own actions, call it beyond their control - had torn them apart with no hope of reconnecting. And yet, there they were. “I can’t be here?” he asked incredulously, mind still running slowly, trying to process the statement. “I am part of the Dragon King’s army. He pays my wages, and I go where he goes. I have far more of a right to be here than you do.” Count on him, to fall back on anger when the going got too tough.
I never stopped thinking about you. Gwyn could've melted right then, would've given in to impulsive and thrown herself right at him. No amount of time between them could take away from the fact that he would always be a source of security and comfort for her. The cruel reality was she was married, had already tarnished her reputation once before, and couldn't imagine the potential backlash on her daughters should something happen here and now. Gwyn crossed her arms over her chest, inhaling deeply, willing the burning at her eyes to cease. "I've never stopped thinking about you either, Asher." She admitted in response, cursing the tears that fell down her cheek before quickly wiping it away with the sleeve of her dress.
What was once a burning sadness and loss, turned into a burning rage. The second his words fell upon her ears she nearly closed the distance between them, anger clear across her face as she spoke. "Classic Asher to turn on me the second you show some vulnerability!" Gwyn began, almost laughing at the similarity to the boy she knew a decade before. She knew it was all a front, but she was not happy at it being used against her. "You have more of a right to be here, yet you lurk in the shadows while I sit amongst the guests!" She added matter of factly. "You clearly don't want your presence to be that obvious, Asher. Don't forget I know you. It may have been years, we may be different, but this is very much the same person I knew." She sighed, taking a single step back. "You're drunk. You should go sleep it off." Gwyn paused a moment, however. "Why are you back?"











