Mosaic Heart

YURAサマ [Takeshi Kuroiwa], drums DOB: September 12, 1979 (Virgo) Bands: Dacco, The Beethoven Please read about me. AIM: thefirst.light RP only, not the real Yura

[thefirst-light]

"Thank you for the follow, sir."

You're quite welcome. I like your pink hair~ My name is Yura, it's nice to meet you!

[thefirst-light]

Its been a while... again. I should maybe stop ... abandoning this place so much.

[jrocknyc]

psycho le cemu is BACK! 

http://psycholecemu.com/

thx lesilv!

[someguysinhats]

[the-damnedest-creature]

[the-damnedest-creature]

[x]

[kingcest-deactivated20160428]

Ah.. the void of numbness is a place I have dwelled within for long. Too long.

Though it most often means that you have strayed from your joy, when one is feeling ill with heartbreak. Did Yura-sama fail to consider what his heart really wanted?

And if you wish to confide in someone, know I am an exceptional keeper of secrets.

[thefirst-light]

I will keep that in mind, Satsuki. As for what my heart really wants, I have considered it for centuries, and known it for centuries. It has had what it wants... for centuries. But not this time.

Basically.

[kingcest-deactivated20160428]

For the record, I did not say that — you did.

The heart is a tender thing, though. Be sure to cradle it with loving intensity, when it is feeling like that.

[thefirst-light]

Touché. 

Yes, I know. I know that I should focus myself elsewhere, as well. It is not necessarily broken, it is empty. A strange and awful feeling that I am not accustom to.

[kingcest-deactivated20160428]

What is so important that it diminishes your ability for rational thought?

[thefirst-light]

Are you calling me irrational? 

And oh, it is a matter of the heart. Something I don't wish to indulge for fear of seeming pitiful. 

[kingcest-deactivated20160428]

There is nothing to forgive, truly. My mind is vast and filled with many ideas, many of which are unheard of, and often confusing to hear, or to process.

Please don’t be sorry.

[thefirst-light]

Ah, well. My mind is crowded with thoughts of only one subject, that which I cannot shake. Perhaps one day soon I shall have room to consider things that require a fair bit of thought.

[kingcest-deactivated20160428]

I think that you are taking it too literally. Darkness is very real, but it is still only there in the absence of light.

No worries, though. Perhaps you will sleep on it, and it will dawn on you in the morning, after the sun has come up and gone again.

[thefirst-light]

Yes, it will perhaps dawn on me. Forgive me for being so dense at the moment, I'm not one for pondering concepts. 

[kingcest-deactivated20160428]

I will go ahead and say, that you simply do not understand the concept.

Which is very endearing of you, I must admit.

[thefirst-light]

Well, I cannot agree with something that I do not understand, especially when I know well of the existence of my own brother.

If it is endearing, I'm glad. That is better than being seen as ignorant. 

[kingcest-deactivated20160428]

I have spoken with him about that, on some level. I can not recall his reaction. However, consider this: If he appears when you disappear, how is he anything other, than the absence of light?

[thefirst-light]

Because I am energy and he is not?

Oh, otherwise, I may just be the absence of darkness. Ho ho~ 

Well, my brother most certainly exists. I don't believe he is a mass hallucination. 

[kingcest-deactivated20160428]

I think that there is no such thing as darkness, once you get down to the nitty-gritty of it. After all, we do not flip a separate switch to turn on the darkness, after the light has been turned on. Therefore darkness is nothing but the absence of light. As for those souls - that is a different conversation, entirely.

And I think, it is impossible to know by any means other than learning. I discovered.

It’s nice to be able to speak with you.

[thefirst-light]

No darkness? Do you mean in a figurative way, or in reality? Ah, my brother would be quite upset to hear such a thing. He appears when I disappear... a beautiful force, I believe.

Ah, I'm happy that you are enjoying yourself. It is not often I meet someone who understands... let alone is part of the great forces.

[kingcest-deactivated20160428]

Choice exists for a reason. Any force of creation which makes a being with choice and then judges it for making the wrong choice would be inherently cruel, and I do not believe that we live in an inherently cruel universe. I believe the universe is very loving, in fact~

But — well. I also believe judgment exists for a reason, but I find it hard to judge others on the basis that I do not want to be judged, myself.

Are you proud of me? I discovered these things and taught them to myself all on my lonesome.

[thefirst-light]

There are those that would believe otherwise, dear Satsuki. Those that would think the forces of the universe are all but against them. Souls that find themselves a target of the weight of the world. 

I am glad that you have learned these things. It is better to learn, than to be told. 

[kingcest-deactivated20160428]

You have no pride in the opposites? That’s a very picky universal force, to be honest.

[thefirst-light]

The opposites can be found in the darkness, most of the time, which is not my territory.

But naturally, I love all beings, without judgement. 

And you? Can you resist judging those that crawl over the earth?  

[thefirst-light]

It is a jest.

And you are made of me. Imagine that.

[kingcest-deactivated20160428]

That I am. Are you proud of me? I’ve come such a far way~

[thefirst-light]

Oh, ho, I am proud of all like you, dear Satsuki. As long as you continue shining in a way of kindness, and love~