[thegaymalefatale]

I know that there are people who are going through it worse then I am. But when I say I do not have any family to spend Christmas with, besides my sister, my Mom and my Dad. I mean it.

I mean I’m supposed to be related to these other people, and I don’t feel at all related to them. Literally used to spend a lot for them on Christmas and they never once thought about me. Not even the Christmases when we were younger.

Anytime anything happens or tragedy strikes our family, they want to know all the details and once they do. You don’t hear from them until the next tragedy.

I mean I have fully realized I have no one besides my three friends, my sister and my parents who I can spend Christmas with. And for some reason, that makes me really sad, because it used to not be like this.

And this Christmas has me really sad because my Mom is in the ICU on a ventilator, this is the first Christmas that my Grandmom is no longer with us. Cousins don’t care. My Aunt is having a mental breakdown and is still an alcoholic.

My other Aunt isn’t even living in a cognitive reality. And who the hell knows where any of my other cousins are.

My Memaw, you can’t spend Christmas with her without worrying that she poisoned you lmao

My Uncle is a psycho. My Papaw is dead.

Like I have no family. And it’s just so hard for me this year. It’s the most depressing Christmas ever.

[roseforviolet]

[animusrox]

No One: Me at 3AM:

Smile 2 (2024) dir. Parker Finn

[toastbutteregg]

[wlwgif]

BOTTOMS 2023, dir. Emma Seligman

[thegaymalefatale]

[rylandsgrace]

#They definitely should beach each other off

[quarter-afterone]

“It is literally impossible to be a woman. You’re so beautiful and so smart. And it kills me you don’t think you’re good enough. Like we have to always be extraordinary. But somehow we’re always doing it wrong. You have to be thin, but not too thin, and you can never say you want to be thin. You have to say you want to be healthy, but also you have to be thin! You have to have money, but you can’t ask for money, because that’s crass. You have to be a boss, but you can’t be mean. You have to lead, but you can’t squash other people’s ideas. You’re supposed to love being a mother, but don’t talk about you kids all the damn time. You have to be a career woman but also always be looking out for other people. You have to answer for men’s bad behavior which is insane but if you point that out you’re accused of complaining. You’re supposed to stay pretty for men but not so pretty that you tempt them too much or that you threaten other women because you’re supposed to be a part of the sisterhood but always stand out and always be grateful. But never forget that the system is rigged so find a way to acknowledge that but also always be grateful. You have to never get old. Never be rude. And never show off. Never be selfish, never fall down, never fail, never show fear, never get out of line. It’s too hard! It’s too contradictory! And nobody gives you a medal or says thank you! And it turns out in fact that not only are you doing everything wrong but also everything is your fault! I’m just so tired of watching myself and every single other woman tie ourselves into knots so that people will like us.” -Gloria (America Ferrera, BARBIE)

[dua-source]

BARBIE (2023) dir. Greta Gerwig

[sa-dnesss]

nobody talks about the fact that you can have all this crazy shit in your head, and want to open up and talk about your feelings but no matter what, you just can't make out the right words and properly put your thoughts and emotions into words

[thegaymalefatale]

I feel so alone. And no one seems to notice or care... I feel like I'm just there, the person someone feels bad for, who they talk to, but doesn't truly wanna be their friend.

I have a close friend who I dearly love. But she's so far away. And I have another friend where we barely talk anymore, and here where I live, I feel like I have no one.

I walk down random streets in the city. Nobody notices me, approaches me, people only stare at me due to my wearing of makeup.

[thegaymalefatale]

This person is doing the Lord's work.

@90sjenniferconnelly

[thegaymalefatale]

This scene right here, guaranteed Hank's nomination for an Emmy. I absolutely loved this scene.

"I am the Hunter."

[thegaymalefatale]

I really don't wanna be here today.. I feel like I'm dealing with a menstruating teenager.

[thegaymalefatale]

Like my coworker. Apparently I made him uncomfortable and had no idea, he had his gf curse me out and I wanted to tell her he and her can go fuck themselves and that he needs to stop being a little pussy and tell me.

But I didn't. I apologized and said I didn't know I made him uncomfortable, I didn't at all mean to disrespect him and he's just avoided me ever since.. it's like. Ok.

Sorry I made you uncomfortable, didn't know I did. Guys there make more terrible jokes and slurs worse than me and you don't see them getting shit on like me.

Not to say I didn't do anything wrong. Because I did. But at least tell me in person and don't hide behind your girlfriend's skirt.

[thegaymalefatale]

I wish I weren't as socially awkward irl.. but I am. I'm mostly quiet in public. It's not that I don't have anything to say, it's that I feel if I say it, it may be the wrong thing. And this happens a bit, not often, but more to make me feel that it's best to be silent.

Sometimes I make people uncomfortable without even knowing it, and I wish they'd let me know that I'm making them uncomfortable. I'm not perfect. Definitely not.

I'm just tired of feeling lonely.

[thegaymalefatale]

When your former youth pastor is on Grindr asking for S&M shit and you message him saying his name and he immediately blocks you: