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I've been thinking a lot about my tomorrows lately. I hope I don't mishandle the things sent from above. I hope I don't mess things up because I'm controlled by my emotions. I hope that this time I get to truly start doing what I want. And I'm hoping that if I start getting such things, I'll learn to appreciate them and recognize the hard work and prayer that went into making them happen. To restart my whole life routine, to live alone, to honor self-discipline, to appreciate and be happy about the little things, to hear my needs and actually fulfill them, to make time with my loved ones, to try new things, to challenge my fears, to not just survive but to live fulfilled in this life.
I hope I get to appreciate solitude more. I don't know. It just feels like there's a lot to discover. Through it all, I hope there's a conviction. I got a lot of dreamy things in mind that I want to happen. But in spite of it, I still want to follow the ones that You have for me.
Lord, in exchange for taking control of it for me instead, I allow you to break anything I want for myself. You are in charge. Please take charge; I humbly ask you to.

















