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There's nothing magnificent about me.

[theguywholosthismind]

You know, going back here feels like finding an old place that you used to go to; a place you don't recognize but somehow there are corners that seem familiar like a cul de sac from your old neighborhood.

[theguywholosthismind]

It has been awhile..

I am finally back. Not me as a person but my thoughts, my feelings, my demon... yes they are all back.

[theprocast]

Today I am sad… in fact, I feel so sad that I want nothing more than to curl up in bed and cry. I won’t of course; there are too many things to be done… all those adult life responsibilities that never seem to stop no matter how tired I am of it all. But I would give anything to be held… to be treated like a child and be found when I am lost… to be gathered up in arms that feel big when I feel so very small and so very alone. I would give anything for a moment like that right now… just a little moment in a very long day. I guess I’m just tired… and sad… and I wish you were here.

Ranata Suzuki (via theprocast)

[theguywholosthismind]

Using this app (tumblr) is a confirmation that my thoughts are stronger than me rn. I lost my sanity

[theguywholosthismind]

Can't write. Can't think straight. There are just too many... too many I can't even.

[theguywholosthismind]

Looking back.

April-May 2011. My blog was about pictures and gifs I reblogged. I remember myself being amazed by it so I just continue reblogging stuff.

April-May 2012. I started posting some texts but I must admit those were having a little sense.

April-May 2013. Real shit happened. I remember having to squeeze my mind just so I can have something to post. I started sharing my thoughts and I was kind of enjoying it.

April-May 2014. I met the demon inside of me. Thoughts were spilling and I was drowning.

April-May 2015. I hope I can post when I am happy.

[theguywholosthismind]

April-May 2016. I died

[theguywholosthismind]

Isang “Uy” mo lang, feeling ko may pag-asa na. </3

[theguywholosthismind]

Ang galing lang talaga ng love. Dahil dito, nagagawa mo yung mga bagay kahit pagod na pagod kana. Yung isang ngiti niya lang, nagiging masaya kana din. Tapos yung feeling na kausap mo siya at alam mong ikaw lang yung kinakausap niya sa oras na yun, ah iba. Kahit na isa hanggang dalawang salita lang reply sayo, iba padin yung dulot nitong saya. Pero minsan nakaka-gago din yung love. Minsang ang hirap din. Yung wala kang magawa kapag namimiss mo siya. Gusto mong lumabas kayo pero hindi pwede kasi di naman kayo. Yung paulit ulit mong binibisita mga profiles at pictures niya. Kapag ramdam mong mas masaya siya sa iba, ang sakit lang. Ewan, wala lang. Di ko alam ba’t ako napadpad ule dito sa tumblr. hayy

[theguywholosthismind]

I knew you were joking when you said "I love you" but damn, I wished it was true. I knew you were just being friendly when you sent me those good night messages and stickers but damn, I hoped it to last.

[theguywholosthismind]

The thing about staying up late and reaching 3am is that our thoughts become more powerful than us, it control us. It always hit the trigger of our sadness. It open the door of our very own monsters.

[theguywholosthismind]

Susubukan kong sagutin ko ang mensahe niya sa sarili niyang paraan. Tatlo..apat..pito..higit kumulang labing walong mga salita ang nagamit ko. Puta! Paano niya nagagawang padalhan ako ng mensaheng may dalawa hanggang apat na salita? Bura. Mali ito. Bura. Palitan nito. Bura. Bura. Hayy, natapos din. Message sent: Tangina mo.

[theguywholosthismind]

Sa panahong kailangan kong lokohin ang sarili ko na mahal mo ako, hindi ka nagparamdam.

[thelovewhisperer]

Here’s to the kids who try their hardest to be good enough for everyone; who spend hours reading random quotes to find the right one; who listen to the same song dozens of times because the lyrics mean a lot; who deserve so much more than they get and are willing to fight for it and whose wish upon a shooting star was wasted on someone that will never care.

Follow for more quotes about life (via thelovewhisperer)

[theguywholosthismind]

Swerte na kapag gumising ng may mensaheng naghihintay na mabasa. Hudyat ito na kailangan ng bumangon at simulan ang araw. Kaya eto ako ngayon, matutulog muli.

[theguywholosthismind]

With these negativity, I need to detach myself from people. And so I did 😞

[theguywholosthismind]

Ang pagmamahal ko sayo ay di binuo ng mga salitang "mahal kita". Bagkus, inilaan ko sayo ang oras ko; tumulong sa mga problema mo at pinadama ang kahalagahan mo. Marahil, kaya hanggang ngayon, walang tayo ay dahil nagkulang ako sa pag sambit na "mahal kita". Pero tangina mo, ba't hindi mo man lang madama?

[theguywholosthismind]

I knew I am not fine because after a long time, I opened my Tumblr and started typing these words. I'm an open book 2 years ago but things changed and I am now fucking afraid of sharing my stories to anyone, not even my closest friends. I won't even tell you about it just because you can read this text post but I will tell you how I hate what I am feeling inside. I don't know if this is life in general or love or whatnots but I can feel something is killing me slowly and to keep my self sane, I need to air this shit out. I want to push people away like delete my fb acc and not talk to my friends, I don't know why but someone inside me is telling to do it anyway. There are just a lot of things going inside of my head and I don't know if I can still keep track of it. Maybe I mentioned I don't know for a lot of times now but I just fucking don't know what's happening to me! I don't know!!!!