Astha🦋

Here to speak my heart out And i love books, space and art

[theheartsayswhatitwantsto]

I say I don't deserve you

Cause you bring happiness to me

A look from you can change my mood

The stare game is a little too hard

Cause it gives me all the butterflies

You were the home I was searching for so long

We fight we have arguments

But at the end it's the sorry and I love you

That matters the most

So when I say that I don't deserve you

I truly mean it

cause to find a person

Oh! Who genuinely loves me,

Who wants nothing more than my happiness ,

Who can fight the whole world for me

Oh! When did I become so lucky to find someone like you

You are my love, my peace, my serenity, my home

[theheartsayswhatitwantsto]

And after I die

I am gonna look for you in another universe.

And when I will find you

I will fall in love with you again

[theheartsayswhatitwantsto]

Life can be pretty harsh sometimes

But all i say to myself that it's just a bad day it will pass away

That there's going to be a new good day

But that good day never comes

I m tierd of saying to myself that it's just a bad day, Now I don't think so that i can give reassurance to myself and say that everything's going to be all alright. Because it never happens.

I am tired of this life. I am tired of living it.

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I have moved on

Or maybe

I have just accepted that

There is nothing going to happen

Between the two of us

But I wonder

What will happen if one day

You suddenly would come and say that

You have something to do with me

I wonder what will I do.

Because I say I have moved on

So would I be unaffected with whatever you will have to say

Or everything would crush.

And all my feelings all my love for you.

Would suddenly be back.

It's so sacry to think.

To know that how much.

You affect me, my feelings

That's why I truly want to move on

To know that nothing going to happen

If I ever heard your name again

That I would unheard it like any other random stranger name

But everytime I feel like I m moving on

That everytime I take a step ahead

The universe push me back again

Stop coming in my dreams

Maybe For a fraction of time

But it feels like you are with me that you are mine

It ruins my day. It crush me and my spirit

So stop please stop

I need to move on

I m trying my best

But idk what will happen if one day suddenly you will come in front of me

[theheartsayswhatitwantsto]

I don't know what love really is

But the thought of

Sharing a part of me with someone

Sharing my emotions with someone

Sharing my feelings with someone

Is a whole risky idea for me

Because I am afraid of them

Breaking a part of me and letting it go

[theheartsayswhatitwantsto]

Life is unpredictable but with you everything seems to be at the right place

[theheartsayswhatitwantsto]

They asked,

Why you love the night

It's complete darkness?

"Silence", I said

I love the silence yet the chaos

Shared between me and the universe

The unspoken words

[theheartsayswhatitwantsto]

I didn't believe

When I saw you

Laying on the floor

And just laying there

Lifeless

I didn't believe that it is you because I can't

Thought you would get up and say something

But you didn't

You didn't

And just like that you went away

You went somewhere far away

I can't see you now

But still you are here with me

And I still can't believe that

You are gone now

I still cannot fathom the fact

That I wont be seeing you now

As I used to

[theheartsayswhatitwantsto]

I wish to go back in time

And live that one normal day

Which back then was very ordinary

But now I am dying

To live that one normal ordinary day

Where I can find you

Where I can hear your voice

See you laugh and see you get angry

I want to get scolded by you

I want to hug you for one last time

I just want to see you for one last time

Is that too much to ask for?

Our house isn't home now

It's incomplete without you

I miss you I miss you so much

We will meet again maybe one day

[theheartsayswhatitwantsto]

I want to fall in love again

I want to feel butterflies

I want to daydream about our nights

I want to lose in someone's eyes

But i can't

After you,

After so many years

Of you and I not becoming us

I still can't love someone else ,

the way I loved you or still do.

It's like you were the only person ,

Whom I loved dearly, truly .

And I can never do the same again

Never again

No matter how hard I try

[theheartsayswhatitwantsto]

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If you can't be a part of my reality, then don't be a part of my dreams either .

Because for some mere moments you were mine and when I wake up then you are gone. It hurts and breaks my heart again and again.

[theheartsayswhatitwantsto]

Can you unlove a person ?

They hide themselves deep within the heart

But they never disappear

[theheartsayswhatitwantsto]

No one loves me except my insecurities

They are my bestie

They love me so much

That they never leave me alone

[theheartsayswhatitwantsto]

"To the stars who listen and the dreams that are answered"

Hope , that maybe one day we will get whatever we wish to have. And that universe on the other side is always by our side. So never stop hoping, dream, dream big and turn them into reality ✨🪐

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