Yâall. I am fucking crying. I am heart broken. I legit fell off the Bruno bandwagon and just kind of went down a hole this week because itâs Spring Break at work and the social distancing thing. I reread The Good Life and started on The Hook-Up. As I was settling in I went to check in on my Bruno anon who I had connected to on Facebook after that trend faded. She struggled a lot with her mental health and we worked on a lot of stuff together. She had seizures and anxiety and depression. As a social worker I even helped her process and worked through some crisis things. Her user name was Fuxwitbruno. She was also the one that wrote those extra steamy Bruno porn one shots. She would hate that I told yâall that. Sheâd be so embarrassed. But you all need to know her.
I stopped hearing from her a long while ago and just assumed she had deleted her Facebook or stopped sharing stuff. I respected her distance and felt like I was missing her today. I was mostly expecting the little blue face profile picture and not finding out about her and hoping she moved on and things were okay for her.
Yâall. Fuxwitbruno died in August. I am in tears. And I donât know how weird it would be to reach out to her sister or mom to ask about her. I donât know if it was a tragic accident or if it was an overdose or what. But Iâm so hurt right now. Mostly for her family and really sad I didnât reach out last summer. Sure, I lost a Bruno anon and writing partner but losing someone that I couldnât help really hurts. I donât even know what to do anymore. Yâall.
Her name was Sarah Knuth and she was 26. Her birthday was December 18, 1992, and she passed away on August 12, 2019. She was from Florida and she fucking loved Bruno yâall. She hated Jessica with the same amount of passion that I did. She didnât do anything to us but she just was like that person you go to high school with that just rubs you the wrong way. She was working through her grief of losing the chance to be with Bruno. But, I mean, who isnât even if he and Jess have been together for like nine years now? She had three sisters and a brother. She had nieces and nephews. Her parents loved her. Her siblings and nieces and nephews loved her.
Iâm not sure who photoshopped that photo of her and Bruno together, but thatâs the Sarah I knew and loved and I am so sad that I canât message her right now and just say âHey, I was going down a Bruno spiral and I wanted to check in.â Sarah, I love you and will miss you and miss all the reactions and things youâd have to say when Bruno comes back to us.
