Hello, friends! Just a little update here.
Last year was probably one of the worst years in the personal side. We went through an ordeal with my father. A brain tumor took his health so quickly and the only thing I (we) could feel was frustration, sadness and fury towards the medicine, God (or any spiritual guide), nature and life itself because we just saw him wither, getting weaker, more confused, more dependent. Until we only had the only hope: a surgery. A surgery where he fought for his life as a champion.
However, his body was too weak and after four difficult weeks in the hospital, he passed away.
We are a very close family. We were so close that losing my dad was like losing a part of our heart, a limb. We are not young anymore, but I feel absolutely orphan without him.
However, there is another life, the jewel of our lives and the future of our family, my lil niece. She has been our hope and our comfort in these difficult days, and of course the promise for the coming years. Her little smile, her laugh, an when she ocassionally, in her baby talk, asks for her "tito" (grampa).
I still cry a lot and the constant flow of memories, sad and happy, the trauma of all the things that happened at the hospital and the lost itself are sometimes too hard to bear, but I am also filled with determination to honor my father's love, his trust and hope in me, as his child, his pride and the future of his name.
My apologies for all this rambling... the point is, that we normally look back and forth when New Year arrives, but at least in my case, it has been more the moment where I see what I've lost and what I've learned last year, and how can I honor the promises I have made to my family, my friend, my dad and myself in this new year.
I hope the best for all of you. Have a successful and blessed 2023.
tangentwithtanner
kianamaiart
yousharknotpass
ellievsbear
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