I am just a beliver, I have never been naturally good at anything, I always loved the idea of believing that I can do this or that, sometimes hurt my self with words because things doesn't go as I imagine it would be, I hated the fact that I buy things that I think i can make into something but ended up just being nothing, despise the fact that I cant be true to my self, I cant complement myself with my own achievement because it's not as how I planed it will be, hated the fact that I get jealous of other people achievements because of the thought that I can do it to, sometimes cry myself to wondering if I even tried my best, I sometimes wonder if I could be a different person just for their patience and understanding of not all things can go as we plan, but i cant change who I am, so it's better if I learn to appreciate little things until my life ends.