Buyed little silicone bento boxes. Excited for them. Buy 2 get 2 free, so buyed 4, one for each color. Not like pink but less bad with little things and this pink not so bad. Hope can maybe make more likely eat really meals multiple foods than do now. And if make 1 up can make others up same time all ready. Like bento boxes. Just find out bento box have before actually microwave dishwasher safe. Thought not because not say. But is. So can use it easier better gut use from it.
Brand I just buyed is bumkins. Want to get other things from them but not sure how explain plates to parents and not actually want plates with suction, just divided plates with cover. Like their little forks and spoons too, but not sure is best options. Don’t know. Try to balance want with cost with hiding/justification to parents.
Want get some Ello brand too. Like theirs and like its two separate go together container. Ver sa tile. Wish them have green though. Probly parents be upset get nother one too so guess wait make sure using bumkins ones first.
Maybe want make lunch box not sure. Want make lots of bags.
Also been talking with hs bf. Want to get back together. Want domesticity (not romance, am aroace, him knows). Want someone take care N help with meds and food and nice care for and medical and want reg cg too. Him knows about reg and aroace and bpd. Not sure he kinda person to take care. Not sure what him wants and needs.
Problem N be friends mostly people not take charge be very “what you want” not say wants or needs. Not act base on what can know N wants needs without say directly (say other ways. Them not say at all).
Been imagine him come live here with N (parents want move year or two). Think regress more better. Really properly not fleeting barely/partial. If have someone take care of N. And need keep on track. But say got probably least 2 more years of degree, hope not 3. Knew have to wait 1 year. 1 year good, time get everything read. 2 years long time. Dont know if him want to live little place like here. Dont know if him have partner rn, but not seem likely cause talk 3 hours on call last night no interupt other person and him say free in evenings most time.
Worry also about other part about N. Not say here. Things reg related but not talk bout. Him not know bout. Worry what him to think.
Worry too cause not be normal partner. Worry cause want him take care N but not do other things most people want in partner. Silly-bad want care like child.
Want make lunches do meal prep (with help cause motivation hard hard hard) for us for week and for take lunch to work. Want regress little after work in evenings with someone play cuddle watch pooh bear and help ready for bed. Let brush teeth and hair. Make sure wash face. Take meds. Want make sure him have just-in-case emergency things in bag for take work. Micro firs aid kit. Hat and mittens in winter. Pocket knife. Food.
Hims likes pink favorite. Him can use pink lunch boxes.
Him is not eat meat last know. N have spearience make food for diet limit. Not too hard. Make chop suey noodles sauce vegetables. Saparate before add meat in. Half with half without. Want to make sure him gets nuf protein. N not get nuf protein most time an N eat meat.
Getted him soap an hand sanitizer. Send right to him. Him sayd keep lavender soap always so getted him lavender soap and santizer. Have package work on need send too. Him birthday come soon.
Hope thingswork out perfect. Hope him not takes so long finish degree. Hope him wants back together even tho N not normal partner. Hope him wants take care N both normal an little and hope hims good at it. Hope its good for hims too. Hope can support hims how hims need. Maybe him be little some two. Hope health things easier with him help. Hope him want to help like to help.
Feel selfish want someone takes care N spesially cause N not do what mos want partner. Idk. Is hard find person. Dk how talk him bout what want neither. Cause been imagine for while but probly seem sudden to him.
