knight's tale;

I'm the Hulk; a ninja/pirate, cat/owl, & a heartbreaker all rolled into one! Isn’t that a wonderful combination? Errr.. I'm a slowpoke. ★

[thelittleknight]

Hello, my name is

Arianne Zurbano. This is my real name. You can befriend me in Facebook if you want to (just PM me that you're from Tumblr).

And even though I still am not sure why I left Tumblr, I am still happy with my decision. I am actually living, not just typing my thoughts away and reblogging stuff (tho I AM TOTALLY NOT DISCOURAGING ANYONE OF YOU TO STOP TUMBLR-ING OKAY).

And I don't think I will ever be back. Maybe I will go back to blogging, but not in Tumblr. Maybe Wordpress or Livejournal. I've already done my work here, in Tumblr. It's time for me to part ways with it.

So now, au revoir. For real.

[thelittleknight]

Hi. I am neither a cat or a penguin or an owl. I am not any animal. I am actually a plant. A peashooter, to be exact.

Now, shoot.

[thelittleknight]

Oh God —

I miss me.

[thelittleknight]

Awhile ago, our English teacher/psychologist forced me to strut in front of the class because I was chosen as the muse for our Mr. & Ms. Intramurals. It was kind of embarrassing because I'm really the shy type of person. So, of course, I strut. I was giving off this "mataray" look (or so I thought). And then, after I'm done strutting, our teacher said to one of my classmates (uhm, my crush, to be specific) that he might have a crush on me. Maybe she read his face while I was strutting, and saw something. Something...

[thelittleknight]

Bye guys.

No, I won't delete this blog. I will just not use it anymore.

So yeah bye

[thelittleknight]

Before I say my final goodbye, let me tell you something:

I already told you who I am, but I still haven't told you my name.

Now, I don't know who I become and will be leaving. I guess it is only proper to say my name before it's too late.

                                          Well, find me.

                                 .-  .-.  ..  .-  -.  -.  .   --..  ..-  .-.  -...  .-  -.  ---

[thelittleknight]

An Escape

Let's turn back the hands of time. The year is 2010. The year I first started Tumblr-ing.

All my life I wanted to know what it feels like to fly, run, or just go away. Away and away, without any restrictions. I wanted to know what it feels like to break free. It's a scary yet fascinating thought that consumed me for hours until it turned into sleepless nights. I can't bear the feeling any longer.

I had to do something.

And so I started Tumblr-ing at the summer of 2010, when I am twelve years old. I was still young and innocent (and still am now). Before I knew it, I felt satisfied. Not the ordinary kind of satisfaction, no. This is the kind of satisfaction that can only be felt when you are yourself. No rules, no restrictions. This is the kind of escape I'm looking for. I can write whatever I want. I can take a photo and post it here without caring what other bloggers will think of me, because seriously, we are all the same mental folks who tried this kind of diversion because we wanted to know what it feels like to belong, to fit in. (Uhm, I think I'm only speaking for myself. :3) They don't know me, so why should I care? I was happy. I saw pictures, essays, and other stuff that inspired me, and I, on the other hand, did my own thing.

Let's return to the present.

Still happy Tumblr-ing. I (virtually) met people that inspired me, and became friends with some of them. I am glad because I am myself here. But somehow, there's a stirring feeling inside the pit of my stomach that tells me I should stop. Wait, pit—stop what? Stop doing my indirect form of escape that may or may not be my favorite thing in the world? But why?

Well, I guess I knew.

I am changing, for the better or worse, I don't know. Something tells me that stopping is necessary for me to reach my unknown destination.

                               I am escaping my escape.

I don't want this, no. But my instinct tells me that this is the right thing to do. Soon I'll find out why I'm doing this. And, who knows, maybe I will be back without you all even noticing my return.

So, for now, au revoir.

[thelittleknight]

Follow my instagram: chiscurls

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BLACK = I would date you. GREEN = I think you’re cute. PINK = I have a crush on you. BROWN = I love you. GREY = I wish you would notice me. PURPLE = I don’t talk to you much but I really love your blog. TEAL = We have a lot in common. YELLOW = I want to be friends. ORANGE = I don’t like your blog. BLUE = Your blog is my favorite. RED = I strongly dislike you. WHITE = You intimidate me.

[thelittleknight]

Why did I become fat? I ask myself.

I still do the things I used to do when I was, well, thin. I still eat just the same. Same amount, same food. But why? Why? Why did I become fat?

I now know the answer. I realized the answer while washing the dirty plates and glasses of our household.

I became fat because I stopped walking. Walking. I trapped myself in the very walls that is my home. I stopped mingling with people. I became a flower that turned into a bud. Closed and quiet.

And now that I grasped this truth, I shall do something about it.

And, well, you know what I'll do.

[thelittleknight]

Mom: What's wrong?

My mind: I used to do so well in school but I'm not anymore.

My mind: The people I call friends, aren't my actual friends.

My mind: I'm constantly feeling alone.

My mind: I'm starting to look at myself different.

My mind: Nothing feels the same anymore.

My mind: I feel like I'm going to fail at anything I try to do.

My mind: I haven't been eating that much and I'm hungry all the time.

My mind: I feel like no one cares about me.

My mind: I just wanna sleep all day and never wake up.

Me: Oh nothing I'm fine.

[thelittleknight]

Papayat ka rin. Tandaan mo yan. Soon.

[gailventic]

Best

To be the best doesn’t necessarily mean winning. Sometimes, winning is by luck. But the best way to win is to compete with the best. And when you are better than the best, that’s when you can truly say that you have won.

[thelittleknight]

Whenever I feel bad, naglalabas ako ng sama ng loob. Literally.

[thelittleknight]

lack of inspiration/creativity/muse/ingenuity/imagination/vision/brainwave/whatever

[thelittleknight]

At times like this, my mentality is not functioning correctly. Heck, what am I even saying? My brainpower is not properly working at, like, all times! Oh, screw this.

Hell week made my brain breakdown once again. *sigh* Screw you fucking examinations!

[thelittleknight]

                                                                Ouch.

                                                     That hurts.

                                         More than you ever knew

                                 And will ever know