I just want to fly

Deryn Fletcher, 17, child of Zeus Genderfluid (He/They/She)

[sammysansby]

thelittlestdemigod:

Deryn frowned, shifting slightly so it was more comfortable for both of them. “I can say things like that because they’re absolutely true. I don’t care if you’re a criminal or not.” “Y’know, I think technically I might be one too.” They paused, pursing their lips. “So, even if I did have a problem with it, which I don’t, I wouldn’t really have much room to talk.” They smiled. “Really? Like, right now?” Deryn blinked, moving to slide off Sam’s lap. “Right now right now? I, um..” They looked down to their feet, shoving their hands into their hoodie. “What’s a.. good place to go, for a date?” They shot Sam a half smile, “I haven’t really, um, gone on an actual date before.. ever.”

Sam shook his head. “You can never be a criminal you’re too good. But, thank you.” he didn’t know what to do. Deryn accepted Sam that was something he hadn’t ever expected. 

“We could go right now, or a different time what ever you like. And maybe dinner and a movie? Unless you’d like to I don’t know, go see a concert or, ice skating or something.” Sam shrugged it was Deryn’s choice, Sam would just pay.

“What ever you’d like to do it’s your choice. We can do anything.” 

[thelittlestdemigod]

At the mention of ice, Deryn’s whole demeanor immediantly perked up. “Oh!! Ice skating! Oh gosh I haven’t done that in so long! Is there a rink nearby? Do you know how to skate? I could teach you if not!” They beamed, bouncing on their heels. “C’mon lazybones, let’s go!” Deryn tugged at Sam’s hands, pulling the taller boy up from his seat.

[the-windswept-designer]

thelittlestdemigod:

Deryn had found out about their half-sister via Sam. The shorter demigod had pratically flung themselves about their room after that, fixing their appearance and getting ready to go meet their sister.

Deryn paused after tugging a shirt on. Their sister. That felt weird to say, but it just made Deryn even more excited than before. They hadn’t been alone per say, but going from the oldest of 6 to an only child had been.. well, diffucult to say the least.

They made their way down to the cafeteria, which is where they would expect to find the girl at this time of day. If not, well, they’d find her eventually. Deryn hovered in the entryway to the main hall, eyes flickering around the room trying to find her. When they finally spotted a blonde girl with electric blue eyes, their heart rate spiked.

Oh god. What if they weren’t what she was expecting? What if she didn’t like them? What if they didn’t get along? I mean, she was gorgeous and they were.. not. Deryn took a deep breath, steeling their resolve and pushing away those anxious thoughts before making their way over to Ellie.

With a bright smile, they approached her table. “Hi! I don’t think I’ve seen you around before, my name’s Deryn Fletcher. It’s nice to meet you!” They introduced, holding their hand out for her to shake.

Ellie looked up, stopping the air currents around the apple, the fruit spinning to a stop. She smiled. The eyes. This was a child of Zeus. And her suspicions were confirmed when they introduced themselves as Deryn. This was Sam’s partner and her half-sibling. Ellie had been raised an only child. She’d always wanted to have a brother or sister. 

Sure she’d met a few other children of Zeus at Camp Half-Blood. But she never really felt comfortable around them. She usually hung around the few friends she’d had. Sam being one of the major ones. And for some reason, the rest of her siblings never seemed to like the son of Ares. And despite hanging around with Alan, who everyone seemed to like, Sam and Ellie were still nobodies. 

Even the few times she’d been invited to hang out with Serissa, well, she still managed to be a nobody. She wasn’t that pretty. And before Sam, no one really noticed her like that. Standing next to the daughter of Aphrodite during her awkward teen years? Well, Ellie just disappeared behind Serissa’s glow. 

Ellie shook her head. She’d been lost in her thoughts. “Uh, hi Deryn,” she said, shaking the demigod’s hand. “I’m Ellie Brennan, and Ellie isn’t a nickname. Most people think it is. But, um, you’re a monster hunter right?” She knew that answer. She knew Deryn was a monster hunter. She knew they were Sam’s partner and she knew that’s what Sam did. “I, um, I’m kinda new here. I don’t know many people. Pretty much just Alan and Zelda, Serissa and Ches, and I’ve seen Ari once, and Sam of course.”

[thelittlestdemigod]

Deryn pratically lit up like a Christmas tree when the other introduced herself. “You’re Ellie? You’re my sister!” They immediantly sat down beside her, full of restless energy as they pratically bounced in their seat. “Oh my goodness, I’m sorry for the excitement, but it’s just, it’s so nice to finally meet you!” They grinned, “I mean, I heard I had other siblings, but I’ve never met a lot of them y’know? Mostly the immortal ones, they’re pretty indifferent towards me though, but, just, wow!! It’s.. it’s really nice to meet you.” Deryn grinned sheepishly. “Oh! This might be rude of me to ask but, how old are you?” They absolutely had to know. With their foster siblings, they’d been the oldest. But back at Camp, they’d been teased for being the “runt” of the Zeus cabin, as they were both the youngest and the smallest out of all their siblings. They still held onto the small hope that maybe this time they wouldn’t be the baby of the bunch.

[the-windswept-designer]

@thelittlestdemigod​

She’d heard that there was another child of Zeus here at HI-6. She wasn’t totally sure who they were or what they looked like. She’d just heard the name ‘Deryn’ and that they were partnered with Sam. That meant they were probably friends with the son of Ares. She wanted to meet them. Not just because of Sam, but she’d never really had a chance to get close to one of her half-siblings before. All the ones she’d met were arrogant and self-important.

She didn’t care much for people like that. She tried to avoid them to the best of her ability.

She knew little of Deryn. She wasn’t totally sure where she should go to search for the demigod. But there were a few places she could think of. Child of Zeus, likely fond of flying. She could start in the courtyard. Or she could grab an apple and just sit in the cafeteria. Most people went there eventually. She could look for someone that has the familial traits common to the children of Zeus. In other words, look for a person with startlingly blue eyes.

Shouldn’t be too hard. Her eyes were similar in colour. At least, she thought was something children of Zeus had in common. She could be wrong. Honestly, she didn’t pay that much attention to that sort of thing. Take Sam for example. The son of Ares was not that tall (certainly he was not short either), but he was of average height and more slender build. The opposite to most children of Ares that she’d seen.

In other words, she’d probably have better luck making a sign that said ‘Deryn’ and walking around until someone said “hey that’s me”. Sighing to herself, Ellie went to the cafeteria, grabbing an apple and tossing it in her hand absently. She probably wasn’t going to eat it… She also grabbed a bottle of water and took up a seat at an empty table.

She twirled the air around the apple, making it spin on the table. It was an amusing trick. She often used something similar to distract others from her, questionable, eating habits. If she could distract them long enough with her “magic” tricks, maybe they wouldn’t notice that she was playing with her food and not eating it.

[thelittlestdemigod]

Deryn had found out about their half-sister via Sam. The shorter demigod had pratically flung themselves about their room after that, fixing their appearance and getting ready to go meet their sister. Deryn paused after tugging a shirt on. Their sister. That felt weird to say, but it just made Deryn even more excited than before. They hadn’t been alone per say, but going from the oldest of 6 to an only child had been.. well, diffucult to say the least. They made their way down to the cafeteria, which is where they would expect to find the girl at this time of day. If not, well, they’d find her eventually. Deryn hovered in the entryway to the main hall, eyes flickering around the room trying to find her. When they finally spotted a blonde girl with electric blue eyes, their heart rate spiked. Oh god. What if they weren’t what she was expecting? What if she didn’t like them? What if they didn’t get along? I mean, she was gorgeous and they were.. not. Deryn took a deep breath, steeling their resolve and pushing away those anxious thoughts before making their way over to Ellie. With a bright smile, they approached her table. “Hi! I don’t think I’ve seen you around before, my name’s Deryn Fletcher. It’s nice to meet you!” They introduced, holding their hand out for her to shake.

[sammysansby]

thelittlestdemigod:

Deryns expression dropped, eyes flickering over Sam’s form as the other continued his story. When he shivered, the demigod reached over and gently wrapped his fingers over Sam’s, grip light enough that he could easily pull away if Sam wanted.  They couldn’t help but squeeze his hand when Sam explained how he’d been buried alive. A glint of something flashed in the demigods eyes, but they kept quiet.  “Sammy,” Deryn looked their partner dead on, “Everything that happened, none of that was your fault.” They ran their thumb over the top of Sam’s hand, moving to take it with both of theirs. “They were trying to kill you Sammy, I…”  Deryn paused, pursing their lips.  They reached up suddenly, wrapping their arms around Sam’s neck and tucking their face into the crook of it, almost half straddling his lap. “Thank you, for telling me. I hope you know that this doesn’t change anything, right?” They leaned back, a small smile on their lips. “You’re still my partner, and I’m yours. Till the end of the line.” Deryn said as they leaned forward, kissing Sam’s cheek. 

Sam stared at Deryn confused. He was tense, too tense, tense to the point where he was afraid he’d start swinging if he moved. “It doesn’t matter if they were trying to kill me, I know theoretical martial arts, I know how to put someone into a sleepers position. I know how to break someone’s arm if they try to hit me. Instead of disarming, or immobilizing that man I killed him. I am a murder, I am a criminal.”

And Deryn was everything he wasn’t. Deryn didn’t have blood on their hands, they were kind, gentle, and they even hated to use their biggest weapon. Sam relied on his fists to the point where he’d broken so many knuckles he was positive you could find scars. Deryn deserved someone like Oscar, or Balo, someone nice and amazing. Not a criminal.

“How can you say something like that? Deryn, I’m a criminal, how can you?” Sam stopped and looked the other way. “Alright, I guess I owe you a date. Where would you like to go?” 

[thelittlestdemigod]

Deryn frowned, shifting slightly so it was more comfortable for both of them. “I can say things like that because they’re absolutely true. I don’t care if you’re a criminal or not.” “Y’know, I think technically I might be one too.” They paused, pursing their lips. “So, even if I did have a problem with it, which I don’t, I wouldn’t really have much room to talk.” They smiled. “Really? Like, right now?” Deryn blinked, moving to slide off Sam’s lap. “Right now right now? I, um..” They looked down to their feet, shoving their hands into their hoodie. “What’s a.. good place to go, for a date?” They shot Sam a half smile, “I haven’t really, um, gone on an actual date before.. ever.”

[sammysansby]

thelittlestdemigod:

Deryn was barely fazed when Sam suddenly swung himself over the bench, but the little bird was. The demigod shot his partner a smile as they cupped the small bird in their hands. The bird didn’t mind too much, there were cheerio’s in the hands so it was okay. They remained quiet through the beginning of his explanation, perking a brow at the ‘rich’ part. Deryn couldn’t even begin to imagine being that well off. Owning more than one house? Owning a freaking island? These seemed more like fantasies to them. Even owning one house seemed more like a dream than something they could actually achieve. 

“My sophomore year in high school is something i’ll never forget. My mom was dating this guy and he didn’t like me at all. So he decided that it would be better to propose to my mom and get rid of me. I was kidnapped on my way home, and shoved in this wooden box.” Sam paused shivering the memories were all still there plaguing his thoughts. 

“They buried me alive, I had to punch the wood and climb out through all the dirt. Apparently they favor kill bill.” Sam laughed trying to ease the tension all though it didn’t help at all. “The two men who saw me alive drew guns and started to shoot me. I didn’t care and I just walked up punching one of them and grabbing the other. The first guy he fell and his head hit the side of this rock. I killed him. The one I held in my hands told me everything and drove me to my mom and her boyfriend, the police came and the two guys were charged with attempted manslaughter and attempted kidnapping.” 

Sam paused this was a lot of information and even he was feeling antsy and needed to punch something. He was feeling nervous and sick to his stomach this was why he never talked about it. “I killed him and it was ruled as imperfect self-defense. My mother never dated again, in fear that something like this might happen again.” 

He looked hopefully to Deryn, odds were the other wouldn’t want anything to do with Sam, and that would be okay, Sam would understand. 

[thelittlestdemigod]

Deryns expression dropped, eyes flickering over Sam’s form as the other continued his story. When he shivered, the demigod reached over and gently wrapped his fingers over Sam’s, grip light enough that he could easily pull away if Sam wanted.  They couldn’t help but squeeze his hand when Sam explained how he’d been buried alive. A glint of something flashed in the demigods eyes, but they kept quiet.  “Sammy,” Deryn looked their partner dead on, “Everything that happened, none of that was your fault.” They ran their thumb over the top of Sam’s hand, moving to take it with both of theirs. “They were trying to kill you Sammy, I...”  Deryn paused, pursing their lips.  They reached up suddenly, wrapping their arms around Sam’s neck and tucking their face into the crook of it, almost half straddling his lap. “Thank you, for telling me. I hope you know that this doesn’t change anything, right?” They leaned back, a small smile on their lips. “You’re still my partner, and I’m yours. Till the end of the line.” Deryn said as they leaned forward, kissing Sam’s cheek. 

[sammysansby]

thelittlestdemigod:

Fall was just starting to get into full swing, with the leaves bright oranges and reds and the weather cold as balls. Deryn however, was quite used to the cold weather, and while others in the park where bundled up in jackets and scarves, they were fine with a sweatshirt and some nice jeans. They were currently curled up on a park bench, tossing out cheerio after cheerio to the birds as they waited for Sam to come. Deryn chewed on their lip as they waited, worried about the fact that Sam said they needed to talk. Had they not been good to him? Had something happened? Had– A loud beep interrupted their thoughts, as one of the smaller, fatter birds jumped by their feet. Deryn cracked a smile, tossing it a few cheerio’s.  “Yeah, you’re right. There’s nothing to be worried about.”

Sam did not like the cold, he grew up in Malibu, California where they had very little weather change. So this was horrible the last time he was cold was his birthday when he decided watching the ball drop in New York was going to be fun. 

This was New York so it did make sense that he was cold again. Sam walked up behind Deryn and climbed over the top of the bench and sat on the top their feet where people usually put their bottoms. “Hey. I need to tell you something, and, and I want you to wait and hear the whole story before you talk. It’s not something you should take lightly.” 

It wasn’t very often that Sam truly thought that he was a monster, but this story proved that he was. “And if you want nothing to do with me afterward i’d understand. But first, you have to understand that i’m filthy rich. My mom, Eve, she owns a modeling business, well it’s more like an empire now. Sansby, And we donate money to cancer research the wild life fund and own houses in Europe and own a island in Asia.” 

“I’ll be the first to say that money causes problems.” Sam sighed looking the other way. 

[thelittlestdemigod]

Deryn was barely fazed when Sam suddenly swung himself over the bench, but the little bird was. The demigod shot his partner a smile as they cupped the small bird in their hands. The bird didn’t mind too much, there were cheerio’s in the hands so it was okay. They remained quiet through the beginning of his explanation, perking a brow at the ‘rich’ part. Deryn couldn’t even begin to imagine being that well off. Owning more than one house? Owning a freaking island? These seemed more like fantasies to them. Even owning one house seemed more like a dream than something they could actually achieve. 

[thelittlestdemigod]

@sammysansby Fall was just starting to get into full swing, with the leaves bright oranges and reds and the weather cold as balls. Deryn however, was quite used to the cold weather, and while others in the park where bundled up in jackets and scarves, they were fine with a sweatshirt and some nice jeans. They were currently curled up on a park bench, tossing out cheerio after cheerio to the birds as they waited for Sam to come. Deryn chewed on their lip as they waited, worried about the fact that Sam said they needed to talk. Had they not been good to him? Had something happened? Had-- A loud beep interrupted their thoughts, as one of the smaller, fatter birds jumped by their feet. Deryn cracked a smile, tossing it a few cheerio’s.  “Yeah, you’re right. There’s nothing to be worried about.”

[thelittlestdemigod]

To his surprise, it actually hurt. There was no actual bullet fired at Deryn, but the sudden burst of pain that shot across his chest sure made it feel like there had been. He let out a cry, curling into himself. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry Sam, I just can’t…”  The sound of the door sliding open sent a wave of relief washing over the boy, but he didn’t move. After a few moments, he slowly stood, shaky on his feet. He made his way over to Sam and wrapped his arms around him tight. Deryn was still shaking pretty badly, and he was quiet as he pressed his face into Sam’s shirt. He just.. he needed a minute before they tried making their way up to the dorms. ‘I’m sorry I made you do that… I’m so sorry..” Deryn said quietly, still holding tight to Sam.

[sammysansby]

Sam didn’t even think about it when he felt Deryn on their chest. He quickly picked up Deryn hugging them close and walked out the door. They needed to be alone for a while, maybe for the whole week if they could pull it off. But Sam had to admit to a few things. 

He’d tell Deryn the truth, the whole truth. Everything he promised he’d never talk about. Not since the trial, and not since the phone call with his mom. They’d tell Deryn everything. 

Sam almost kicked down the door to their room because he didn’t want to put Deryn down. “Ima’ set you down ‘kay?” Sam said gently putting Deryn down. He unlocked the door and grabbed Deryn’s hand leading them to the bed and letting Deryn cuddle into his chest. 

“I have to admit to a few things, and if you still like me after all of it. I want to take you on a date, and I am probably going to kiss you.” Sam said his nerves and thinking haywire completely working on impulse. “I really like you Deryn, and you are too good for me. Because, I am literally a criminal.” 

[thelittlestdemigod]

Deryn let himself be scooped up into his partners arms, loosely wrapping his arms around Sam's neck. This wasn't the first time Sam had picked him up like this, and it wasn't going to be the last time either. He took a few deep breaths, taking in the smell of sweat and Sam's cologne. Oddly enough, it helped calm him down.

He nodded as he was set down on his feet, letting himself be lead into their room. Deryn was grateful to finally be able to climb into abed, immediately crawling into Sam's lap and curling against his chest.

Deryn blinked sleepily up at Sam as he spoke, emotion barely showing on his face. When Sam was done, Deryn yawned and tugged the collar of Sam's shirt down, so he could kiss the tip of the orher boys nose.

"I like you too.." he gave Sam a sleepy smile. "But let's go on that date when I dont feel like a got hit by a train..ok?"

[thelittlestdemigod]

Deryn paused, merely staring at Sam and the gun. They were tired. So, so tired. They moved to sit down in the chair, practically deflating into it. Deryn toke a couple breaths, still just staring. They needed to get out of there, right now, they couldn’t be in this room anymore, it felt like it was closing in on them and Deryn could feel his heartbeat still going a hundred miles a minute.  “Sam,” they spoke slowly, “it’s not a real gun. It won’t kill me. They wouldn’t give you an actual loaded gun that would actually kill me. So, please,” Deryn locked gazes with his partner. His eyes were still red from crying.  “Please, just shoot me so we can leave. Please.”

[sammysansby]

Sam could see how tired Deryn was. This whole thing was emotionally, and physically exhausting. They didn’t want to be here anymore, and Sam didn’t blame them. But, Sam didn’t want to hurt his partner. They didn’t want to kill their partner even if it was fake. 

“You’re making me break my word. This is making me break my word.” Sam picked up the gun and didn’t even check to see if it was loaded. He pushed the safety down and pushed the slider back. He didn’t want to do this, he said he’d never do this. 

“I’m sorry.” Sam said as he pointed the gun at Deryn. “I’d rather die. But if this is the way the door opens, and, and you asked. I’m sorry.” He whispered turning his head and pulled the trigger. 

Sam didn’t look at Deryn he didn’t want to. He’d tell them everything, everything that had happened to him. Everything he could remember. Sam felt the tears run down his face, there was no way they were going anywhere but their room. Sam knew that much. 

[thelittlestdemigod]

To his surprise, it actually hurt. There was no actual bullet fired at Deryn, but the sudden burst of pain that shot across his chest sure made it feel like there had been. He let out a cry, curling into himself. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry Sam, I just can’t...”  The sound of the door sliding open sent a wave of relief washing over the boy, but he didn’t move. After a few moments, he slowly stood, shaky on his feet. He made his way over to Sam and wrapped his arms around him tight. Deryn was still shaking pretty badly, and he was quiet as he pressed his face into Sam’s shirt. He just.. he needed a minute before they tried making their way up to the dorms. ‘I’m sorry I made you do that... I’m so sorry..” Deryn said quietly, still holding tight to Sam.

[thelittlestdemigod]

Sam’s yelling helped bring Deryn back into reality after a moment, but it was still horrifying staring into your partners dead eyes. The people vanished after that, pratically disappearing into thin air, as they did ever other time. Deryn let out a shaky breath, trying to compose himself.  ”… I’m sorry you had to see that.” He said quietly. “I.. I didn’t.. I don’t..” He honestly didn’t know why Sam had been added to the others now. Okay, well, he might know why, but he refused to admit it to anyone, including himself. After taking a few moments to collect himself, Deryn made his way back over to the chair. He just wanted to get this over with. He could already tell he wasn’t going to be able to sleep tonight. 

[sammysansby]

Sam expected for the door to open but when it didn’t and he had a gun in his hand he knew exactly what was happening. “No.” Sam said backing up. “No, I promised I wouldn’t.” Sam was shaking at this point and put the gun on the floor. “I can’t. I’m sorry I can’t.”

“I’m sorry, I know you want out and I know this sucks but I can’t. I can’t hurt you,” Sam whispered. “I promised you I wouldn’t hurt you.” 

“I don’t break my vows, I refuse to hurt you. I don’t care if we are stuck here, we can just talk, I won’t hurt you. You trust me, and I trust you, so trust me, I won’t hurt you.”

[thelittlestdemigod]

Deryn paused, merely staring at Sam and the gun. They were tired. So, so tired. They moved to sit down in the chair, practically deflating into it. Deryn toke a couple breaths, still just staring. They needed to get out of there, right now, they couldn’t be in this room anymore, it felt like it was closing in on them and Deryn could feel his heartbeat still going a hundred miles a minute.  “Sam,” they spoke slowly, “it’s not a real gun. It won’t kill me. They wouldn’t give you an actual loaded gun that would actually kill me. So, please,” Deryn locked gazes with his partner. His eyes were still red from crying.  “Please, just shoot me so we can leave. Please.”

[thelittlestdemigod]

“Thanks Sam.” Deryn patted his shoulder as his partner went to go take his seat, and he moved closer to the middle of the room. Before he even got there, he already heard his mom.  “Why didn’t you save us?” Deryn closed his eyes. It was also his younger siblings who came first. The youngest, Kelly, would always be the first to speak. Then it was Josh, Caitlyn, Olivia, and then finally Adam. It would’ve been actually nice to see them if their faces weren’t pale and sunken in. Deryn could never bring himself to look. The first time he did, he didn’t sleep for 3 days.  Next, came his dad. His foster one, not godly. “I told you to protect them, buddy. I told you to protect them. How could you let her die?” Then, his foster mom. “Baby, why did you leave? Why’d you let your family fall apart? Why didn’t you save us?” She’d cry. At this point, Deryns shoulders were quivering, but he still refused to look.  “I thought we were best friends.” Came Austin’s voice. “You let me die Deryn. I trusted you.” Deryn was fighting back tears, but he didn’t look until a new voice joined the fray.  “Why were you so weak Deryn? Why didn’t you help me?” He screamed when he saw a very corpse like Sam standing just inches from his face. 

[sammysansby]

Sam flinched seeing the not quite humans bring Deryn down. This wasn’t the first time Sam had seen Deryn go through this part of their fears but it was the worse for a reason. This was what made Sam and Deryn different. Sam could survive, he knew he’d end up being okay and he would miss them but he knew they would be in a better place. 

Deryn loved a little too much. They let people into their hear more often than not, and Sam only held his mother like that. That was why his last fear was killing her over everything else. 

He didn’t know who these people were but Sam could take a guess and say Deryn’s family. The only thing that bothered him was seeing Austin. Sam didn’t understand why Deryn let Austin close to their heart. Sure they were friends but it didn’t make sense. 

Sam wasn’t happy seeing Deryn so upset, but seeing himself being mean to Deryn was not okay. “IT’S NOT REAL. NONE OF THIS IS REAL.” Sam yelled and thrashed in the chair. Deryn was not allowed to feel bad because of Sam. Sam vowed never to hurt Deryn. 

“I TRUST YOU WITH MY LIFE. YOU ARE STRONG, I WOULD NEVER HURT YOU.” Sam yelled hoping Deryn would hear him, all they had to do was get through the fear. 

[thelittlestdemigod]

Sam’s yelling helped bring Deryn back into reality after a moment, but it was still horrifying staring into your partners dead eyes. The people vanished after that, pratically disappearing into thin air, as they did ever other time. Deryn let out a shaky breath, trying to compose himself.  ”... I’m sorry you had to see that.” He said quietly. “I.. I didn’t.. I don’t..” He honestly didn’t know why Sam had been added to the others now. Okay, well, he might know why, but he refused to admit it to anyone, including himself. After taking a few moments to collect himself, Deryn made his way back over to the chair. He just wanted to get this over with. He could already tell he wasn’t going to be able to sleep tonight. 

[thelittlestdemigod]

Deryn hated the fear workshops. Absolutely hated them But what he hated more than anything about them was having to sit and watch his partner go through his fear alone. He couldn’t move, couldn’t touch him, couldn’t comfort him. It was like torture, but no where near as bad as it was for Sam at the moment. Sam’s mother was beautiful. He could see the striking resembalance between her and her son. It would be nice to have the chance to actually meet her, instead of watching a version of her die.  “Sam,” Deryn called, trying to make his voice as calm as he could, “This isn’t her. Okay? This is not your mother. Just don’t look, okay?”  Deryn looked away as well as the gunshot echoed throughout the room. It was silent for a few moments, before Deryn could feel the chair release him. He immediantly went over to Sam, placing a hand over his.  “You alright? Need a breather?”

[sammysansby]

“No, I’m fine. You can do the next one right? It’s almost over,” Sam said to Deryn. The last two were your worse and most of the time you couldn’t help your partner, it was always better in Sam’s mind that Deryn didn’t help him with that one. It was something he was supposed to do alone anyway. 

“Hey, I’ll always be with you, okay? No matter what anyone else says, I’ll be with you and, nothing is your fault. Don’t listen to them. Deryn it’ll be over soon, this is the last one, then we can go beat up Ivan for the day without anyone getting mad,” Sam grinned slightly. 

Ivan was probably going to set up a few breaks for Deryn and Sam if they did beat him. But, it would be worth it. “And if we get bored i’m sure Ari would be down for video games when they get back. You can do this.” Sam believed in his partner, Deryn was strong, they could over come anything. 

[thelittlestdemigod]

“Thanks Sam.” Deryn patted his shoulder as his partner went to go take his seat, and he moved closer to the middle of the room. Before he even got there, he already heard his mom.  “Why didn’t you save us?” Deryn closed his eyes. It was also his younger siblings who came first. The youngest, Kelly, would always be the first to speak. Then it was Josh, Caitlyn, Olivia, and then finally Adam. It would’ve been actually nice to see them if their faces weren’t pale and sunken in. Deryn could never bring himself to look. The first time he did, he didn’t sleep for 3 days.  Next, came his dad. His foster one, not godly. “I told you to protect them, buddy. I told you to protect them. How could you let her die?” Then, his foster mom. “Baby, why did you leave? Why’d you let your family fall apart? Why didn’t you save us?” She’d cry. At this point, Deryns shoulders were quivering, but he still refused to look.  “I thought we were best friends.” Came Austin’s voice. “You let me die Deryn. I trusted you.” Deryn was fighting back tears, but he didn’t look until a new voice joined the fray.  “Why were you so weak Deryn? Why didn’t you help me?” He screamed when he saw a very corpse like Sam standing just inches from his face. 

[sammysansby]

@thelittlestdemigod

Sam and Deryn as promised went to their fear based workshop on the third floor of the training facility. Having done the workshop before they worked together quickly, but like always the the last two were always the hardest. 

Sam clenched his teeth seeing the gun on the table and his mother in the chair. Killing his mother, that was his biggest fear, he couldn’t stand the thought of losing her. And by his own hand, that made it worse. 

He picked up the gun and ejected the magazine seeing the bullets. Pushing the magazine back in he heard the gun click, this was him stalling. He pulled off the safety and pulled back the slide loading the the cartridge into the firing chamber. 

“My mother’s name is Evelyn Leslie Sansby, she’s a model and goes by Eve. She raised me with every moral I have. And every time we do this, I have to not only hurt her, but kill her.” Sam paused and brought the gun up pointing it at his mother’s head. 

“And I can never look.” Sam turned his head closing his eyes and pulled the trigger and heard his mother fall. At least this would be done soon, they still had to go see Ivan. 

[thelittlestdemigod]

Deryn hated the fear workshops. Absolutely hated them But what he hated more than anything about them was having to sit and watch his partner go through his fear alone. He couldn’t move, couldn’t touch him, couldn’t comfort him. It was like torture, but no where near as bad as it was for Sam at the moment. Sam’s mother was beautiful. He could see the striking resembalance between her and her son. It would be nice to have the chance to actually meet her, instead of watching a version of her die.  “Sam,” Deryn called, trying to make his voice as calm as he could, “This isn’t her. Okay? This is not your mother. Just don’t look, okay?”  Deryn looked away as well as the gunshot echoed throughout the room. It was silent for a few moments, before Deryn could feel the chair release him. He immediantly went over to Sam, placing a hand over his.  “You alright? Need a breather?”

[thelittlestdemigod]

“….what.” Deryn blinked. Jaime was one thing, but Zelda teling him?  “I, what?? How long have you know about that? Does Alan know too?” They asked, a million thoughts racing through their head.  “No, I meant the club, agh forget it! Oh my gods, how long? Did he tell you? Did you find out from someone else? Did you hear those exact words from his mouth because if not I don’t believe you.” They frowned. “….Actually, I have.” Deryn looked away, the hint of a smile on his face. “He’s one of my best friends. My um, ex I mean. He’s a demigod as well. And I know, but I just want to take things slow with him, if at all, y’know?”

[insomniac4sleep-blog]

Zelda blushed not saying anything. “N-no! Alan doesn’t know, everything is A’okay!” She lied stuttering her words. “I-I haven’t known long, Sam totally didn’t fall for you month three.” She waved Deryn off taking a sip of her drink. “Alls a’okay Deryn.”

“Sam? Sam doesn’t tell me everything, ANYTHING!” Zelda quickly tried to recover. “I-I don’t know if those were his exact words, more like he said that he really liked you? I mean! He does really like you, as his partner! As his partner.”

Everything clicked in Zelda’s mind her face going from confusion to understanding. “No!” She gasped and then whispered, “You dated Austin?” Zelda paused letting the knowledge sink in. “Sam’s not the type to wait Deryn, you’re basically all he dreams of even if he doesn’t remember them.” Zelda went wide eyed with what she said and then tried to recover. “I mean, he totally doesn’t dream of you, and I haven’t been watching his dreams, I watch Alan’s though.” Technically not all of that was a lie.

[thelittlestdemigod]

Deryn frowned. “Zelda. Honey, you and I both know how bad we both are at lyin, so there’s no use in trying.” They sat bac against the couch, swirling their drink in their hand. “How much does Alan know? And be honest with me, please.” “Zellldaaaaa, please, you need to just tell it to me straight. I’m just gonna be even more confused if I gotta chase you in circles for the truth.” Deryn groaned, taking a sip of their alcohol.  “..... Miss.Reese, you better tell me right now if that boy dreams about me or not, or else I’ll make extra sure you’ll get a chickadee alarm clock every morning at 5 am sharp.” Deryn told her with an extremely serious look on their face. 

[thelittlestdemigod]

“Well.. that’s nice to know.” They cracked a smile, picking up their glass. They weren’t normally ever one for alcohol but… it’s been a rough week. And it’d only be just this one. Deryn toke a sip, shuddering a bit at the taste. “Amen to that, boys are super dumb.” They nodded almost sagely, taking another small sip of their drink. “What I still don’t understand is why he wanted to make me jealous.”  “Oh my gods, how long has this been a thing? Because I’ve needed this thing, badly.” Deryn smiled, “I’d like to see us as more too but.. I can’t risk it. Not yet, atleast..” They sat up a bit. “We’re still getting to know eachother, and I don’t want to just… throw it on him yet, y’know?”

[insomniac4sleep-blog]

“Sam tried to make you jelous because he likes you silly.” Zelda giggled and then smacked a hand over her mouth. “Don’t tell him I told you that! It’s not true?” Zelda said her voice unconvincing as she lied. “Ugh Alan says I’m the worst liar do you know how hard it is to play poker with someone who reads people?”

Zelda looked confused, “Our club? That’s a recent development. Mimosas? 1925 a bartender in Paris. Alcohol is more Alan’s specialty if you really want to know more about it or find something you like.” 

“Deryn,” Zelda paused. “Have you ever dated someone? I’ve seen people hop into a boyfriend, girlfriend relationship with only knowing them for two months, you’ve known Sam for Seven, and you know all his fears. People go on blind dates, you won’t be throwing anything at him.” 

[thelittlestdemigod]

“....what.” Deryn blinked. Jaime was one thing, but Zelda teling him?  “I, what?? How long have you know about that? Does Alan know too?” They asked, a million thoughts racing through their head.  “No, I meant the club, agh forget it! Oh my gods, how long? Did he tell you? Did you find out from someone else? Did you hear those exact words from his mouth because if not I don’t believe you.” They frowned. “....Actually, I have.” Deryn looked away, the hint of a smile on his face. “He’s one of my best friends. My um, ex I mean. He’s a demigod as well. And I know, but I just want to take things slow with him, if at all, y’know?”

[thelittlestdemigod]

“Alright, that.. that sounds like a good plan.” They nodded, “I’d rather not have to beat him up for him to snap out of it but.. as a last resort, I guess I’ll have too.” They frowned, relaxing a little.  “Make me jealous?” They perked a brow, “Why would Sam want to make me jealous??” Deryn asked, “Does.. Is that what the Jaime thing was about? But Jaime flirted with me so if he was using Jaime to make me jealous that.. well… huh.” “That sounds like fun,” They cracked a smile, “A drink would be nice, yeah.. But I’m pretty sure this is just a one sided thing. I don’t want to get my hopes up in the case that he does, because even then I wouldn’t want to sacrifice us being partners just for some crush…”

[insomniac4sleep-blog]

“Honestly, Sam is an enigma, his dreams are very interesting though.” Zelda giggled slightly getting up and going to grab a bottle of already opened a bottle of sparkling wine. “He enjoys your company Deyrn know that, regardless if you are mad at him or not.” She pulled out some orange juice and mixed the Mimosas it was still brunch, they could have mimosas. If not, well it was breakfast somewhere.

Zelda sat down and put both glasses on the table. “Deryn, Sam is kind of an open book. Jamie is a child of Aphrodite, they tend to know people better than the person knows themselves. If Jamie provoked Sam well, that’s where you get situations like this. He probably did mean to make you jealous, boys are dumb sometimes.” 

“That is where our club comes into play, welcome to the league of, we like someone we aren’t supposed to and could potentially mess everything up.” Zelda took a sip of the mimosa closer to her. “Trust me when I say that a few of us have been playing the waiting game way longer than you and Sam have. I’d like to see you and Sam be more than friends, and even though the risks are great, sometimes the outcome is better.” 

[thelittlestdemigod]

“Well.. that’s nice to know.” They cracked a smile, picking up their glass. They weren’t normally ever one for alcohol but... it’s been a rough week. And it’d only be just this one. Deryn toke a sip, shuddering a bit at the taste. “Amen to that, boys are super dumb.” They nodded almost sagely, taking another small sip of their drink. “What I still don’t understand is why he wanted to make me jealous.”  “Oh my gods, how long has this been a thing? Because I’ve needed this thing, badly.” Deryn smiled, “I’d like to see us as more too but.. I can’t risk it. Not yet, atleast..” They sat up a bit. “We’re still getting to know eachother, and I don’t want to just... throw it on him yet, y’know?”

[rememberwilliams-blog-deactivat]

thelittlestdemigod

“It’s alright!” They laughed, “And I haven’t ever had the chance.. I kinda had to grow up fast, y’know?” Deryn smiled, “I had a bunch of younger siblings to take care of, plus I uh… at the time, I was training for the Olympics. Before all the demigod stuff happened, I mean.” “Hey, thanks Ari.” Deryn grinned, “You’re the best cousin ever, y’know that? And same to you.” They playfuly punched Ari’s shoulder. “What’s it on? If you don’t mind me asking!” Deryn laughed and bowed, “Why, thank you!” They then stepped inside, almost grinning from ear to ear. “Oh gosh, what flavor should I get? Lord, I’m too excited about this.”

Ari laughed, face lit up like the sun, “Us cousins gotta stick together!” They rocked to the side to accommodate the shoulder punch, “No cousin of mine is going to for go ice cream!” 

Their smiled faltered for a moment, “Oh…Its on…artifacts. From Mythology, ones that might still exist in this world. We know that all those myths are real so I figured it’d be interesting to see what I can find.” not the complete truth, but not a lie. They weren’t ready to share the real search, but maybe soon. 

Ari scanned the list, “Well, that depends what you like. If you like peanut butter and chocolate go with Moose tracks, Cookies and Cream if you like oreos, then there are classic ones like chocolate, vanilla and mint chocolate chip.” 

They tapped their lip, “I think I’m going to get a root beer float. That’s just vanilla ice cream and root beer. Oh, and I’ll pay for yours since this is special!” 

[thelittlestdemigod]

“Oh really? That sounds awesome! I hope all goes well.” They smiled. “Hm... I don’t think I’m really one for more complicated stuff like that..” Deryn frowned, looking over the menu. “That sounds nice.. and no no, its fine, I can pay!” They smiled, walking up to the counter. “I thin I’ll take half vanilla and half chocolate with... a little bit of hot fudge?”