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We can shape our Destiny, But we can't change our Fate- John Constantine I am a huge! Dexter Lumis/Samuel Shaw fan (wwe nxt/tna impact!). I love #InDex too!! I also enjoy emo music, horror (mostly asian), British actors, rabbits, bird watching, gardening and butterfly keeping. If you wish to get to know me or talk, my inbox is open.

[thelonecoyote]

Amazing what a few odd years changes... .

He actually admits it, they are married and together....

I never thought I'd see the day....

(I do enjoy that man's brain...the rest of him is debatable)

[codchrist]

Wait Lumis grew his hair out? I thought it was part of the mask.

[thelonecoyote]

It looks like his hair was long at the top like Dexter originally had but let it go about 2-4 inches longer and the dreads are threaded....

Either way it's a cool effect and I love it....

[fictionallovelife]

"are u ok" i crave the touch of a fictional character whose hand I'll never hold

[thelonecoyote]

His voice...

Samuel Shaw has one hell of a beautiful voice and I really miss it a lot ....

I really wish he'd talk more....

[thelonecoyote]

~~ I wish he was mine~~

That was their thought that night as they watched the man wrestle. Their eyes were transfixed on the one named Samuel Shaw. The way he stalked his opponents, the way he made them hurt or made them hurt him. How did enjoy pain whether his own or another's. And the look on that man's face when he caused it. They'd swear their heart leapt a few extra beats every time it was seen.

It was hard to not love this man though his eyes were always more concentrated on a red headed woman. She was the one who stole all his glances and got all his affections and they absolutely hated it...as that woman never wanted anything to do with him.

Tonight that would change.... They thought as they gathered their strength to go meet him as he returned into the back.

Hearing him go off long before he even made his appearance they couldn't help but move towards him "Sam...." he glanced their way and kept going. They'd have to be bold to get him to pay attention and bold with a man like him was dangerous.

Grabbing his arm and speaking once more "Samuel" and finally getting him to turn and look at them. His eyes slowly turning dark as he started to move swiftly closer "Give me one good reason why I shouldn't hurt you right now?" He asked as he was dangerously close to them and made the space between them a sliver.

They couldn't run or even move if they tried. Shaking slightly they finally spoke "because I admire you. I look up to the way you handle yourself. The way you don't let anyone change you. You're Sam Shaw no matter where it takes you..."

He stared at them, and took a long whiff of their scent and then sort of chuckled "you almost sound like you're in love with me..." His eyes boring into them now as he watched with glee waiting the response

They couldnt deny it now, they came this far to get his attention and to just be in his presence "I do, I am head over heels and completely jealous of Christie getting all your affection. I wish I was them ..every day I wish it"

A growl came from somewhere inside of him. Perhaps an inner fight of his own until all they felt were the crash of his lips against theirs. He was so hungry, as they felt the clawing of his hands around their body.

He broke that kiss as soon as he started it but not before biting their lip and making them bleed. As he pulled further away he was enjoying the copper taste of their blood and slowly backing away "we'll see how I feel ...."

And then he was gone to the showers. Their heart pounding hard in their chest now as their hand moved to touch their lip where he bit down. It was the start of something.... What? They didn't know ...

[thelonecoyote]

The proper ending....

After Duke walked away, Indi muttered hard under her breath “Why did I say divorce? Why did I even make anyone think that Dexta would up and leave me like that. Stupid Indi. So stupid” she said as she felt the tears rising again in her eyes as she fought them back with a harsh breath.

The truth was Dexter didn’t leave her. Not completely. The truth was it wasn’t safe to have him around anyone anymore. He was now a danger to everyone and anyone around.

It happened a few days ago, when Dexter mentioned that he had to go home and check on his family. What that really meant was he had to bring his family fresh meat so that they would remain close to his house and never wander too far. The last words out of his mouth was that he loved her and that he would be back before nightfall, sadly that never came to pass.

After a few hours past nightfall went by and numerous calls and texts went unanswered, Indi had gotten in her car and drove her way there. She was thinking of every worst case scenario that could of happened and started to tear up scared she’d find him dead and torn apart by his family.

She turned into the driveway and got a really bad feeling as their wasn’t a single zombie waiting for her outside. This wasn’t normal, something was definiately wrong. She shook as she made her way to the front door and found it slightly ajar “Dexta?” she called, knowing the zombie family would let her pass through if they smelled her “Dexta? Are you okay? Please answer me?” her words strained the further she strayed inside the house.

Out of the corner of her eye, she saw movement “Dex?” she asked quietly and was met with a snarl from behind her. Turning slowly her eyes came upon the one making the noise. It was Dexter but how he looked made her drop her keys and phone and gasp. He wasn’t Dexter anymore. His eyes were now a cloudy red coulour, his drawing hand still intact but the other side of him was mangled. His family must have attacked him. Did he not feed them quick enough? Trust them too much? Indi would never know as zombie Dexter drew closer “Dexter, please. Don’t hurt me. I can’t help you. I love you and I will help you. Till me dying day” she tearfully replied as she showed him the ring on her finger “I love you and no matter what, I always will…” she spoke through the tears. It was between her reaction and the shiny metal on her hand that zombie Dexter just stopped moving. It seemed like there was a moment of recognition before he seemed to just turn off and leave her there.

Indi fell to the floor realizing that the man she had married and loved with every inch of her heart was gone and so cruelly too. She sat there for sometime before she realized she was all he had left, that his little family had left.

Wiping her eyes she got up to leave though she’d return later with the best meat she could afford and maybe even some roadkill she found along her drive.

She promised Dexter forever, come sickness or health, good time or bad and she was more then willing to always keep her end of the deal come what may. Even if it meant that the world would have to think he just up and left. Rumors were better then truths this time around because think what they would have done to Dexter if they ever found out the truth of why he was gone….

[thelonecoyote]

I wanna know what's the point of leaving this on your writing if you don't want anything to do with MOST people who write?

I am SICK and tired of being yelled at and treated like SHIT because my char has WRESTLER in his resume.

Sorry that offends you. But if you say OPEN RP....that means EVERYONE. Not just whomever you chose or you little group of nasty friends....

I know my char INSIDE and OUT just like you do. I have EVERY right to rp him as you do and you can at least give me a damn CHANCE instead of WRITING me off the moment you hear "wrestler"

[thelonecoyote]

Wanna know why I care less about being here?

Because I want to write as Sam Shaw and the MINUTE I bring up he is a wrestler.....everyone just stops talking to me

There is so much more to that char but NO....it's such a HORRIBLE thing to be a wrestler...and I am done

[thelonecoyote]

At least I am happy with my choices in life....

I loved Mr. Shaw the day I saw his acting as Sam Shaw and I haven't turned back...

Your choices must not be so good to sit here and comment on who you think I am. If an actor makes you think the way you do....that's a problem considering the way his own gf has separated this fandom. All her doing and he sits by idle and allows it to happen....

My guy however has done what David Duchovny should have done YEARS ago and grown the hell up and matured as a person. He also has always been a PRIVATE person and left his rl shit PRIVATE. Something else David could learn.

But keep going on and on about me as a person when you have NO IDEA how my mind works. Go crawl back in your hole and enjoy your rose coloured world of puppies and rainbows ....and I will enjoy my world ...

[thelonecoyote]

Did you see Duchovny brought his sugar baby bowling with his son? Ughh I thought he would be over the mid life+ crisis by now! She posted her video after Miller posted about his dad.

This is the reason I moved on.....

He'll never change.....

The new man in my life that I look up to is Mr. Samuel Shaw who is known as Sam Shaw in TNA or Dexter Lumis in NXT

He is a beautiful triple threat: phenomenal athlete, talented tortured artist and an amazing actor....

He is the absolute best honestly....and a horror fanatic like me to boot....

His art.....

[comeasyouare96]

Dexter

[thelonecoyote]

*wonders where the Nonnie went*

Just curious who you really are...

Whether I am packing my bags out of here....

Or staying....

[thelonecoyote]

I promise that I will come off anon soon. I’m just trying to figure out a way to do so that won’t make me feel so nervous. It’s been a long time since I’ve been vulnerable and I don’t want another strike on me.

Alright...

[thelonecoyote]

Do you believe that people are capable of changing and growing up for the better?

Sometimes yes, sometimes no

I believe some people can give the illusion of acting better but not have changed at all.

As you see, I too have been hurt repeatedly too by trusting the wrong people.

Many of whom have made me into the "monster" I am....

[thelonecoyote]

I’m afraid of what will happen if I come off of anon. I don’t want it to go badly because it has before. Having hope had backfired for me.

*raises a brow then shakes my head*

But I understand.......

I don't want it to be like this....

But I understand if you wish it so....

[thelonecoyote]

I don't really remember how my life started. All I know is I am from Orion. And I do remember the things you read in about in the bible and some things you don't (the great war for one, the same one in the Book of Enoch)

I have always been how I am today. Not much of me has changed except my form. I tended to side with Lucifer a lot which pissed a few of them off...

I was kicked out of the nest at some point....and by kicked I mean I fell. My one wing taken from me as it's a mangled bone with sinew though the other still works.

When bad things happen....I hear angel radio and my broken, mangled wing hurts....

The point of this is.....

I feel cursed to this world. Cursed to be stuck here and not understood. Left to be lonely and alone because as much as my sister says that I am "purple" I still feel like a monster...the very monster you see above....

Every year that goes on, it feels I pull further away from this world and feel more and more like a stranger. Always yearning to go home, even though my home died years ago...

[thelonecoyote]

It's still bothering me who sent that ask.....

I am afraid it's someone who could have deactivated... (I am completely sad about someone who did deactivate)

*sighs*