Stuck inside my head.

Here I'll talk about my days, what's on my mind, and what I go through after my husband was taken from me 6 years ago.

[thelonelywidow]

Made my first ever vision board.

I’m excited, may I see it & stick to it 🙏🏽

[lemon-water-pls]

This, WORKS

[thelonelywidow]

This is what I need to do.

[whatever-you-write]

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🙌🏽🙌🏽

[thelonelywidow]

So I clearly see how folk don’t like me…Its always SOMETHING that hits the fan. Welp, I am me. I love me. So …. tootles to you.

#lonelysoul

[thelonelywidow]

To me I am fat, but that is only bc I was so skinny. To me I am not me, but will get back to her. #10.24.21

[thelonelywidow]

I’ve finally kinda kicked back into gears. I bought me an indoor cycle bike ( I’ve gained 50lbs in last year ) & am eating better. Not worrying about weight until I feel happy behind my journey to healthiness.

#trying #loner #motivated #pushing

[thelonelywidow]

I still drink too much.. 2 years since last post. . . I’m no better, possibly worse. Though God is helping amazingly.. I still ache from

EVERYTHING

[thelonelywidow]

Hi, I’m an addict & alcoholic. Today is day 4 clean.

Right now, I am trying.

[thelonelywidow]

done with undergraduates. why do i feel unaccomplished

[thelonelywidow]

One month left of school. I woke today not wanting to “feel” drunk but wanting to feel “numb” so I had a drink.

Now I wish I felt sober..

[thelonelywidow]

i really just want to give up. tired of feeling like pushing is worth it. just want things to feel numb.

[thelonelywidow]

some days, I legitimately feel like i’m going to pass out.

[thelonelywidow]

learning that taking every moment & living/thinking in the precise moments, minutes, & seconds is vital.

[thelonelywidow]

🦈

[thelonelywidow]

my toxic trait: show me any sign of “push back”... & i’ll push you even further away, intentionally.

[thelonelywidow]

something to look forward to is required. yet i must remain patient.

hardest challenge is sitting with nothing in sight but the need to still have hope.

[thelonelywidow]

I can’t express how I feel to anyone. It’s either too much to listen to, to understand. Or just not even perceived how I need it. The responses of people lately literally place me in a state to just be quiet & let people move or pass along. Oh how I only see loneliness 😭