this is only being posted because i am under the threat of my 2 weeks of denial being extended even further.
this has been fucking torturous. Every day I was away at my conference I woke up to paragraphs upon paragraphs of pure filth describing in vivid detail all the ways she would play with me.
for 4 fucking mornings I would open my phone to the hottest messages i have ever fucking read, in a hotel room I shared with 3 other people, 1 of whom I shared a bed with. I had to bite my sleeve to keep myself from whining several times while I was reading her plans. I don't dream often, I smoke too much weed for that, but fucking hell I was going so insane over those 4 days that I had some kind of sex dream every fucking night.
I think my interest in somno has quadrupled from what it was before this started. i woke up to a message about it, and reading that when I was just waking up and still very sleepy and out of it did things to me. need her to play with me when I'm too tired to fight back so fucking bad holy fuck.
those 4 days were spent in a cycle of torment. I'd go to sleep pent up, have a dream that would make me wake up horny, and then read a message that would make everything worse and start the cycle over again.
all of this has been made even worse because she's found out how fun it is for her to call me and hear me react to her praising me and describing how she would take me apart in real-time. it's been so fucking bad for me, my brain starts fucking breaking as soon as she talks down to me. and as if dealing with her wasn't already enough, she's gets her fiance to join in on bullying me sometimes.
she's made me send her recordings of me saying the most mortifying things that I swore I would never be caught dead saying. she's seen photos of me in a collar and made me send her audio of me praising myself and saying how well trained I am. she keeps proving me wrong, and it's infuriating.
after being on the receiving end of that treatment for almost 2 weeks, I've become more pent up and needy than I've ever been in my entire fucking life. one small message from her is enough to set my whole body on fire. talking to her now, my head starts spinning, and my ears start ringing almost immediately. my libido is on a fucking hair trigger, and I am more sensitive than I have ever fucking been. I am so glad this is finally the end of this.
this is the part of this post I've been dreading writing the most. fuck.
Thank you for letting me cum tonight ma'am, even though I have been an ill-tempered brat to you repeatedly. you are a very generous handler.
if this post sucks i don't care, it's too embarrassing to proofread
