I’m not back, but I’m here
Hey y’all.
This is awkward.
I left tumblr because of a lot of things. As someone who has attempted suicide, the “kill yourself” messages really got to me, so that’s a big reason why I left.
I’ve been working on getting my life back together. Fixing myself. It’s going pretty good. Well, not tonight, why else would I be here at four in the morning, amirite?
I’m alive.
I’m trying to go back to college but administration is being DUMB. SO DUMB. I HAVE, LIKE, TWO SEMESTERS LEFT, PLEASE GIVE ME MY PIECE OF PAPER.
I kiiiiinda don’t want to jynx anything so I’ll only say this much about an upcoming career: things are looking up!
Bryan (the husband) and I are still groovy. Been married for five years now, still going strong! Sissy’s good too! (akayefdraws on instagram CHECK HER OUT)
I...I made some really, REALLY good friends on this site, man. We had a badass discord. Or still have? Idk. I haven’t checked it. I haven’t talked to them in a long time. Why? Literally no fuckin’ clue. One day I just got real scared. I think I was in that phase of the depression where I couldn’t get off the computer- you know? Like, I couldn’t balance life and computer fun times. Distancing myself? I don’t know. I don’t fuckin’ know. And now I’m too scared to come back. Isn’t that stupid? Like, I love these guys. I’m dumb.
I haven’t written anything in ages. But I’ve been doing a lot of art shit. Which brings me to my next point: I’m still here, you know. I’m not gone. I’m just elsewhere. So if you’re curious about the shit I’m up to with the family, the animals, and the dumb shit I create, I’m on Instagram, yo. I’m TheLoudMute on pretty much all social networking platforms.
I’m alive. And I miss y’all. Not just the very close friends I made on here, I mean every single one of you. I don’t know if I’ll still work on the COD universe, I haven’t read those stories since I left tumblr. I just know I’m still here on the internet. I’m getting my life back together. And I’m just...really really sorry. And tired.
And happy holidays.
Also, they’re changing the guidelines on tumblr? Like that’s dumb.